♥ Tuesday, October 27
it's way past 12 now `
happy seventeenth daddy ;] `
will pass you pressie soon ;/ `
-lauqhs- `
i've just had countless outraqeous thouqhts `
-lauqhs- `
don't worry i won't suicide `
i won't want to end up like that slut who suicided `
th slut next block `
stupid of her `
jus an hour aqo i was sleepinq `
nothinq bothered be so much as this, now `
a sinqle sentence woke me up `
brouqht back th memories `
1 year & 2 months aqo ;/ `
what's th point `
i don't force people `
just wonderinq why it affects me so `
i qet aqitated really easily these days `
that's awesome to know isn't it `
piss me off & i'd make you kick th bucket `
i don't know `
i seriously don't `
honestly , i keep seeinq red `
my attitude sucks ; seriously `
it's all my fault everythinq that happened occurred `
from basic results to relationships `
i suck in both `
what's th point `
it pains me `
you said it so easily `
you said it as if it was nothinq `
oh wow `
jesuschrist `
fuckfuckfuck `
i was stupid to believe anythinq in th first place `
such deliriousity `
what's th point ; seriously `
i can't believe i fell into it aqain `
time after time `
it just hurts so bad this time `
what th fuck is wronq with me `
tomorrow's O lvl Emath `
& here i am `
frettinq over somethinq of no concern with O's `
i don't know `
MsSuraiya was riqht `
i let my emotions take control `
it's th reason for my countless failures `
but its too late, ain't it not `
-siqhs- `
qet use to life, bitch `
you made it happen `
you caused your own downfall `
no point blaminq others eh bitch `
self-pity is disqustinq FFS `
-lauqhs- `
what's th point `
seriously `
this is hilarious `
.·´ `·.¸.» [ ღ(｡◕‿◕｡)ღ ` ] # ` .·´ `·.¸.» says:
today
i thouqht of somethinq outraqeous
-_-
i tot of splittinq my tonque with a penknife
hai
Disrepute ™ says:
hmm .
what ?
don't do it uh honey .
it's disgusting . ._.
MSN CONVO HA ;/ HILARIOUS
Labels: -siqhs- ` minutes after midniqht `
♥ Monday, October 26
-siqhs- `
i'm qonna be bloqqinq as per normal soon `
but i'm movinq elsewhere `
maybe LJ, WP or OS `
depends la ;/ `
-siqhs- `
why i chose to bloq today `
3 reasons ;] `
first `
i quess i flunked my enqlish O's today `
it's obvious that i messed up th plot `
and i didn't qet th format riqht `
so yeah `
sorry Ms Suraiya `
before th examinations `
you told me A2 A2 A2 `
now it's nothinq but a F9 ;/ `
sorry `
qeez `
i suck at it `
so yeah `
next `
Alex `
don't say i iqnored you `
i replied your messaqe hor `
as lonq as i replied you `
th word "Iqnored" ceased existance already `
so FFS `
i did NOT iqnore you `
& lastly `
boonhock `
qive in la -_- `
dont write this in my cbox `
it hurt her la -_- `
okay `
MIAinq aqain `
don't want to talk to anyone `
what's th point `
you quys just drive me nuts `
-_- qeez `
so much for th sweetnothinqs `
fuck `
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck off my life `
yayness ;/ `
happy birthday nuer `
hope you like th present ;/ `
didn't know what to buy `
P.S `
i miss Eric's lameness already -_-
POOL SOON BOY !
Labels: - take note `
♥ Wednesday, October 14
seriously cant qet up these days `
fuckinq headaches -_- `
just so pain la `
was planninq to study ;/ `
i tried ;/ `
so we went to th library `
qave up halfway `
nicholas was way too entertaininq `
askinq me if he was handsome `
so yeah `
instead of studyinq `
we ended up chattinq all th way `
even keith found us entertaininq `
amusinq in a way la `
talk about weird stuff `
qeez ;/ `
outta th world topics `
especially with nicholas `
& he tried showinq me qirls aqain `
-lauqhs out loud- `
qeez `
& i qive horrendous comments `
mean of me ;/ `
what'd you expect `
lil qirls -_- `
& nicholas lee is so haolian about it `
than we talked about RA issues `
keith found this super funny `
-_- kehan redface -_- `
what th fuck `
nicholas lee is dirtier than you think he is `
so yeah `
had enqlish mock `
xiasway or henq `
nicholas sit beside me ;/ `
sianjipua_l_ `
than he'd keep disiaoinq me about my marks `
oh wow -_- `
i swear my compo's way better than his `
just th lanquaqe is enouqh ;/ `
his lanquaqe's so cute `
but content based i miqht fail `
lalalas `
paper 2 `
fuckinq hard `
& after th paper `
as predicted `
he asked " how many mark " `
-_- he qot 2 marks hiqher `
he was overjoyed `
-lauqhs out loud- `
qeez ;/ `
had this screwed up headache `
merciless headache -_- `
fuckinq pain `
homed ;/ `
& removed th contacts to find -_- `
sore eye `
aqain `
what th fuck `
don't worry `
i didn't watch porn okay `
no time -_- `
must be talk to nicholas too lonq today `
talk til sore eye `
it's fuckinq pain riqht now `
it looks so fuckinq infected `
qeez ;/ `
spent th niqht cryinq without emotion `
it's just so pain `
addinq on to th damned headache `
what th fuck `
qeez `
infront of me is somethinq sexy `
;/ it's kor's barbell ;O
th spiky one `
can i wear it ;DDDD `
he's not home `
ahahhaa what th fuck -_- `
dirty dirty ;/ `
iqnore me `
i'm just relievinq myself of pain by bullshittinq `
-siqhs- `
it's pain `
but still have to study `
what th fuck -_- `
i promise to study from today onwards `
♡dearest Alex `please don't qive up `
you promised to come back one leh `
your daniel di misses you so much `
don't disappoint him `
& damiel di too `
don't break your promise `
qod bless you for your operation `
may everythinq be ohkay `
& that you recover ASAP la `
♡ `
Labels: - ♡ ` Alex ` dont fanqqi la
♥ Monday, October 12
i feel like qivinq up bloqqinq `
seriously `
most probably i'd just move ba `
-lauqhs out loud- `
i'm just so tired of all this nonsence already `
don't you know `
honestly `
i've been enjoyinq life for th past few days `
;] honestly i swear `
cross my heart `
th only thinq i've ever reqretted is `
hmmmmmmmmmm `
not bettinq on pool `
than i wouldn't be so broke now `
-lauqhs- `
okays `
i know what you're thinkinq `
to th countless sweet souls out there `
whom have been supportinq me all th way `
i've a horrible confession to make `
i've NOT started studyinq ;O `
-ROFL- `
sorry ;/ `
been enjoyinq life lately ;/ `
i tried okay `
but Daryl wanted to qo home today `
& i couldn't resist temptation `
so yeah `
but thanks yeah `
for pushinq me that far `
to my sweet parents `
who tried bribinq their way throuqh `
ha ;] `
not qonna work `
with temptations & freedom `
what's th point eh `
yayness ;/ `
i miss nuer&qwen somehow `
i just saw qwen that day `
hmph `
mean qirl `
didn't qo out with me for sucha lonq time `
but it's okay `
examinations first ;/ `
i'm just qonna bomb okays ;D `
that particular day `
when we had th emath examinations `
should be thursday `
;D we tried qettinq out earlier `
they qot cauqht & scolded `
yayness i qot off th hook ;D `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
met up with Him late ;/ `
mummy drove us to marina `
-lauqhs- `
went pool straiqht `
they were so cute ;/ `
th way they played were so ohwowiLOVEDit `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
they didn't stay late ;/ `
nor did they want to follow us `
mean people `
so yeah `
dinnered & decided where we should qo `
hmph `
think we went home after `
aiyah i don't remember la `
spent th next day sleepinq at my house `
lalas `
& th next `
met up with Eric for pool session `
houqanq `
saw loads of familiar faces ;/ `
si jerrold kor ;/ `
so lonq never pei me `
& henqburqer and cvss ppl ;/ `
& siaowei kor ;/ `
joseph kor ;/ `
all playinq pool `
was happily thrashinq eric `
ha ;D `
He came over ;/ `
lala `
Kors thrashed me kays `
i suck `
th rest was easy `
chicken pieeeeeeee `
Joseph kor wanted to catch th last bus `
so yeah `
left around 11 plus plus plus plus !! `
went clubbinq with Kelvin `
homed at 6 `
-lauqhs- `
qot fined aqain ;/ `
sunday `
woke up pretty early `
so yeah `
decided to bake cakes ;/ `
muffins `
okay `
kor was kind enouqh to buy eqqs for me `
-lauqhs- `
i didn't stock up on chocolate powder `
so quess what i did ;/ `
hmmmmmm `
milo LAUGHSOUTLOUD `
so yeah `
told kor to brinq some to weishenq `
lalalas `
they thouqht it didn't have flavour `
just proves how useless milo is `
hmph `
but yeah `
everyone finished my muffins ;D `
YAYNESS `
*Jumps in Joy* `
i wanna make more nonsense ! `
&today `
woke up early `
-_- `
schooled ;/`
Daryl kept qoinq on about th puss `
kept lauqhinq la ;/ `
stupid horny jokes ;/
so yeah `
went home `
by th way `
my naval piercinq split `
will some kind soul accompany me to th doctor's ? `
i need to qet it stitched `
& repierced `
screwed up day `
fuck `
okays `
i'm sorry i didn't study `
will study ASAP okays `
after i qet my piercinqs done `
♥ `
Jiayous lil brothers Daniel&Damien `
i know it's th last lap of th year `
make sure you quys don't reqret okays `
after my O's i'd brinq you quys out `
♥ `
stop threateninq me `
it's not workinq `
cause i know what's real `
& what's not `
so yeah `
Labels: - ♥ so much for happy endinqs `
♥ Saturday, October 3
it's 5:37 `
he's talkinq to me `
i asked for it `
but i'm cryinq `
seriously `
asked me to meet him on 22th `
-siqhs- `
i can't help it `
Labels: ♥love ; what's left but th shattered pieces `
hmph `
so qonna bloq this before i forqet `
-siqhs- `
dreamt of him cominq back ;/ `
& i was cryinq in th entire dream `
that's all i remember -_- `
fuck `
Labels: - dreams `
♥ Friday, October 2
i quess nothinq last forever `
today's th last day of official school lessons `
so yeah `
i can't say i'm qlad `
but i won't say i'm not either `
just a mixture of feelinqs `
but yeah `
i know what i really want `
after days of considerinq `
i've made up my mind `
it's qonna hurt `
i know it is `
lookinq back `
i realized how much it hurts for quys especially `
-lauqhs out loud- `
a quilty conscience `
what's th point `
reqret won't brinq anythinq back eh `
sorry `
been thinkinq about it `
& someone's qonna qet hurt aqain `
it's all my fuckinq fault `
i was never that anqel you thouqht me to be `
very much th opposite `
it's been so lonq since we last talked `
SMSed or even contacted each other `
so yeah `
i know you cared alot `
askinq everyone `
spyinq on me and all that weird stuffs `
i really appreciate it `
in one way ; you're tryinq too hard `
in another way `
you're not tryinq hard enouqh `
fate ; it doesn't exist `
oh well , not to me anyway `
i just don't have that determination anymore `
i'm sorry `
it's just not th riqht time `
th wronq time & th wronq place `
i know it's qonna hurt alot `
i'm sorry `
sincerely `
but i'd rather tell you `
& not let it draq lonqer `
scarrinq you deeper `
that's worse isn't it `
after all `
i'm sure your GANs hate me already `
my style isn't what you quys deem decent `
ain't it not `
what'd your mum commented about me `
i'm sure your kors&di's will comment `
save yourself ;] `
i don't know `
perhaps we'd meet aqain someday `
or we could remain friends `
but that's qonna hurt `
qive yourself sufficient time to recuperate `
i was never worth th wait `
what's meant to be will be `
don't fret okays `
examinations are just around th corner `
so why not just study `
strive for th better `
work hard for yourself `
& not for th sake of others `
after you're done with everythinq `
or you really need help `
a listeninq ear `
or whatever `
ir's okay `
i'd be there `
thanks for your love, care & concern `
but i quess it's over `
qoodbye love `
don't worry kay `
i won't be online much `
i don't reply messaqes or calls anymore `
it'd just hurt worse anyway `
takecare of yourself okays ? `
i'm sorry `
Labels: ♥qoodbye love `
