♥ Tuesday, March 31
all post reqardinq candle eatinq deleted ;]
♥ Saturday, March 28
simply moodless `
-siqhs- `
i don't know `
lost mood for alot thinqs `
lost th feel for alot of thinqs `
just wanna say `
thanks qwen `
lauqhs `
at least she's always there `
jiamin perhaps `
lauqhs `
-siqhs- `
let some people down lately `
-siqhs- `
life simply sucks `
for me that is `
-siqhs- `
been emo-inq for days `
i'm so unprepared `
doubt i'll qet over th obstacle `
-lauqhs- `
feelinq totally shit already `
bth `
i'm so not qonna chanqe th fonts `
its better if some peeps cant read `
but brainy arses will read th source `
obviously `
thanks quys ;] `
-siqhs- `
don't know what to do now `
lauqhs `
watchinq blood ooze out `
thats all `
wonder who's influence eh `
familiar `
-lauqhs- `
-siqhs- `
i don't know `
lost mood for alot thinqs `
lost th feel for alot of thinqs `
just wanna say `
thanks qwen `
lauqhs `
at least she's always there `
jiamin perhaps `
lauqhs `
-siqhs- `
let some people down lately `
-siqhs- `
life simply sucks `
for me that is `
-siqhs- `
been emo-inq for days `
i'm so unprepared `
doubt i'll qet over th obstacle `
-lauqhs- `
feelinq totally shit already `
bth `
i'm so not qonna chanqe th fonts `
its better if some peeps cant read `
but brainy arses will read th source `
obviously `
thanks quys ;] `
-siqhs- `
don't know what to do now `
lauqhs `
watchinq blood ooze out `
thats all `
wonder who's influence eh `
familiar `
-lauqhs- `
Labels: siqhs ` life simply sucks
♥ Tuesday, March 24
bridqe to nowhere `
-siqhs- `
school-ed `
it was averaqe `
used to th kind of life already `
test aqain `
didn't study `
quess i'll flunk both `
lookinq at th difficulty level `
miqht as well just suicide `
passed th chinese mock `
not a biq surprise either `
-siqhs-
not much mood either `
qettinq no-lifed `
its still early `
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it's too late `
-siqhs- `
certain thinqs i'll remember `
some thinqs `
once chanqed `
are irreversible `
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does my opinion matter `
why bother reversinq it `
-lauqhs `
such deliriousity `
don't wanna checkmate yourself `
then why bother askinq `
-siqhs- `
smoke all you want `
life's about choices `
i won't stop you `
forcinq won't qet me further `
it's your body `
not my `
-siqhs- `
thanks qwenniie baby <3 `
i love you loads `
Labels: ` fuck ` siqhs `
♥ Sunday, March 22
sorry quys `
for makinq you all worry `
finally replied boyf `
qod knows why `
just felt so mean `
-siqhs- `
it's been so lonq `
-siqhs- `
all qood thinqs come to an end `
its just a matter of time `
thinkinq about stuffs `
worryinq peeps for nothinq `
havinq headaches over th past few days `
don't know why `
-lauqhs- `
iqnorance `
-siqhs- `
just been to th counter site `
saw these cute stuffs `
qot th html and uploaded `
-siqhs- `
this is stupid `
don't you aqree `
-lauqhs- `
i freaked boyf out `
but i don't feel anythinq `
remorse ; perhaps `
i quess so `
-siqhs- `
but i owe you an apoloqy `
for not replyinq for days `
sorry `
handphone bills are expensive `
in no mood to reply you `
-lauqhs- `
this is a stupid excuse `
but i'm usinq it ; definately `
-siqhs- `
i don't know `
seriously ; confusion `
its only normal for humans to err `
-lauqhs- `
i didn't want to talk lately `
just felt so shitty `
-siqhs- `
quess eatinq candles is awesome ;D `
thanks for th concern qwenniie darlinq `
i love you muacks `
sorry for sinqinq at your bloq `
-lauqhs- `
quess boyf's still panicky `
but hey `
i'm still not in th mood to talk `
sorry ;] `
Labels: apoloqies `
don't know what i'm thinkinq riqht now `
feelinq so much anqer `
so much unhappiness in me `
-siqhs- `
no point thinkinq about it so much `
its better that way `
don't you aqree ? `
don't feel like replyinq you `
you'll most prob qet mad about it `
well `
all i can say is it makes me feel better `
not talkinq to you `
stayinq out of quarrels `
qettinq worse ; unstable `
-siqhs- `
this is stupid `
don't say sorry `
it's not your fault `
just my fuckinq ownself fault `
i'm a bitch `
don't forqhet `
-siqhs- `
just feel so damn fucked up `
P.S ; i'm not anqry `
P.S ; i may be free on th date you asked `
P.S ; don't treat it as a biq matter `
Labels: life seriously sucks
♥ Saturday, March 21
i do hate myself `
& my life ;D ~ `
you know that `
lalalas `
i'm th ultimate bitch `
fuck it ;D `
& my life ;D ~ `
you know that `
lalalas `
i'm th ultimate bitch `
fuck it ;D `
Labels: th ultimate bitch
♥ Thursday, March 19
4 sticks left ;] `
& i'm qettinq less stressful `
thanks for th advice `
& i'm qettinq less stressful `
thanks for th advice `
Labels: thanks `
had enqlish oral today `
quess i flunked it `
met up with them at 2 `
woke up late =x `
sorry quys `
dua-ed jiamin aqain `
-lauqhs- `
-siqhs- `
met up with qwen in th train `
-lauqhs- `
so sexy ;D `
everyone qot bluffed by me `
-lauqhs- =X `
fine sorry `
went up to vivo `
& candy empireeeeeee ~ `
lovely candies and chocs ! `
ahahaha -_- `
-siqhs- `
had decision makinq to do after that `
didn't know what to eat `
walked around ~ `
ended up in swensons `
hmmm `
after lunch we just walk aqain lor `
then SiYu mei ah `
bad qirl never tell mummy `
you eatinq outside `
then need qo home early `
see la `
anyway `
with jie since when early qo home ?! `
-siqhs- `
debated whether to take MRT or bus `
mei pekchek `
went home 1st `
hahaha -_- paisae la `
then went take bus `
happiness `
they seemed freaked out `
cause th ride's an hour `
friqqinq lonq eh `
used to it `
qot up on 80 `
spent th hour crappinq `
-_- so damn fuckinq funny la `
=x reached houqanq very soon `
waited for jiamin to qet stuffs done `
and off to th comics shop `
after they finished `
went home `
as usual `
th usual fuckinq mood `
fucked up la `
stupid qloomy stuffs `
didn't want to do anythinq `
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sorry daddiiex `
i didn't know this would happen `
sorry `
blame me if you must `
its my fault bad thinqs happened `
to you especially `
i quess i'm a jinxified bitch `
sorry `
its not like i'm havinq fun here `
you wouldn't understand `
i didn't make decisions `
i merely accepted `
and -siqhs- `
my fault `
fine i accept it `
i don't mind `
it doesn't matter `
but if anythinq happens `
do understand this `
i'm willinq to sacrifice `
i wished you didn't trust `
i hoped nothinq would happen `
lies `
fucked `
i'm th scapeqoat `
sorryaye `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
dear boyf `
please STOP thinkinq that way `
you know its not true `
its qettinq on my nerves `
and i absolutely hate it `
stop actinq like that `
i have no mood to entertain you `
you won't understand `
no one can anyway `
no one's qonna help me now `
no one's qonna pull me up `
-siqhs- `
dont blame her `
she's been there for me so lonq `
don tell me to close my eyes `
and think about people `
for your infomation `
i seem so fuckinq alone here `
no one understands my aqony `
to qet my own family in such distress `
i'm willinq to die you know `
don tell me about my other loves `
don compare yourself with them `
you know its fuckinq different `
you know i hate beinq told these `
perhaps you're qonna be anqry `
such atrocious words `
but if you understand me `
you wouldn't probe on this matter `
put aside th matter `
i'll be normal after awhile `
dont qet anqry `
i'm not worth it `
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6 sticks left `
what to do `
~ Stress Level ; Hiqh ~
quess i flunked it `
met up with them at 2 `
woke up late =x `
sorry quys `
dua-ed jiamin aqain `
-lauqhs- `
-siqhs- `
met up with qwen in th train `
-lauqhs- `
so sexy ;D `
everyone qot bluffed by me `
-lauqhs- =X `
fine sorry `
went up to vivo `
& candy empireeeeeee ~ `
lovely candies and chocs ! `
ahahaha -_- `
-siqhs- `
had decision makinq to do after that `
didn't know what to eat `
walked around ~ `
ended up in swensons `
hmmm `
after lunch we just walk aqain lor `
then SiYu mei ah `
bad qirl never tell mummy `
you eatinq outside `
then need qo home early `
see la `
anyway `
with jie since when early qo home ?! `
-siqhs- `
debated whether to take MRT or bus `
mei pekchek `
went home 1st `
hahaha -_- paisae la `
then went take bus `
happiness `
they seemed freaked out `
cause th ride's an hour `
friqqinq lonq eh `
used to it `
qot up on 80 `
spent th hour crappinq `
-_- so damn fuckinq funny la `
=x reached houqanq very soon `
waited for jiamin to qet stuffs done `
and off to th comics shop `
after they finished `
went home `
as usual `
th usual fuckinq mood `
fucked up la `
stupid qloomy stuffs `
didn't want to do anythinq `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
sorry daddiiex `
i didn't know this would happen `
sorry `
blame me if you must `
its my fault bad thinqs happened `
to you especially `
i quess i'm a jinxified bitch `
sorry `
its not like i'm havinq fun here `
you wouldn't understand `
i didn't make decisions `
i merely accepted `
and -siqhs- `
my fault `
fine i accept it `
i don't mind `
it doesn't matter `
but if anythinq happens `
do understand this `
i'm willinq to sacrifice `
i wished you didn't trust `
i hoped nothinq would happen `
lies `
fucked `
i'm th scapeqoat `
sorryaye `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
dear boyf `
please STOP thinkinq that way `
you know its not true `
its qettinq on my nerves `
and i absolutely hate it `
stop actinq like that `
i have no mood to entertain you `
you won't understand `
no one can anyway `
no one's qonna help me now `
no one's qonna pull me up `
-siqhs- `
dont blame her `
she's been there for me so lonq `
don tell me to close my eyes `
and think about people `
for your infomation `
i seem so fuckinq alone here `
no one understands my aqony `
to qet my own family in such distress `
i'm willinq to die you know `
don tell me about my other loves `
don compare yourself with them `
you know its fuckinq different `
you know i hate beinq told these `
perhaps you're qonna be anqry `
such atrocious words `
but if you understand me `
you wouldn't probe on this matter `
put aside th matter `
i'll be normal after awhile `
dont qet anqry `
i'm not worth it `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
6 sticks left `
what to do `
~ Stress Level ; Hiqh ~
Labels: oh fuck ` hate me please ;[
♥ Wednesday, March 18
dear boyf `
don't think too much
everythinq's qonna be alriqht `
life's like that `
i'd try to take your home as my home `
sooner or later `
sorry `
but riqht now `
all i really need is peace `
been feelinq fucked up lately `
you ; with th exams `
& me with th fucked up world `
qod `
sorry boyf `
hadn't had time to accompany you `
funny thouqhts miqht've ran throuqh `
but don't let them qet far fetched `
certain stuffs will remain that way `
and certain stuffs definately wouldn't `
aqe for example `
-siqhs- `
what's life `
i don't understand yet `
as to why you deleted your bloq `
but i quess life's about choices `
perhaps you don't want me to know `
-siqhs- `
well ; life's like that `
i doubt you understand `
beinq tortured here `
feelinq so fucked up lately `
damn your fuckinq exams `
oh well who cares anyway `
i'd be better off dead `
why don't you just text me `
that's for immediate answers `
been a qood qirl lately ;] `
just studyinq those notes `
qettinq work done for once `
much as i'd love to confide in you `
try to understand th constrained situation `
pretty fucked up `
find me if you want `
i'd be more then qlad to see you `
maybe you'd be able to suck it out aqain `
th fucked up information `
i quess you already half quessed `
yes its linked to th previous thinq `
remember `
its freaky `
fucked up shit `
-siqhs- `
know what ? `
i do hate parents `
yeah could say i 忘恩负义 `
fine ; whatever `
but think about it la `
boyf ; hope you understand `
don't think too much `
my phone's on 24/7 `
just call me for a chat ; perhaps ? `
your hols are startinq soon `
& i'll be back in school `
how does that feel ? ; awesome i quess ? `
-lauqhs- `
so much for happy endinqs `
don't think too much seriously `
i wasn't even thinkinq about those `
but qod knows what's on your mind `
such complex thinkinq of yours `
-siqhs- `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
but i quess `
without jia `
i'd most probably have qotten depression `
thanks qirl `
for always beinq there `
i love you ; i do ;] `
who's always there for me `
i've treated you hellish in th past `
yeps ; i deeply reqret it `
it's been hard for you ; i know `
to endure such hardships `
i heard you know `
-siqhs- `
i treasure you ; alot ;] `
it's always easy to strike a convo `
talkinq about anythinq under th sun `
seems so impossible with some `
even th most personal stuffs `
-lauqhs- `
crazed plans `
-siqhs- `
i'm qrateful to qod `
who has blessed me to meet you `
on th very first day in pri 1 `
never thouqht we would be besties aqain `
not after certain incidents `
toqether for 9 years ; or less perhaps ? `
shockinqly unbelievable `
thanks for th comforts darlinq ;] `
for always beinq there `
tryinq to help thouqh its impossible `
such efforts are deeply appreciated `
for tryinq to cheer me up `
sharinq th stuffs `
and everythinq `
such insanity `
same thouqhts `
life's about choices `
your willinqness ; touched me `
qreatly `
none have reached this staqe as yet `
perhaps boyf ? `
but friends are different `
classification is stupid `
but i quess you've made it `
th start of th year `
i was blind to stuffs `
thanks SY for brinqinq it up `
enliqhteninq me ; unblindinq me `
all those craps `
i'm qrateful `
i'm sensitive to these stuffs `
really `
i remember th sec1 bondinq `
another parent said th same thinq `
-lauqhs- `
funn how it happens `
ppl of th same aqe think likewise `
funny ;x `
some qot affected `
thouqht similarly `
but you didn't `
& did somethinq horrendous for me `
felt like cryinq `
didn't know how to express my qratitude `
tried `
-siqhs- `
what a failure `
heeded some advice `
and tried followinq it `
-siqhs- `
fear of failure `
such iqnorance `
for secrets ; shared by few `
spread by most `
such selfishness ; unseen by you `
a virtue so rare ; you accomplished `
kept it quiet `
my stupid bad hobby `
i'd try to quit `
at least you didn't say `
-siqhs- `
some people would `
fuck `
oh well ~ `
i just wanna say thanks `
but thanks is a small word `
just doesn't fit in th picture `
but thanks jiamin ;] i love you `
muacks <3 `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
today `
went studyinq `
see dear ; i very quai one ok `
-_- had my damn hair cut `
wonderful `
finished studyinq `
mum was kind `
bothered pickinq me up `
startinq crappinq on somethinq `
seriously i qot fucked up `
dear look at this paraqraph `
& i quess you know my feelinqs `
why i emo-ed `
why i qot fucked up `
why i hate my life `
that's it `
just waitinq for someone `
made me wait for lonq `
& still not here `
fucked up `
hmphs -_- `
don't think too much
everythinq's qonna be alriqht `
life's like that `
i'd try to take your home as my home `
sooner or later `
sorry `
but riqht now `
all i really need is peace `
been feelinq fucked up lately `
you ; with th exams `
& me with th fucked up world `
qod `
sorry boyf `
hadn't had time to accompany you `
funny thouqhts miqht've ran throuqh `
but don't let them qet far fetched `
certain stuffs will remain that way `
and certain stuffs definately wouldn't `
aqe for example `
-siqhs- `
what's life `
i don't understand yet `
as to why you deleted your bloq `
but i quess life's about choices `
perhaps you don't want me to know `
-siqhs- `
well ; life's like that `
i doubt you understand `
beinq tortured here `
feelinq so fucked up lately `
damn your fuckinq exams `
oh well who cares anyway `
i'd be better off dead `
why don't you just text me `
that's for immediate answers `
been a qood qirl lately ;] `
just studyinq those notes `
qettinq work done for once `
much as i'd love to confide in you `
try to understand th constrained situation `
pretty fucked up `
find me if you want `
i'd be more then qlad to see you `
maybe you'd be able to suck it out aqain `
th fucked up information `
i quess you already half quessed `
yes its linked to th previous thinq `
remember `
its freaky `
fucked up shit `
-siqhs- `
know what ? `
i do hate parents `
yeah could say i 忘恩负义 `
fine ; whatever `
but think about it la `
boyf ; hope you understand `
don't think too much `
my phone's on 24/7 `
just call me for a chat ; perhaps ? `
your hols are startinq soon `
& i'll be back in school `
how does that feel ? ; awesome i quess ? `
-lauqhs- `
so much for happy endinqs `
don't think too much seriously `
i wasn't even thinkinq about those `
but qod knows what's on your mind `
such complex thinkinq of yours `
-siqhs- `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
but i quess `
without jia `
i'd most probably have qotten depression `
thanks qirl `
for always beinq there `
i love you ; i do ;] `
who's always there for me `
i've treated you hellish in th past `
yeps ; i deeply reqret it `
it's been hard for you ; i know `
to endure such hardships `
i heard you know `
-siqhs- `
i treasure you ; alot ;] `
it's always easy to strike a convo `
talkinq about anythinq under th sun `
seems so impossible with some `
even th most personal stuffs `
-lauqhs- `
crazed plans `
-siqhs- `
i'm qrateful to qod `
who has blessed me to meet you `
on th very first day in pri 1 `
never thouqht we would be besties aqain `
not after certain incidents `
toqether for 9 years ; or less perhaps ? `
shockinqly unbelievable `
thanks for th comforts darlinq ;] `
for always beinq there `
tryinq to help thouqh its impossible `
such efforts are deeply appreciated `
for tryinq to cheer me up `
sharinq th stuffs `
and everythinq `
such insanity `
same thouqhts `
life's about choices `
your willinqness ; touched me `
qreatly `
none have reached this staqe as yet `
perhaps boyf ? `
but friends are different `
classification is stupid `
but i quess you've made it `
th start of th year `
i was blind to stuffs `
thanks SY for brinqinq it up `
enliqhteninq me ; unblindinq me `
all those craps `
i'm qrateful `
i'm sensitive to these stuffs `
really `
i remember th sec1 bondinq `
another parent said th same thinq `
-lauqhs- `
funn how it happens `
ppl of th same aqe think likewise `
funny ;x `
some qot affected `
thouqht similarly `
but you didn't `
& did somethinq horrendous for me `
felt like cryinq `
didn't know how to express my qratitude `
tried `
-siqhs- `
what a failure `
heeded some advice `
and tried followinq it `
-siqhs- `
fear of failure `
such iqnorance `
for secrets ; shared by few `
spread by most `
such selfishness ; unseen by you `
a virtue so rare ; you accomplished `
kept it quiet `
my stupid bad hobby `
i'd try to quit `
at least you didn't say `
-siqhs- `
some people would `
fuck `
oh well ~ `
i just wanna say thanks `
but thanks is a small word `
just doesn't fit in th picture `
but thanks jiamin ;] i love you `
muacks <3 `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
today `
went studyinq `
see dear ; i very quai one ok `
-_- had my damn hair cut `
wonderful `
finished studyinq `
mum was kind `
bothered pickinq me up `
startinq crappinq on somethinq `
seriously i qot fucked up `
dear look at this paraqraph `
& i quess you know my feelinqs `
why i emo-ed `
why i qot fucked up `
why i hate my life `
that's it `
just waitinq for someone `
made me wait for lonq `
& still not here `
fucked up `
hmphs -_- `
Labels: muacks ILOVEJIAMIN `
♥ Tuesday, March 17
Sorry Daniel Di ~ `
didn't mean to qet so hot ytd `
qot really mad `
lost my mind somehow `
-siqhs- `
blame asiasoft passport `
bouqht cash ~ `
and couldn't qet it throuqh `
fuck my memory status `
totally poor `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
qot so mad `
think i qot it suspended anyway `
fuck `
and worse `
lex's daddiiex was mean `
no internet `
sianded la `
and someone harpinq on somethinq `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
you know `
actually `
stop pushinq to blame on me `
it's not 101% my fuckinq fault hor `
you treat it as if i brouqht this upon us all `
fuck you la cheebye `
certain acts weren't contributed by me `
so were th decisions `
i'm just your scapeqoat innit ? `
qod fuck `
and i just shut th fuck up `
its been so lonq `
& i'd very much appeciate it `
if you would Stop th blamepushinq `
-____________- `
your just addinq on to my insanity `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
anw darlinq `
i'm not qonna chanqe th font `
too much of a hassle `
laziness ~ `
didn't mean to qet so hot ytd `
qot really mad `
lost my mind somehow `
-siqhs- `
blame asiasoft passport `
bouqht cash ~ `
and couldn't qet it throuqh `
fuck my memory status `
totally poor `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
fuck it `
qot so mad `
think i qot it suspended anyway `
fuck `
and worse `
lex's daddiiex was mean `
no internet `
sianded la `
and someone harpinq on somethinq `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
you know `
actually `
stop pushinq to blame on me `
it's not 101% my fuckinq fault hor `
you treat it as if i brouqht this upon us all `
fuck you la cheebye `
certain acts weren't contributed by me `
so were th decisions `
i'm just your scapeqoat innit ? `
qod fuck `
and i just shut th fuck up `
its been so lonq `
& i'd very much appeciate it `
if you would Stop th blamepushinq `
-____________- `
your just addinq on to my insanity `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
anw darlinq `
i'm not qonna chanqe th font `
too much of a hassle `
laziness ~ `
Labels: fuckeddddd up `
♥ Monday, March 16
sianded `
slept late today `
met up with jia around 2 `
hmmms `
didnt feel like doinq anythinq `
was planninq to cut hair `
but didn't `
cause jia was considerinq `
& she considered th whole day `
felt super emo `
whole day `
i siao can -_- ? `
after qoinq to th library `
jia wanted to qo home `
said she wanted to wash her hair `
i was like noooo... al th way `
-siqhs- `
i relented in th end `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
went home after that anyway `
moodless `
slept aqain ~ `
had some dreadful niqhtmare `
& went to CP soon after `
bouqht cash ~ `
as requested la `
home-d `
& waitinq `
& still waitinq `
qot fuck-ed up `
went maple `
& quess what i saw `
sorry Daniel ; Draqon `
someone hacked ;[ `
sorry about your stuffs `
-siqhs- `
play audi i'll send you stuff `
way easier `
cant replace `
moodless for maple `
just so damn fucked up `
tryinq to remember my L-ID `
cant `
& cant top up th fuckinq cash `
& lex isn't online `
and qod `
life does suck alot `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
all i can say is `
such disappointment `
to think i trusted you `
how could i `
after 5 years without trust `
i trusted someone for th 1st time `
reqardinq this issue `
and poof went th items `
its not its worth `
its th trust `
in fact `
i don't qive a fuck about $ `
but trust `
it hurts you know `
i don't see why i was so stupid `
to even have trusted you `
in th very first place `
qod damn fuck `
i hate myself `
so much for happy endinqs huh `
fuck `
nothinq's qonna chanqe that fact `
& i doubt i'll ever trust aqain `
5 years to build `
1 minute to destroy `
such swiftness ; totally uncalled for `
but what's done is done `
ain't it ? `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
thanks dear `
for tryinq `
but i quess i'm weird `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
dear lex ~ `
your th best la hor `
it doesn't matter if you cant online `
doesn't matter `
-siqhs- `
try cheerup `
you dulan `
i also dulan what `
sianded riqht `
don dulan `
fuck care all th un-trustworthy ! `
fuck care all th parents ! `
fuck care all th bad stuff `
so lonq fuckers ! `
slept late today `
met up with jia around 2 `
hmmms `
didnt feel like doinq anythinq `
was planninq to cut hair `
but didn't `
cause jia was considerinq `
& she considered th whole day `
felt super emo `
whole day `
i siao can -_- ? `
after qoinq to th library `
jia wanted to qo home `
said she wanted to wash her hair `
i was like noooo... al th way `
-siqhs- `
i relented in th end `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
went home after that anyway `
moodless `
slept aqain ~ `
had some dreadful niqhtmare `
& went to CP soon after `
bouqht cash ~ `
as requested la `
home-d `
& waitinq `
& still waitinq `
qot fuck-ed up `
went maple `
& quess what i saw `
sorry Daniel ; Draqon `
someone hacked ;[ `
sorry about your stuffs `
-siqhs- `
play audi i'll send you stuff `
way easier `
cant replace `
moodless for maple `
just so damn fucked up `
tryinq to remember my L-ID `
cant `
& cant top up th fuckinq cash `
& lex isn't online `
and qod `
life does suck alot `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
all i can say is `
such disappointment `
to think i trusted you `
how could i `
after 5 years without trust `
i trusted someone for th 1st time `
reqardinq this issue `
and poof went th items `
its not its worth `
its th trust `
in fact `
i don't qive a fuck about $ `
but trust `
it hurts you know `
i don't see why i was so stupid `
to even have trusted you `
in th very first place `
qod damn fuck `
i hate myself `
so much for happy endinqs huh `
fuck `
nothinq's qonna chanqe that fact `
& i doubt i'll ever trust aqain `
5 years to build `
1 minute to destroy `
such swiftness ; totally uncalled for `
but what's done is done `
ain't it ? `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
thanks dear `
for tryinq `
but i quess i'm weird `
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ `
dear lex ~ `
your th best la hor `
it doesn't matter if you cant online `
doesn't matter `
-siqhs- `
try cheerup `
you dulan `
i also dulan what `
sianded riqht `
don dulan `
fuck care all th un-trustworthy ! `
fuck care all th parents ! `
fuck care all th bad stuff `
so lonq fuckers ! `
Labels: fucked up `
♥ Sunday, March 15
just opened bloq aqain `
cause lex panqseh-ed me `
nothinq to do `
just decided to chanqe skin `
somethinq i've been tryinq to do `
for months ; that is `
but laziness huqqed me tiqht `
never lettinq me qo ;D `
riqht -_- `
now i did it `
cause lex went to bed `
uh-huh `
a full month without bloqqinq `
hmphs `
shall start tomorrow `
nothinq much to update `
it will bore you to death `
trust me `
;] sweet smiles `
& niqhts darlinqs `
cause lex panqseh-ed me `
nothinq to do `
just decided to chanqe skin `
somethinq i've been tryinq to do `
for months ; that is `
but laziness huqqed me tiqht `
never lettinq me qo ;D `
riqht -_- `
now i did it `
cause lex went to bed `
uh-huh `
a full month without bloqqinq `
hmphs `
shall start tomorrow `
nothinq much to update `
it will bore you to death `
trust me `
;] sweet smiles `
& niqhts darlinqs `
Labels: re-openinqs `
