♥ Thursday, March 31
woke up pretty late `
was supposed to have an appointment at noon `
but i couldn't qet up so i chanqed it to 3PM `
& then, 5PM; i was late, still `
well, i have my reasons as usual, traffic jam&all `
-lauqhs-, truth is, i was re-watchinq blackswan on my lappy `
it's such an awesome movie, such perfection&deception `
& i only started qettinq prepared after 3PM `
qot bro to buy me chillhubby & qot him on th riqht track `
thereafter, leavinq for cityhall with peak charqes ;( `
metup w Levi& we shopped for his wallet `
i picked a qlossy white for him `
it sounds qay, but it's his style to have white `
-lauqhs-, i just like beinq unique `
so perhaps, th styles i pick sounds weird too `
continued shoppinq for stuffs `
it's like, nothinq much to walk `
moreover i just combed th malls yesterday `
thus, we cabbed over to vivo `
found some junk to buy `
bouqht myself another cocktail dress in deeppurple ♥ `
a scarf, candy empire's awesome chocolates & a rinq `
well that's about all th shoppinq loots i qot for th day `
we had pizza hut at harbourfrontcentre for latedinner `
& levi sent me home before leavinq (; `
i'm blesseddddddd ! `
Kenson flew back to Sinqapore already ♥ `
damn, i miss him a hell lot while he was in thai `
just thinkinq about my chor phonebill this month `
but i doubt he appreciates it ;( `
♥ Wednesday, March 30
th lonq awaited holidays are finally here \(n_n)/ `
i still can't believe i completed an entire year of sadism `
well, i feel blessed; havinq th chance to meet awesome people `
it's probably for fun-filled than i expected `
but these few people kept me hanqinq on `
just when i felt like qivinq up `
up to th very last moment `
thanks quys ♥ i love you all `
Esp Ben&Sweesh, pushinq me until th very end `
qivinq me advice&help&solutions all th way `
it wasn't easy, up to th very end `
when my presentation was screwed `
he tried to cheer me up, qave me confidence `
- - - - ♥ - - - - `
i slept at 8.30AM, reachinq home around 5AM `
i can't remember what i did last niqht `
but i was really tired & was textinq ben `
was supposed to be in school by 10, but `
well, apparently i dozed off & there qoes th debrief `
then aqain, i don't qive a fuck `
so i met th quys after 1PM instead `
& landed ourselves in marina square where we pooled `
Ben bullied me, he thrashed me ;( `
& had this idea of one-hand-pool `
he thrashed me aqain `
until lil brother came & pwned his ass hard \(n_n)/ `
& we cauqht a movie toqether; for th first time ! `
excited much, we watched Red ridinq hood `
it's really an awesome movie & an unexpected twist `
i thouqht "Henry" was handsome LOL `
after th movie, we went for dinner `
brinqinq my lil brother alonq `
we had waraku @ 1st floor, thouqh i wanted th one @ 3rd floor `
kind of epic w lil brother tellinq sensitive cold jokes `
Sweesh&I had a lauqh, Ben was like "diao, whatthphuck " `
alriqhty, lil bro went w his teammates `
while we went home ♥ `
it was an awesome day, i'd miss you quys ♥ `
bestest friends i met in 2010 ♥ `
th quys at pool `
keepinq me bored isn't a qood thinq `
lil brother `
Oranqe is th "sex"; LOL, like real `
♥ Monday, March 28
Today's th last day of year one `
i haven't slept a decent 5 hours in 4days `
probably an hour or 2 per day `
i finished most of th work in time `
thouqh it wasn't perfect, probably th worst `
my presentation sucked, i stammered, stopped `
& couldn't think straiqht, there qoes my marks `
fuckmylife, but hey, fuck it `
i don't qive a fuck anyway `
well i do, but what can i do `
4fuckinq days isn't enouqh `
so we went for lunch opp instead `
while we waited for Prawn's turn to present `
8 of us went for zu chao, retarded huh `
kinda enjoyable despite not havinq th appetite to eat `
went back to school lookinq like lil kids, boys ;/ `
urqh, waited w ben for his turn `
& left school after ben & yudish finished `
i'm so freakinzxc happeh `
ben was riqht, yudish will definitely smoke aqain `
cause he told me he'd quit like a month aqo `
happymuch, i do miss th times we cut class `
smoke & talk nonsense toqether `
urqh, th perfect life in yearone ♥ `
i swear i'd miss th 3 of you durinq th hols `
you quys've been th bestest thinq in TP `
thanks for chanqinq my life since Sem2 (; `
♥ Wednesday, March 23
On th way to school `
fucked up day `
received a call on my house phone at noon `
my awesome lecturer called&I thouqht it was P1 `
she was talkinq about a missinq piece `
& i had to explain it wasn't there before she called th quys `
qeez, who'd take th cover when you can take th scope itself `
so i went back to paintinq my nails `
& somehow complained to th quys at th same time `
they qot scoldinqs too ! LOLOLOLs `
which was rather hilarious `
considerinq, she was nicer to me `
havinq a pussy is qreat, trust me `
less scoldinqs& everyone qives you space to breathe `
an hour later, we received a mail `
we were to qo back to th studio at 3 `
poor Sweesh; he lives in juronq `
funnymuch, Sionq was smart he didn't qo back `
hmph, asshole _l_ `
so i cabbed there around 3;30 `
& she'd left already, leavinq me cursinq&swearinq `
was updated that it was missinq before yesterday `
so it was none of our business `
qoodjob, i actually went down for nothinq `
replenish stocks from bookshop `
& went home `
qood day indeed `
Mot Arom -
♥ Saturday, March 19
I reached home at 7 plus `
& slept at 10.30AM, it's fucked up `
was planninq to wake at 11-12PM `
but i overslept, all th way until 4PM `
so i had a rushed shower, put on some casual clothes `
& cabbed down to ION `
fuck th peak hour charqe & th traffic jam `
metup with Baby, Girlf & Mei ♥ `
so we went shoppinq & metup with lil bro & his qirlf `
checked out some brands & makeup `
didn't really qet anythinq since i wasn't in th mood `
down to National Library for Mei's homework `
& off to Buqis where Mei & I qot our nail polishes `
5 bottles each (; i hope she's happy (; `
we had our dinner at Fish&Co `
i didn't have th appetite to eat anymore `
so i ordered a salad, & th rest ordered fish&chips `
super fillinq, & we walked around for a bit `
had a lauqh & bus-ed home (; `
life's qreat, when you're with your loved ones `
ION with my dearest qirlfriends ♥ `
Lil Brother ♥ `
♥XINXIN qirlf & Mei ♥ `
I'm so Bored `
Pasta&Shrimp Salad `
" BEST " Fish&Chips in Town `
Epic `
Jerrold Baby ♥ , he looks super stunned `
Th ladies ordered this `
♥ XINXIN `
& Some Epic stun lil brother was doinq `
qod knows what's on his mind `
Labels: Ladies Day out in Town ♥ `
♥ Friday, March 18
Happy Birthday Mum ♥ `
I Love You Lotsa ♥ `
quess th reason why i only qo out after midniqht `
is not because i want to piss you off badly `
but because i'm not feelinq well `
i don't feel th same as half a year aqo `
lotsa shitzo's been happeninq around here `
but all th same, i'm still me `
- - - - ♥ - - - - `
i woke up late aqain `
can't help it since i slept at 7AM `
i think i'm qettinq a bad case of insomnia `
practically surfed tumblr until 5 `
when mum told me biqbro was waitinq for us `
cause mum wanted to qo chanqi for dinner `
so fine, qot her dinner & went missinq halfway `
i was smokinq, lauqhs, then i saw th cakeshop `
so i popped in & qot her a strawberry cake `
i went back to th car (; `
wasn't a qoodidea thouqh, random birdbombs from above `
& homed for a bath before meetinq th quys `
planninq for V4 & Neverland `
was late, supposed to meet Ryan early ! `
thank qod he's patient ;/ `
qeez, i felt bad, so we went to V4, metup w Kahpo `
i couldn't qet in this time, forqettinq th rules `
so i went to find th quys eatinq their dinner `
& off to D8, which was superduper packed `
& landed ourselves in Neverland, qeez `
another packed shitzo `
we stayed there anyway `
riqht until 4am when we qot bored `
we ended up in juronq @ qo-carts&archery `
i just reached home (; `
it's 8;41AM, i can't sleep either `
Before Mum's dinner, took it outta boredom `
Smoke Break w biqbro `
Bro, you're so lame ♥ `
Cake i bouqht for Mum ♥ `
it's pink, at th moment, i fancy pink `
qettinq ready for th niqht `
sunrise from juronq `
I broke down, 7;04AM `
after certain stuffs `
i was havinq a lil hanqover `
i didn't drink much `
but i wasn't feelinq riqht `
i was fine, until he talked to me `
i told him th situation `
& he told me his opinions `
he was riqht, straiqht in my face `
& i kept quiet, then i started cryinq `
silent tears, -siqhs- `
& i thouqht i'd never be hurt aqain `
me & my wishful thinkinq `
i said i'd qive up every sinqle thinq `
yet i'm still stupid enouqh to qet hurt `
i didn't want to cry either `
every sinqle time i try to stop myself `
my itouch qoes on&on `
& th tears start flowinq aqain `
i had th front seaters freaked badly `
-siqhs- , this was a wronq move `
& lil brother says he warned me `
ciqarettes&music; my daily companion `
what's th point of beinq attached, i ask myself `
i knew from th start he wasn't my cup of tea `
but i picked him anyway `
& i'm wonderinq why, i only realized it now `
you'd never know what's qoinq on in my heart `
until you really bother, to find out `
- - - - ♥ - - - - `Strip away vanity
Just as you comsume me
Broken smile, starless sky
Save it all, Say goodbye ♥
♥ Thursday, March 17
Needinq a man is like needinq a parachute `
If he isn't there the first time you need him `
chances are you won't be needinq him aqain ♥ `
Chances come once, sometimes twice `
but i doubt Chance'd come knockinq on your door th third time `
& whether you qrab th Chance or not `
really tells me how much that particular person means to you `
- - - - ♥ - - - - `
fuckedup day, practically slept til 4PM `
that's about an hour into lessons already `
so i continued sleepinq `
♥Boyf went for his evaluation `
as expected from that lazymoo, he didn't pass `
aww, there's always a next time `
funnymuch. initially he wanted to meet me `
& i was dumb enouqh to believe him `
ha . ha . ha, oh qeez, how stupid of me `
i'm not qonna fall for it th next time `
so i spent th entire day beside my projects `
yet i'm facinq th desktop; awesome shit `
spent th day Msninq, Facebookinq & Bloqqinq `
some of th quys comforted me online `
cause i wasn't eatinq anymore, wasn't doinq anythinq `
procrastinated, & didn't want to qo out either `
seriously, i'm fuckinq hunqry `
but i don't feel swallowinq anythinq `
i enjoy th fact that my stomach feels th same as my heart `
empty & unhappy & self-torture `
they wanted to take me out for roundinq trips `
walk walk, lepak lepak, & siamdiu `
but i wasn't in th mood `
moreover i'd th project fever `
initially, i thouqht poly life was touqh&bitchy `
like, everyone miqht have those fuckedup competitor mindset `
but no, life's qreat in school `
& blessed was th day i met Ebenezer `
ha, i haven't been in school for quite awhile `
self-declared holidays here while i waste my time bloqqinq `
he just talked to me on facebook chat `
about life & school & stuffs like that `
& i realized what a let-down i've been `
Kenneth's been patient & qreat & lenient with everythinq `
& where th fuck was i, skippinq classes & all that nonsense `
fuck myself, seriously what th fuck is wronq with me `
fuck, i feel like cryinq, why th fuck am i ruininq my own life `
lauqhs, such stupidity, why th fuck... `
i qave up, & started readinq my bloq's history `
startinq from april 18 since i leave 50 days of posts per paqe `
i started off fine, i kept readinq up `
until december 4, i brokedown `
i doubt i'd ever have so much to say about someone ever aqain `
lookinq at th way people are startinq to treat me `
just because i suck it up doesn't mean i'm fine with it `
perhaps i should qo down & qrab a cuppa with th quys `
i'm qivinq up, every sinqle fuckinq thinq i have left `
" Sorry i never told you `
All that i want to say `
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away " - December 4th 2010 `
'Cause you've flown away
So far away " - December 4th 2010 `
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T.G.I.F ? you qotta be kiddinq me sweetheart `
Labels: Parachutes ♥ `
Yes it's a condom , but an awesome creation `
It is a condom specifically made to protect women from rape `
It is inserted like a tampon, and won’t hurt the qirl, only her attacker.
When the man thrusts into her `
the condom clasps down and can only be removed surqically `
It was invented by South African doctor Dr. Sonnet Ehlers `
& it was inspired when the Doctor treated a rape victim `
who said sadly, ‘If only i had teeth down there.’ `
it's distributed in South Africa & to Military women `
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fabulous invention, don't you think ? `
i think it's very noble of Doctor Ehlers to sell her car&house `
just for this project to help th victims of rape `
it's so awesome, pardon me but i fantasize about sadism `
& personally, most women do not deserve to be raped `
at $2/condom, i'd say, Doctor Ehlers is someone i truly respect `
♥ Wednesday, March 16
th niqht started off qreat; i was like fuckinq excited `butter, neverland, zouk `
perhaps because my moodswinq jumped straiqht into elation `
or maybe it was because i was qoinq clubbinq with these quys `
i used to frequent BF durinq Wednesdays&Saturdays `
until project loads piledup over th weeks&months `
Damien&Shawn picked me up before qoinq back for Benq `
excited much, i took a photo while jumpinq about in th vehicle `
so th 3 handsomes brouqht Lori to fullerton ♥ `
the club was full, well, expected since we reached late `
moreover, 1AM on ladies niqht! `
considered whether we should qo in or not `
& my awesome Boyf was in BF already `
but by th time we reached, well `
fun's over, so we spent an hour plusplus outside BF `
just ponderinq whether we should qo, when i spotted Ryan `
so we had a few sticks & concluded it wasn't worth it `
i suqqested qoinq over to Neverland, qod i miss that place `
but it's a Wednesday niqht, damn `
Shawn suqqested Zouk then, alriqhty, Zouk it shall be `
th crowd of taxis, exterminated our plans `
so fine, whatever, much to our displeasure `
uh-huh, & we had prawn noodles at qeylanq instead `
kind of wasted, no, i mean`
it was fuckinq wasted, like seriously. FML `
well, everythinq didn't qo th way i wanted it to `
or in fact, everythinq we wanted to do, suckedbiqtime `
qeez, at least i had th chance to huq ♥Boyf `
excitement before club ♥ `
well, i look stupid in blue, & my face looks fuckedup `
tables turned after th fuckedups happened `
endinq up in qeylanq with prawnnoodles `
Prawn Mee ♥ Rated averaqe `
it tasted better th last time i patronized this particular shop `
Labels: fuckinq wasted th entire niqht `
♥ Tuesday, March 15
Fifteen of March `
that leaves about a week more before holidays arrive `
qeez, i had my fabulous sleep up til late afternoon `
Boyf went to town with his mates `
i'm too tired to move my ass anyway `
so i stayed home and chanqed my bloqskin instead `
since my brain's th size of a peanut; literally `
i spent hours tryinq to chanqe it, kind of ridiculous `
but i don't like usinq th skins as they were made anyway `
so hours of editinq & lil brother kept pesterinq me `
he was bored & was dyinq to qet his ass out of his house `
well, i wasn't. but hey, at least i qot my ass out of th house `
cause of him, lil motherfucker `
he didn't know where to qo either so i brouqht him out `
we went to punqqol for 2 hours plusminus worth of prawninq `
some shitzo competition between th quys while i entertained myself `
had Macdonalds for breakfast & heart-to-heart talk with them `
everyone has different opinions, it's how you decipher them ♥
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life's qreat when you've awesome people around you `
lil brother's startinq to act like a real lil brother `
you know, th whininq part `
" Jie brinq me out, i very bored -SADFACE- ;( " `
then th pesterinq part comes alonq `
i wish i had a real lil brother (; `
but i think havinq Damien's th ultimate blessinq `
i don't have to spend every niqht listeninq to his whines `
few days a week is perfectly fine with me `
& off we went to fetch that lil brother of my `
i look seriously weird, but, whatever `
lil brother Damien with his hairband `
th prawns aren't stupid enouqh to eat his bait `
biqbrother with his usual pose `
& me, i'm fucken bored `
& i wonder who's fault it is `
lil brother's catch of th day `
how pathetic, funnymuch `
but awesome for a first timer thouqh ♥ `
qoodjob lil brother ♥ `
he's so proud of himself (; `
how cute `
BBQinq our supper ♥
BBQed `
lil brother looks really excited `
i love that look on his face ♥ `
after we polished th lot of em off `
Macdonald's
Labels: Prawninq with my lil/biq brothers ♥ `
