♥ Tuesday, May 1
Eveninq sweethearts, qonna bloq for abit before we start our qroup discussion online. Been a hellova busy qirl recently, it's like we're literally havinq presentations on a daily basis now, all for th sake of a final presentation of Friday. It's kinda borinq if you think about it, everyone's presentinq their same points over & over on a daily basis. Durinq finals, half th class is qonna be sleepinq instead of listeninq t us anyway, more or less, I'd feel th same way too. Probably spend th remaininq time after I finish my presentation t be at Bridqe smokinq my life away.
Been sleepinq a hell lot recently, only this morninq I had some horrible niqhtmare about walkinq somewhere in Thailand alone when I qot cauqht by these people & I'd no idea why either, no idea why I was beinq hunted down, probably because I was holdinq on t somethinq that they wanted, I think it was some kinda limited edition weapon of some sort. Got draqqed t some ulu shit, wait. I think it's Malaysia, not Thailand. & Love was standinq infront of me struqqlinq while these arseholes held him up tiqht. Some useless cunts in black w shades at niqht. & Love was just qivinq that very hurtful face while I knelt on th floor w th qun muzzle in my mouth. He was shoutinq somethinq that I couldn't hear for I was already weak in my dream, havinq beinq slashed on th back, & my riqht arm was broken from th fiqhts I put up, think I qot hit by some plank. I was tearinq really badly when I saw Love's face, no idea how & why they cauqht him either. I qot shot in th end, but I woke up before I felt th pain.
Pillow was wet when I woke up, Twitted about it & dearest Sister Babydoll told me t check it up for recurrinq dreams do have meaninqs. Considerinq that I dreamt of beinq in a sliqhtly similar situation just a few days aqo when it was a end of th world thinq while I was stuck in this cave I was searchinq for this same weapon & I had my iphone w me(HAHA) & called lil brother t tell Love that I loved him & that there was no exit holes for me t escape, it was really this really huqe Volcanic cave w no exits. & told my lil brother t collect my ashes if there were any, & he refused, tellinq me that I had t qo home, lava flooded in & I woke up. So basically I've been dreaminq about my death.
To dream that you are lost in the darkness denotes feelings of desperation, depression, or insecurity.
To dream that you die in your dream symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or your life. You are undergoing a transitional phase and are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Although such a dream may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm as it is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.
To dream that you are being kidnapped denotes feelings of being trapped and restricted. Someone or some situation may be diverting your concentration and your attention away from your goals.
Basically that's a lil bit of I understand from Dream interpretations. So I'm supposed t be chanqinq, t someone better i suppose! HA.
Continued sleepinq after havinq a short chat w babydoll Sister for I wasn't feelinq well, havinq my monthly fevers aqain, but this time, it's probably from th lonq hours I've been spendinq on th net, facinq lappy & th radiation's killinq me. But i qotta finish up th research & thouqh I do spend time tumblrinq & all, Ohwell. Hope temperature qoes down by tomorrow or I'd have a seriously hard time just havinq t present whatever I've done over th holidays.
Woke up hours later, talked t Jieh for abit about residinq issues & he qave me various solutions which I refuse t take because I'm just that stubborn. Didn't meet Love today, he's probably out & about, no idea what he's doinq, just spendinq th day sleepinq while he enjoys himself & now I'm supposed t sit here until 5AM in th morninq just t finish editinq th rest of my report for submission. Massive headache qoinq on in here.
Bored stiff but ciqarettes are my only companion, can't expect Love or anyone else t just pop by my house & watch me click click, copy paste, edit th entire niqht either. As lonq as everyone's happy, I'm cool w it aye. Wonderinq how that stuck up lil brother of mine is doinq, ohwell.
Hope Love's doinq qreat, & Happy Labour Day t you, thouqh it's really Labour Day for me.
