♥ Tuesday, September 29
dearest ahhock `
shall reply you here `
since i doubt you read my replies from your cbox `
-lauqhs-
i'd definately remember today's date `
twentyninth `
1 year & 1 month `
if we didn't part `
such a pity `
but life's like that `
ain't it not `
-lauqhs- `
i'm qonna admit somethinq stupid `
somethinq i just did `
i went back into my history `
& read th posts `
th colored posts `
such briqht & happy posts `
don't talk to me about forever `
you know i detest that word `
it doesn't exist in my dictionary `
even now `
it doesn't `
lately `
someone told me `
in love `
aqe doesn't matter `
so why fret `
6 years `
if you put your heart into it `
you'd make it ;] `
dawn riqht `
-lauqhs- `
she's practically qoinq qaqa over your pics `
facebook ; if you're wonderinq `
& yeah `
you're pretty blessed ;] `
beinq able to see your GirlF `
unlike me ;/ `
bitchy old me `
treasure her `
younq hearts break easily `
i quess i owe you an apoloqy `
sorry honeh `
for breakinq your heart `
it wasn't easy i quess `
but in life `
you either move forward `
or you stay there `
life's like that `
there's no returninq to th past `
even if we do reqret somehow `
nothinq's qonna chanqe th fact `
ain't it not `
-lauqhs- `
oh well `
whatever `
do find me when you're free `
perhaps qo double datinq ;/ `
or triple datinq ;/ `
i don't mind ; really `
only you won't see my Boyf `
either qet my Parttime Boyf `
or you'd see me lesbianinq ;/ `
so yeah `
either way it is possible `
ask ahqonq alonq `
i miss his supersexyass ;D `
qod bless you honeh `
♥ `
i quess i know who's readinq my bloq `
lonq aqo `
so yeah `
like i said `
i'm bitchy is several ways `
and below is one of them `
qet this straiqht into your mind `
beinq steady doesn't means i'm tied down `
but that doesn't mean i'm one cheap slut `
FYI i don't qo round fuckinq other quys `
if that's what you're thinkinq `
oh for fuck sake `
as lonq as i'm not married `
i've every riqht to qo out with any quy i want `
;] i'm sure you'd aqree with me `
cause if you don't `
don't let me see you outside with other qirls `
and other quys for th other party `
know what disqusts me th most `
it's women ; oops i mean lil qirls `
whom eavesdrop `
& spread fuckinq rumours to th entire class `
okays people `
i'd tell you what happened `
there's this lil qirl `
she's from Boyf's class `
& lately `
i've been qoinq out with laopo `
since Boyf's not here `
everyone's studyinq for th EOY `
no one qoes out on a weekly basis `
everyone's beinq a qoodie2shoes `
studyinq at home and all `
perhaps you don't understand me `
i won't live a day without steppinq outta here `
so yeah `
stay out late niqhts `
beach parties `
dinner dates `
lan niqhts `
movie marathons
beer parties `
last minute randomcy `
whatever `
pur-lease `
anyone who calls me to qo out `
i'd qo if timinq&mood permits it `
i'm sure GANs know ;] `
friends too `
even if you call me at 5:30AM `
& you need a listeninq ear `
i'd answer th phone if i do hear it `
& i'd definately make my way down `
if you require it `
so what's this nonsensical bullshit i hear `
a LILGIRL spreadinq rumours in Boyf's class `
and th content ? `
no doubt `
it's about my outqoinqs with quys `
she's just tryinq to ruin Boyf's reputation `
qo on bitch `
seriously `
its seriously revoltinq `
still doinq this at your aqe `
you're definately older then me `
qeez `
how childish can you qet `
i won't deny i didn't do it before `
but hey `
at least i'm not as ridiculously AA as you `
i know 14 year olds who are way maturer than you are `
Boyf trust me alot `
i won't say that's qood `
perhaps it'd be better if he didn't `
but too bad for you `
i know he's worried `
& th reason why i'm not bloqqinq much `
is cause of your biq fat mouth `
can't shut your ass up `
writinq more'd just qet Boyf's reputation worse `
so yeah `
so i shall be th biq mouth now `
know what `
no matter what i do `
i wouldn't be as cheap as you `
to take a picture of my nude body `
& send it to Boyf would be th last thinq i do `
pur-lease `
don't you have any respect for yourself `
i may be bitchy `
but such slutty actions `
you'd never see me doinq it `
you either fuck `
or you don't fuck `
what's th point of tradinq nude photos `
doinq some pornoqraphy trade ? `
hey `
i know how to photoshop `
i know th photos lack a face `
just send it to me @ shaomin93@hotmail.com `
or shaominlim@yahoo.com.sg `
& your face photo `
i could qet th pictures stuck toqether `
i could even qet them printed for you here `
it's cheap `
& you'd be famous `
if you want fame that much `
i'm just publish you on facebook `
no prob ;/ `
it's easy & can be done in seconds `
life's a breeze when there's internet `
so yeah `
but i must emphasis th fact that i hate such cheap lil qirls `
even if you were older than me by 10 years `
you'd still be a lil qirl to me `
utterly atrocious actions `
oops ;/ `
♥ `
i wonder where's my counsellor `
my beloved henqburqer `
i need him `
i wonder if she'd spread `
i've a henqburqer for a counsellor `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
don't worry `
he's a male `
qo on `
bitch about me `
at th most `
i'd just qive up `
then Boyf won't have to tolerate your vile actions `
-lauqhs- `
♥ `
okays `
i hate school `
fuck school `
but i love it too ;] `
last week in school `
i mean it `
th finale last week for th entire secondary life `
i'm so not lookinq forward `
school was short today `
don't know `
just felt so ;/ `
chemistry was fun `
splashinq all th acid `
ha ;] `
wonder if i'd die if i swallowed some `
skipped physics `
mainly to do my Emath `
1x plus papers `
to be done ASAP `
tomorrow's math `
she miqht check `
so yeah `
& moreover `
it's aqreed that we don't learn much in ASP `
so yeah `
& in th end `
i devoted my time bloqqinq about nonsense `
all these vile creatures `
qeez ;/ `
shall do my Emath `
maybe i'd qive up soon ;/ `
-lauqhs- `
Labels: lalals ` i'm back from MIA ha `
♥ Wednesday, September 23
Goodbye people ;] `
imma qonna MIA !
hidinq from reality `
hidinq from you people `
that's my last route `
& i'm takinq it `
Ciao people `
not replyinq peeps SMSes `
only qonna accept calls `
GOODBYE <3
{MIA}`
Labels: 我真的好害怕`
♥ Monday, September 21
other then acceptinq laopo's phonecall `
i slept th entire day ;] `
that's it `
Labels: lala ` sleepinq is awesome `
♥ Friday, September 18
finished tuition `
finally told MrAman i dropped `
i know he's dissappointed and all `
but yeah `
you must understand that i'm lazy `
took my own sweet time `
sorry honeh `
i know i'm mean `
made honeh wait for me so lonq ;/ `
met up with honeh&laopo at 5 `
so yeah `
sat at th usual place `
you'd find me waitinq `
outside "bunk" if you meet me at plazasinq `
honeh didn't find me ;/ `
sad `
laopo found me first `
okays `
laopo chose to wait for me outside MRT `
so i couldn't play hide&seek `
-lauqhs- `
sat outside bunk for a lonq period of time `
none of them knew what to do `
so yeah `
-siqhs- `
went to PL `
pool ;/ `
what'd you expect `
honeh was super pro that niqht ;/ `
thrashed - ♥ `
-lauqhs- `
i dont know `
fanqshui luh ba ; i quess `
-siqhs- `
after a few rounds `
qot back th pool mood ;/ `
won laopo 2 : 1 ;] `
happy ;] `
cause i hardly win `
i was so overwhelmed i broke my last finqernail `
yeah th 2CM+ one ;/ `
heartache `
qot super upset after `
laopo said he'd brinq me to th manicure shit `
qet it done ;/ `
but i didn't want `
what's th point `
no point mendinq somethinq that's broken `
ain't it not ? `
-lauqhs- `
honeh emo-ed ;/ `
walked to buqis ;/ `
nothinq else to do ;/ `
-siqhs- `
dinner-ed at thai restaurant `
bad choice `
brouqht honeh sad memories ;/ `
hahs ;] `
today 18082009 `
i found out that laopo cant eat spicy stuffs `
hahs ;] `
scare me aqain `
& see what i do `
walked to cathay `
-lauqhs- `
nothinq to do `
wasn't in th mood to movie `
so yeah `
slacked around `
honeh went home after awhile ;/ `
MAC-ed `
just sat there & ate candy `
sour candy which didnt seem sour `
laopo said it was his secret of not sleepinq ;/ `
he had this constipated face upon eatinq `
-lauqhs- `
not me ;/ `
didn't feel th same way somehow `
went back to PL `
;/ tried to qo lan `
quess what `
th person asked for IC `
i thouqht i could've qotten throuqh `
quess what he said `
" 你还没十六 " `
totally siandiao la can `
what's wronq with beinq fifteen ;O `
so i couldn't qet in `
laopo qot sianded `
hahs ;/ `
sorry `
was friqqinq tired la ;/ `
so we walked back to cathay `
poor laopo ;/ `
wore new shoes that day `
leq pain like ~ `
uqh `
sat outside cathay ;/ `
didn't want to movie even then `
just lie there ;/ `
watch th sky `
& told laopo alot of stuffs ;/ `
until i cried ;`/ `
i think he freaked out ;/ `
-siqhs- `
stayed until morninq ;/ `
MRT-ed home `
laopo sent me ;/ `
saw my 3 darlinq kors on th way `
think they ton-ed without me aqain `
-_____- `
without me ;/ `
& i missed Daniel&Joseph kor so much `
-siqhs- `
slacked at th playqround `
Labels: lala ` i love toninq outside `
yesterday `
first `i want to admit how fuckinq stupid i am `
-lauqhs- `
PE -_- `
i passed th entire set on first round `
& qeikianq on th second `
i didn't have to do th fuckinq retest `
but i did it anyway `
like last term `
i did th fuckinq rerun `
& i thouqht `
since i passed `
its okay to slack `
just pei people run lor -_- `
qeikianq riqht `
then fail seh `
then leonq tell me rerun leh `
wakao T_T `
-siqhs- `
sian 1/2 `
leonq was kind `
let me run in my purple FBT -_- `
hmph `
i enjoy amath `
know why `
cus i don've to take part `
ha ;D so yeah `
felt so stressed up `
felt so stressed up `
you're thinkinq `
i don't even study `
so how th fuck can i feel stress `
-lauqhs- `
but no ; it's not that `
so yeah `
brouqht my homework out `
laopo was kind `
accompanied me ;/ `
study `
not that he's any qood `
he hasn't been in school for years `
so yeah `
purposely ordered milo icecream for him `
funny quy `
he hates milo icecream ;/ `
so yeah `
& chocolate icecream ;/ `
someone's th exact opposite ;/ `
-siqhs- `
so yeah `
i ordered th shortcake shit `
tasted like shit honestly `
we both aqreed oreo mcflurry was th best `
-lauqhs- `
he lauqhed at my stupidity `
& cause of him `
i didn't do my chinese properly `
endinq it off with less then 100 words `
-lauqhs- `
definately qonna qet scolded `
i miss MsLiao -lauqhs- `
so yeah `
didn't finish anythinq `
-siqhs- `
was just talkinq to laopo `
;/ about you `
pros & cons `
-lauqhs- `
causes & results `
i stained my TYS[emath] `
it's qot black tear marks now `
mascara & eyeliner `
-lauqhs- `
i practically broke down `
-siqhs- `
th last thinq i want to do riqht now `
is to leave you `
& th second last thinq i want to do riqht now `
is to hurt you `
& th third last thinq i want to do riqht now `
is to see you upset `
how much would i qive up `
just to see you smile `
-lauqhs- `
my entire life ; perhaps `
i don't know `
laopo freaked out ;/ `
but i didn't tell him why `
-lauqhs- `
was just thinkinq & thinkinq `
such dire consequences `
addinq on `
i've heard `
after that day that i khup-ed your phone `
i know you tried callinq everyone `
-lauqhs- `
askinq where i am `
i'm sorry `
chanq was kind `
tellinq me stuffs `
everyone was sweet la `
askinq me what's wronq `
-lauqhs- `
but yeah `
i'm really sorry `
it's not you `
it's me `
-lauqhs- `
i don't know `
i know you're probably th bestest Boyf `
in my lifetime perhaps `
th most carinq `
th most lovinq `
th most self sacrificinq `
unlike me ; obstinate piq `
-lauqhs- `
losinq you'd be th biqqest reqret of my life `
i know that `
-siqhs- `
you're like th first quy i can cry for within seconds `
& you wouldn't cry infront of a quy `
for another quy `
it's just so wronq `
oh wow `
-siqhs- `
i don't enjoy breakinq your heart `
but i'm afraid `
very fuckinq afraid `
there's just so much i haven't told you `
so much we haven't done `
i wish you were th one with me riqht now `
th one who's hearinq my complains `
th one who's counsellinq me `
th one who's holdinq me when i'm cryinq `
th one who's brinqinq me out every weekend `
th one who's callinq me whenever i need a listeninq ear `
th one who's watchinq me do my homework `
th one who's controllinq my nonsencial shit `
th one who's movie marathoninq with me `
th one who's encouraqinq me `
th one who's always surprisinq me `
-siqhs- `
such faraway dreams `
so unrealistic `
-lauqhsoutloud- `
i don't qive a fuck about her knowinq anymore `
it doesn't matter `
you do `
i'm still waitinq `
34 days `
don't worry `
i'd definately still be here `
awaitinq `
& keepinq th promise i made `
if i was qonna die tomorrow `
i'd request from th kind heavens above `
for just 24 hours more to spend with you `
just before i leave this world `
that's just how much i love you `
so many thinqs i'd qive up `
just to chanqe reality `
-lauqhs- `
dearest Boyf ; 腾政`
i'd love you willinqly for th rest of my life `
but you know that's not possible `
-lauqhs- `
- ♥ `today `
as predicted `
those who skipped th mock qot into trouble `
;/ a wonder we didn't skip `
thank qod `
qot a cutshort emath lesson `
awesome `
i didn't finish th entire book yet `
& as predicted `
qot scolded for chinese `
-lauqhs- `
what'd you expect `
so yeah `
i promised to rewrite `
actually `
i felt fuckinq dissappointed with myself `
for writinq such a ridiculous letter `
it's true `
i felt disqusted at my own laziness `
that's how pathetic my letter was `
will rewrite letter really soon `
d&t was short `
& awesome `
-lauqhs- `
i'm definately qonna bloq this `
-_- `
i think i'm becominq more&more like laopo `
laopo doesn't SMS much `
just phonecalls `
i qot that disease of his -_- `
i'm so not qonna reply redundant SMSes `
includinq `
askinq me what i'm doinq ?! `
privacy people `
& LOLinq at me `
3 letter L O L `
hey `
SMSes aren't that cheap `
don't expect me to reply that `
lauqhinq at me for nothinq `
jesuschrist `
what's wronq with you people `
don't miss call me either `
-_- `
i only accept calls `
no urqency ; don't find me `
i'm not that free okays `
so yeah `
SMS if you need someone to talk to `
you're emoinq or somethinq `
dont SMS me 3 words either E M O `
i qet annoyed `
& i won't reply if i don't see a need `
other then th SMS thinq `
i realized i started talkinq like him `
oh wow `
bad siqn `
-siqhs- `
today `
my body had problems ; aqain `
oh wow `
even qwen noticed `
i'd this lil dots ;/ `
not measles `
just random allerqy like rashes `
not itchy `
but if you noticed ;/ `
i haven't eaten anythinq lately `
i mean it ;/ `
just drink water & all `
so can't be allerqic -_- `
& can't be dirty riqht `
i bath in th morninq one leh `
;/ so yeah `
those of you who know it `
yeah ;/ `
same conclusion `
it's linked `
everythinq i'm sayinq `
hopinq to qive Boyf a clue `
to what's happeninq to me `
but i quess he won't quess `
i left behind clues `
it's like playinq treasure hunt `
i need a psychiatrist `
seriously `
so yeah `
felt super unwell ;/ `
tired and all `
-siqhs- `
idk `
somethinq's wronq with me `
it's either my mental state `
or physical state `
;/ -siqhs- `
save me please ;/ `
-lauqhs- `
such stupidity `
Labels: thats just how much i love you `
♥ Wednesday, September 16
wednesday `
-lauqhs- `
shit day `
th only awesome thinq is th lack of teachers `
everyone seems to missinq `
no SS `
no Emath `
no Amath for them `
so yeah `
tried to rest th entire day `
i slept pretty early `
but yeah `
shaq `
what'd you expect `
i quess i wasted my entire holidays `
runninq all over `
not cominq home and all `
-lauqhs- `
still not there yet `
finished school `
just sat outside library `
thinkinq about everythinq `
sorry `
i quess i freaked you quys out ;/ `
thinkinq alot huh `
-lauqhs- `
& sorry daddy `
for th tone ytd `
was settlinq my own problems `
qot uber pissed `
so yeah `
sorry `
-siqhs- `
i think th only amusinq thinq i did today `
hmmmmmm `
was entertaininq wayne with physics `
he practically lauqhs at everythinq `
so yeah `
i don't think it's funny ;[ `
daryl entertained me throuqhout emath `
he's nice ;/ `
had this fuckinq mock for enqlish `
quess what `
i didn't know how to do it `
anderson's paper `
so hard luh `
sadism `
qive me stress that won't arrive `
i'm in a foreiqn land ;] `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
i don't know `
i've been thinkinq alot `
but it's not necessary `
-lauqhs- `
i don't know `
i'm so tired of all these `
Labels: endless thouqhts `
♥ Tuesday, September 15
today `
wasn't in sucha qood mood `
school-ed `
felt super tired `
didn't know why `
lauqhs `
didn't pay attention to anythinq much `
just crapped alot `
told qwen&nuer stuffs `
so if i die `
i quess you should ask them why `
qot chased out from MsSuraiya's class `
cause i didn't do her homework `
-lauqhs- `
so upsettinq `
qwen was sweet `
she found means and ways to accompany me `
sat outside with me `
& i continued my crappinq `
home-d `
was to meet daddy&honeh `
so yeah `
just went down for awhile luh `
Boyf called `
& i bitched him `
dearest Boyf `
sorry if you feel that way `
i know you're anqry riqht now `
sorry for khup-inq your phone `
i could tell from your voice `
you're mad at me aren't ya `
sorry `
i just don't like sharinq problems `
problems are meant to be faced alone `
not toqether `
i'd rather suffer alone then qet you hooked in `
i'd rather be th selfish bitch who suffers alone `
rather than let myself see you suffer from th hurt `
i know it's selfish `
i know you're hurt about my outinqs `
jealousy `
& all th secretive shit la `
but you'd know soon `
it's okays `
i'd find a way out `
i'd solve it myself okays `
no one's qonna save me anyway `
i've qot to do it alone `
i don't want you to know `
cause it'd affect you even worse `
i'm perfectly fine `
don't need to phone honeh `
ask him what's wronq `
i know `
don't need him to tell me `
i know `
sorry dear `
it's just that `
certain thinqs are best left unsaid `
sorry `
for not tellinq you `
sorry `
for makinq you jealous `
sorry `
for khupinq your phone `
sorry `
for everythinq i've done today `
such redundancy `
it wasn't required `
but i did it `
hate me ; all th better for you `
you'd have a better life then `
sorry `
Labels: sorry dear ; i seriously suck `
♥ Monday, September 14
was in a horrendously bad mood today `
so yeah `
arranqed to meet with laopo `
quess i just had to let it all out `
so yeah `
went to causeway after school `
i don't like causeway `
don't qet me wronq `
just happened that `
i walked th entire mall weekly when i was in sec 2 `
so yeah `
what'd you expect `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
waited for my supercute laopo `
don't know how to sit bus `
i think quys are really cute `
some of them ; dont qet me wronq `
look at th siqns `
instead of th siqnboard `
so yeah `
th notice states woodlands `
it just means th last station's woodlands riqht `
-lauqhs- `
laopo took it ;/ `
it was one of th lonq round buses `
where it went a biq round `
so yeah `
he just looked at th siqn i quess `
& saw ; woodlands int `
so he took `
so cute -_- `
made me wait for 1 & 1/2 hour `
but its okays `
;] quys always wait for qirls `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
qotta have icecream ;/ `
so yeah `
swensons `
quess what he ordered `
earthquake -_- `
2 ppl eat earthquake `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
ordered finqerfood ;/ `
FF ;D HAH `
i'm not that dirty minded `
you're thinkinq about it `
not me `
lauqhs `
so yeah `
couldn't finish `
just th icecream alone was fillinq `
-lauqhs- `
so laopo ate ;] `
-lauqhs- `
wasn't feelinq qood `
laopo was in a bad mood too `
so we were more of tauntinq each other `
-lauqhs- `
saw his dark side ;/ `
scary `
so yeah `
finished up & went walkinq `
i freaked out `
bus-ed home after awhile `
laopo was kind ;/ `
sent me home `
lauqhs `
sweet `
fuck `
i'm so screwed `
Labels: bad mood calls for SWENSONS `
♥ Friday, September 11
school-ed `
didnt want to qo `
but hey `
last day `
why not `
so yeah `
qot th usual stuffs `
did th usual work `
& qot everythinq finished by 1 `
left with daryl `
-lauqhs- `
qot prepared `
tried on stupid stuffs ;/ `
Theva kor SMSED me `
-lauqhs- `
my lonq lost darlinq kor `
someone i treasured 3 years aqo `
lost contact somehow `
so yeah `
asked him out ;/ `
i quess he came out cause he loves me ;D `
iqnore my thick hide `
lauqhs `
so yeah `
met up with honeh&hisjie&mei at pasiris `
kor found me ;/ `
lauqhs `
qave him too obvious clue `
buyinq nose studs `
lauqhs `
so yeah `
found honeh & his peeps soon enouqh `
qot sourplum ; qod knows why `
;/ hahs `
waited for daddy `
wanted to qo vivo `
but you know `
pasiris - vivo `
what th fuck `
no direct bus `
so yeah `
chanqed location `
went bishan instead `
not that bishan has anythinq la `
bus-ed down `
honeh&daddy seemed to be emo-inq `
so i sat with kor darlinq `
cause i promised not to panqseh him `
since all of them were my friends `
& he met them for th first time `
so yeah `
he was so mean `
whininq about th past me `
3 years aqo `
what'd you expect `
he reminded me of mean stuffs `
secretive mean idiotic thinqs i did `
so screwed la `
so yeah `
when he wanted to qo down & smoke `
i didn't allow him to `
hahs `
made him wait until we reached our destination `
hahs `
reached after awhile `
-lauqhs- `
nothinq to do `
so we went for dinner `
swensons or pizza hut `
seriously `
i reqretted `
i damn fuckinq prefer swensons okays `
fuck `
don't ever ask me to pizza hut ever aqain `
so fucked up `
had 2 couple pizzas `
jesuschrist `
whatthefuck `
th person stared at me -_- `
qave me th WTF face `
but seriously looked like tripledate lor `
honeh&his jie `
mei&daddy `
kor&i `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
there was this lil qirl in red `
she was sittinq behind `
she kept starinq at honeh `
what th fuck `
lauqhs `
honeh's jie & i cauqht some funny stuff `
th qirl behind so thick skin can `
honeh was mean `
-lauqhs- `
kept qoinq in and out `
accompanied kor outside for his oxyqen `
-siqhs- `
we were watchinq these exercise routines `
more of dancinq `
-lauqhs- `
was planninq to scare them `
don't qo back `
& see whether they'd freak out `
-lauqhs- `
they called me `
so yeah `
went back to pay th bill `
EIGHTYSIXFUCKINGDOLLARS `
mei paid 10 ;/ `
thanks qirl `
i'd have died if you didn't `
honeh's jie paid 10 plus `
i think 13 or 15 `
thanks too `
ease my burden `
-_- i paid th fuckinq rest `
& i fuckinq reqretted `
swenson's way fuckinq cheaper `
so yeah `
-siqhs- `
i'm officially broke `
you can jolly well claim that `
i'm bankrupt `
i've used up my month's allowance `
& today's just th 11th `
& worse `
phone bill's cominq in a few days `
how th fuck am i to pay `
if you're wonderinq whether i pay at all `
i don've a choice ;] `
if i don't pay `
mum'd cut my allowance `
so yeah `
if you qet it `
i do pay for my damn fuckinq bills `
went to walk around `
nothinq else to do anyway `
bishan's a pathetic place `
reqretted not qoinq vivo `
seriously `
so yeah `
nothinq to do `
was qettinq late `
didn't want mei to qet whined at `
so we bus-ed home `
they were so mean `
-lauqhs- `
talkinq about all th ridiculous shit `
kor was mean too `
didn't want to let me qo home `
so he put his leqs on top of my leqs `
& qrabbed my hand `
tucked it into his -_- `
so mean huh `
-lauqhs- `
he let me off in th end `
told honeh to hide daddy's stuffs `
cause i helped daddy carry them `
-lauqhs- `
mean of me huh `
come on `
lil joke won't hurt `
so yeah `
went home `
i love Theva kor <3 `
4 years `
& you weren't there `
but i don't care `
cause now you're here ;] `
& i'd treasure you `
didnt want to qo `
but hey `
last day `
why not `
so yeah `
qot th usual stuffs `
did th usual work `
& qot everythinq finished by 1 `
left with daryl `
-lauqhs- `
qot prepared `
tried on stupid stuffs ;/ `
Theva kor SMSED me `
-lauqhs- `
my lonq lost darlinq kor `
someone i treasured 3 years aqo `
lost contact somehow `
so yeah `
asked him out ;/ `
i quess he came out cause he loves me ;D `
iqnore my thick hide `
lauqhs `
so yeah `
met up with honeh&hisjie&mei at pasiris `
kor found me ;/ `
lauqhs `
qave him too obvious clue `
buyinq nose studs `
lauqhs `
so yeah `
found honeh & his peeps soon enouqh `
qot sourplum ; qod knows why `
;/ hahs `
waited for daddy `
wanted to qo vivo `
but you know `
pasiris - vivo `
what th fuck `
no direct bus `
so yeah `
chanqed location `
went bishan instead `
not that bishan has anythinq la `
bus-ed down `
honeh&daddy seemed to be emo-inq `
so i sat with kor darlinq `
cause i promised not to panqseh him `
since all of them were my friends `
& he met them for th first time `
so yeah `
he was so mean `
whininq about th past me `
3 years aqo `
what'd you expect `
he reminded me of mean stuffs `
secretive mean idiotic thinqs i did `
so screwed la `
so yeah `
when he wanted to qo down & smoke `
i didn't allow him to `
hahs `
made him wait until we reached our destination `
hahs `
reached after awhile `
-lauqhs- `
nothinq to do `
so we went for dinner `
swensons or pizza hut `
seriously `
i reqretted `
i damn fuckinq prefer swensons okays `
fuck `
don't ever ask me to pizza hut ever aqain `
so fucked up `
had 2 couple pizzas `
jesuschrist `
whatthefuck `
th person stared at me -_- `
qave me th WTF face `
but seriously looked like tripledate lor `
honeh&his jie `
mei&daddy `
kor&i `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
there was this lil qirl in red `
she was sittinq behind `
she kept starinq at honeh `
what th fuck `
lauqhs `
honeh's jie & i cauqht some funny stuff `
th qirl behind so thick skin can `
honeh was mean `
-lauqhs- `
kept qoinq in and out `
accompanied kor outside for his oxyqen `
-siqhs- `
we were watchinq these exercise routines `
more of dancinq `
-lauqhs- `
was planninq to scare them `
don't qo back `
& see whether they'd freak out `
-lauqhs- `
they called me `
so yeah `
went back to pay th bill `
EIGHTYSIXFUCKINGDOLLARS `
mei paid 10 ;/ `
thanks qirl `
i'd have died if you didn't `
honeh's jie paid 10 plus `
i think 13 or 15 `
thanks too `
ease my burden `
-_- i paid th fuckinq rest `
& i fuckinq reqretted `
swenson's way fuckinq cheaper `
so yeah `
-siqhs- `
i'm officially broke `
you can jolly well claim that `
i'm bankrupt `
i've used up my month's allowance `
& today's just th 11th `
& worse `
phone bill's cominq in a few days `
how th fuck am i to pay `
if you're wonderinq whether i pay at all `
i don've a choice ;] `
if i don't pay `
mum'd cut my allowance `
so yeah `
if you qet it `
i do pay for my damn fuckinq bills `
went to walk around `
nothinq else to do anyway `
bishan's a pathetic place `
reqretted not qoinq vivo `
seriously `
so yeah `
nothinq to do `
was qettinq late `
didn't want mei to qet whined at `
so we bus-ed home `
they were so mean `
-lauqhs- `
talkinq about all th ridiculous shit `
kor was mean too `
didn't want to let me qo home `
so he put his leqs on top of my leqs `
& qrabbed my hand `
tucked it into his -_- `
so mean huh `
-lauqhs- `
he let me off in th end `
told honeh to hide daddy's stuffs `
cause i helped daddy carry them `
-lauqhs- `
mean of me huh `
come on `
lil joke won't hurt `
so yeah `
went home `
i love Theva kor <3 `
4 years `
& you weren't there `
but i don't care `
cause now you're here ;] `
& i'd treasure you `
Labels: Theva my love ;] `
♥ Wednesday, September 9
met up with laopo at 5 `
was nearly late ;/ `
so i ran to qet a chocolate for laopo `
-lauqhs- `
qirls enjoy chocolate `
-lauqhs- `
thouqht of movie-inq `
but i'm younq `
so yeah `
& most of th movies `
;/ minimum NC16 leh `
what th fuck `
so yeah `
chanqed mind `
pool-ed instead `
laopo was so sweet la `
laopo let me -_- `
LOL `
seriously `
i suck at pool now `
haven touched th cue for a month `
i quess ; even lonqer perhaps `
so yeah `
hahs ;] `
decided to qo walk walk `
qirls enjoy walkinq ma ;/ `
then i'm th man of th day `
so shibai siol `
-faints- `
walked around orchard `
planninq what to do `
-lauqhs- `
had swensons `
spent about an hour there `
qivinq major hints `
-lauqhs- `
no details `
people will paisae one siol `
so yeah `
decided to qo movie-inq aqain `
wanted to watch bloodties `
it's M18 `
but some areas can qo in `
we tried `
can leh ;/ `
but `
sad thinq is `
only have th front row seats `
didn't want to strain my poor neck `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
cancelled `
continued walkinq around orchard `
explored `
-lauqhs- `
cute `
so yeah `
decided to postpone movie `
promised to pei laopo until 1205 `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
sent laopo to busstop `
;/ cabbed home `
was way past midniqht `
no niqhtbus `
couldn't spend th niqht with laopo `
laopo's workinq `
& i've school `
skippinq won't do us any qood `
hahs ;] `
& you lied `
you said niqhtly calls `
imma not qonna talk to you anymore `
hmphs `
was nearly late ;/ `
so i ran to qet a chocolate for laopo `
-lauqhs- `
qirls enjoy chocolate `
-lauqhs- `
thouqht of movie-inq `
but i'm younq `
so yeah `
& most of th movies `
;/ minimum NC16 leh `
what th fuck `
so yeah `
chanqed mind `
pool-ed instead `
laopo was so sweet la `
laopo let me -_- `
LOL `
seriously `
i suck at pool now `
haven touched th cue for a month `
i quess ; even lonqer perhaps `
so yeah `
hahs ;] `
decided to qo walk walk `
qirls enjoy walkinq ma ;/ `
then i'm th man of th day `
so shibai siol `
-faints- `
walked around orchard `
planninq what to do `
-lauqhs- `
had swensons `
spent about an hour there `
qivinq major hints `
-lauqhs- `
no details `
people will paisae one siol `
so yeah `
decided to qo movie-inq aqain `
wanted to watch bloodties `
it's M18 `
but some areas can qo in `
we tried `
can leh ;/ `
but `
sad thinq is `
only have th front row seats `
didn't want to strain my poor neck `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
cancelled `
continued walkinq around orchard `
explored `
-lauqhs- `
cute `
so yeah `
decided to postpone movie `
promised to pei laopo until 1205 `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
sent laopo to busstop `
;/ cabbed home `
was way past midniqht `
no niqhtbus `
couldn't spend th niqht with laopo `
laopo's workinq `
& i've school `
skippinq won't do us any qood `
hahs ;] `
& you lied `
you said niqhtly calls `
imma not qonna talk to you anymore `
hmphs `
Labels: 090909 ; you broke your promise hmphs `
♥ Tuesday, September 8
went buqis aqain `
qet my stuffs and all `
-lauqhs- `
met up with honeh somehow `
-lauqhs- `
cute quy `
brouqht his friends `
here's th funny part `
they thouqht i was honeh's qirlf `
just cause we call each other honeh `
oh wow `
honeh i love you <3 `
too bad we aren't toqether `
-lauqhs- `
sorry Boyf ;/ don't read that part `
so we went walkinq all over buqis `
i wanted to qo clarke quay `
but they came over anyway `
hahs ;D `
walked junction `
iluma `
th entire place `
saw daniel di `
-heartpain- `
-lauqhs- `
i don't know `
i quess it just hurts so bad `
but yeah hmph `
honeh's friends left after awhile `
we went walkinq still `
cause i promised to pei honeh til 1030 `
then we'd bus home toqether `
hahs ;] `
so we stood infront of bYSi `
camwhore `
jesus `
looked so funny `
honeh's cute `
i freaked out `
cause i thouqht they locked us in buqis junction `
hahs ;] `
left after awhile `
went home `
Boyf called `
OHMYGOD ;] `
i was like AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH HAHAHAHA ;DDDDDDDDD `
darlinq whined that honeh treats me better `
hahs ;] `
beinq a qirl `
that's th solution sweetie `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
you know ;[ `
so i told Boyf `
i enjoy life when Boyf's in hospital `
he thouqht i was mean `
but humans are selfish `
& if that's th only time he's qonna call me `
yeah darlinq `
i'm qonna send you to hospital `
then you'd call me niqhtly `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
Boyf was sweet `
talked to me all th way to senqkanq `
sucha silly boy `
you don't have to `
he told me he wanted to buy me heels `
qeez `
honeh also wanted to `
horrendous idea `
but if you quys want me to leave you all that much `
i will `
just don't reqret it ;] `
-lauqhs out loud- `
cute quys `
okays `
chanqe topic `
dearest Boyf `
now i'd reply your bloqtaq `
stop sayinq i'd leave you `
unless you do somethinq horrendous to me `
or make me mad or somethinq `
there's no reason for me to leave you `
unless some hawtquy comes alonq ;/ `
but you won that anyway `
-_- mean of you `
& i don't like hiqh heels `
whoever told you that `
why does everyone think i like hiqh heels `
i've like so many pairs unworn in my cupboard `
i can loan you&honeh a few ;/ `
oct i not free seh darlinq `
o lvl o lvl o lvl ! `
unless i drop amath `
then i'd accompany you daily ;/ `
no prob `
but make sure you keep your promise `
"ok i promise u this oct we go"
"movie marathon"
"kbox"
"pool"
"go shopping with u ^^"
"n i will pass my O's"
"^^"
"i will me healty"
"i will call u nightly"
"i will call u over midnight( confirm u mai slp ==)"
"i will me ur doll 1 day =="
"i will stop being a MRNICEGUY"
come think about it `
i'm sick of pool `
;/ no strenqth `
-lauqhs- `
thanks darlinq `
but i want to qo kota kinabalu `
;[ please be meaner `
i like you as my barbie `
babi `
hahs ;/ `
we haven't fouqht over that for aqes `
i've loads of new terms describinq you `
-lauqhs- `
piq trotters LOL `
hahs ;] `
qet well soon darlinq `
lotsa lotsa love <3 `
from your bitch `
qet my stuffs and all `
-lauqhs- `
met up with honeh somehow `
-lauqhs- `
cute quy `
brouqht his friends `
here's th funny part `
they thouqht i was honeh's qirlf `
just cause we call each other honeh `
oh wow `
honeh i love you <3 `
too bad we aren't toqether `
-lauqhs- `
sorry Boyf ;/ don't read that part `
so we went walkinq all over buqis `
i wanted to qo clarke quay `
but they came over anyway `
hahs ;D `
walked junction `
iluma `
th entire place `
saw daniel di `
-heartpain- `
-lauqhs- `
i don't know `
i quess it just hurts so bad `
but yeah hmph `
honeh's friends left after awhile `
we went walkinq still `
cause i promised to pei honeh til 1030 `
then we'd bus home toqether `
hahs ;] `
so we stood infront of bYSi `
camwhore `
jesus `
looked so funny `
honeh's cute `
i freaked out `
cause i thouqht they locked us in buqis junction `
hahs ;] `
left after awhile `
went home `
Boyf called `
OHMYGOD ;] `
i was like AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH HAHAHAHA ;DDDDDDDDD `
darlinq whined that honeh treats me better `
hahs ;] `
beinq a qirl `
that's th solution sweetie `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
i missed you `
you know ;[ `
so i told Boyf `
i enjoy life when Boyf's in hospital `
he thouqht i was mean `
but humans are selfish `
& if that's th only time he's qonna call me `
yeah darlinq `
i'm qonna send you to hospital `
then you'd call me niqhtly `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
Boyf was sweet `
talked to me all th way to senqkanq `
sucha silly boy `
you don't have to `
he told me he wanted to buy me heels `
qeez `
honeh also wanted to `
horrendous idea `
but if you quys want me to leave you all that much `
i will `
just don't reqret it ;] `
-lauqhs out loud- `
cute quys `
okays `
chanqe topic `
dearest Boyf `
now i'd reply your bloqtaq `
stop sayinq i'd leave you `
unless you do somethinq horrendous to me `
or make me mad or somethinq `
there's no reason for me to leave you `
unless some hawtquy comes alonq ;/ `
but you won that anyway `
-_- mean of you `
& i don't like hiqh heels `
whoever told you that `
why does everyone think i like hiqh heels `
i've like so many pairs unworn in my cupboard `
i can loan you&honeh a few ;/ `
oct i not free seh darlinq `
o lvl o lvl o lvl ! `
unless i drop amath `
then i'd accompany you daily ;/ `
no prob `
but make sure you keep your promise `
"ok i promise u this oct we go"
"movie marathon"
"kbox"
"pool"
"go shopping with u ^^"
"n i will pass my O's"
"^^"
"i will me healty"
"i will call u nightly"
"i will call u over midnight( confirm u mai slp ==)"
"i will me ur doll 1 day =="
"i will stop being a MRNICEGUY"
come think about it `
i'm sick of pool `
;/ no strenqth `
-lauqhs- `
thanks darlinq `
but i want to qo kota kinabalu `
;[ please be meaner `
i like you as my barbie `
babi `
hahs ;/ `
we haven't fouqht over that for aqes `
i've loads of new terms describinq you `
-lauqhs- `
piq trotters LOL `
hahs ;] `
qet well soon darlinq `
lotsa lotsa love <3 `
from your bitch `
Labels: ♥honeh `
♥ Monday, September 7
after midniqht `
just talked to daddy and all `
we hardly talk come think about it `
he's so kind `
he said he'd sponsor me `
where ever i wanted to qo after secondary `
just as lonq as i make it `
& even if i don't `
he won't blame me `
for th lonqer path'd take me there eventually `
-lauqhs- `
awesome parents `
so yeah `
even if i do drop to ITE `
it doesn't matter `
& he asked me to qo china with him `
qet chauffeured around `
oh wow `
but yeah `
if you know me `
you'd know how much i detest china `
-lauqhs- `
taiwan maybe `
so he asked where i wanted to qo `
quess where `
yeah i told him kota kinabalu `
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA `
yeah he aqreed `
said he'd save up to sponsor me `
happiness ;/ `
-jumps in joy- `
HAHS `
free tour `
why not ;/ `
when i'm younq `
i wanna do it man `
& i wanna qo australia `
i wanna explore th world before i die `
so when i die `
i'd know i already fulfilled my wishes `
home-d after awhile `
movie-d with him `
some chinese movie `
funny how i manaqed to qrasp what they're sayinq `
basically corruption `
money ; source of happiness `
& th cause of downfall `
slept for a few hours after that `
-siqhs- `
school-ed `
had emath lessons and all `
as predicted ; borinq shit `
had free study period after that `
startinq was fine `
just listen to music `
do maths `
as time passed by `
qot super bored ;/ `
just stayed there riqht until 2;20 `
early release ;] `
went tampines after `
daddy was kind `
offered to buy my contact lens `
HAHS `
so yeah `
i refilled my depleted stocks `
;] contentedly `
but i took 4 box nia leh `
he was like `
why don't i take half year's supply `
oh my qod ;O `
didn't wanna play pool/billard `
my usual excuse ; " billard table too biq " `
" no strenqth " `
i know `
bullshit riqht ? `
hahs where qot such thinq `
so yeah `
just don't want to `
eyes hurt alot `
i think i contracted some eye disease `
-faints- `
just havinq bloodshot eyes all th time `
& it's pain okays `
or perhaps i've to chanqe my contacts `
aqain -_- `
i'm like wastinq contact lenses `
i'm like chanqinq every half month `
what th fuck `
so wasted riqht `
yeah `
can't help it `
i'd rather save my eyes `
seriously don't understand why some reuse contacts `
so harmful `
danqerous & all `
went to sleep after that `
seriously so tired `
woke up at 11 ;/ `
saw Boyf's messaqe `
i totally freaked out `
used my phone to qet online `
qeez `
just imaqininq my bill -_- `
definitely over $300 this month `
so yeah `
i did what he asked me to do `
read bloq -_- `
LOL cute of you `
darlinq `
you could've just SMSed me `
but yeah `
since you bloqqed `
imma qonna reply you here `
it doesn't matter `
i know you're unwell `
uncapable of carinq for your bitch here `
don't worry she's fine `
i've never stopped lovinq you `
i'm qlad you qot that riqht `
HAHs `
& yeah ; i know you love me `
i miss you too ;[ `
that's why `
i just want you to know `
even if you don't make it to poly `
i won't blame you `
take care of your health first `
diplomas can be achieved later `
health comes first `
don't stress le laaaa `
i sayanq you kay ;] `
no time talk phone with me ? `
nehmind it's okays `
i just miss your sexy voice -_- `
& why am i your pillow ? `
;O i'm not that cuddly riqht ;O `
IF one day i really leave you `
it's not your fault `
stop sayinq it is `
you already said `
if i did leave you `
you'd chanqe ;O `
& jio me back riqht `
hahs pardon my thick hide `
i like quotinq stuffs outta your text `
;] -lauqhs- `
so yeah `
don't worry `
& don't break your promise `
remember that time you kept askinq ? `
th stead thinqy `
then i kept tellinq you sincerity counts `
& you qot so pekchek over it `
-LOL- poor you ;] `
i still qot that SMS on 16.04.2009 `
" ok lo den will you be my stead ? " `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
i just like beinq mean to you `
darlinq , please blush `
don't worry okays `
is not i don't want couple rinq `
is you so kelian liao ;/ `
what for i spend your money `
arbo i buy couple rinq for you `
then you be my GirlF aimai ;] `
swee ; i like `
hahahas ;D `
" if u reli wan me to do wad u can tell me ^^ " `
ooh `
i like this line `
i want alot of thinqs `
i want Boyf riqht now `
i want Boyf to amuse me somehow `
i want Boyf to be there ; impossible `
i want Boyf to sinq `
i want Boyf to dance ` LOL `
i want Boyf to pass his O lvls `
i want Boyf to take my results with me `
i want Boyf to sit SGF with me `
i want Boyf to qo kbox with me aqain `
i want Boyf to be happy ;] `
i want Boyf to qo movie marathon with me `
i want Boyf to be my for a niqht `
i want Boyf to qet well `
i want Boyf to stop beinq MrNiceGuy `
i want Boyf to qo pool sessions with me `
i want Boyf to stop thinkinq too much `
i want Boyf to be my barbie doll for a day `
i want Boyf to qo shoppinq spree with me `
i want Boyf to quit all vulqarities excludinq fuck `
i want Boyf to be Girlf for a day `
i want Boyf to teach me malay vulqarities ;D `
i want Boyf to call me niqhtly T_T `
i want Boyf to find me after midniqht `
i want Boyf to text me more often `
i want Boyf to think outta th box `
i want Boyf to stop worryinq about offendinq me `
i want Boyf to love me ;D HAHAs `
i want Boyf to know , i love you `
i want Boyf to be my last `
i want Boyf to be happy even if we weren't meant to be `
know darlinq `
i'd answer your question riqht now `
i like white chrysanthemums `
i like clocks `
& i like shoes `
LOL `
just kiddinq `
i'm th averaqe 15th year old `
i think red,black & purple's appealinq to th eyes `
yeah i qot your disease `
i like purple now `
oh wow ;/ `
& i'm so not happy `
i'm so fuckinq upset `
i'm deprived of my Boyf -_- `
don't worry darlinq `
i'm so used to empty promises `
even if you don't fulfil it `
i won't blame you `
-lauqhs- `
110 days `
that's lonq `
come think about it `
you were there for me since march `
you don've to ask , darlinq `
you know th answer already `
i told you just days aqo `
i chose you `
& i'd continue life with you `
it's not your disadvantaqes that irks me `
i know you're tryinq `
too hard in fact `
too hard that it's funny `
why are you so willinq to chanqe `
i really wonder `
why you ; and not so many others `
& i thouqht such actions ceased existance `
i was so touched `
-siqhs- `
i know BoyF's a busy man `
come think about it `
i still can't believe i'm attached to a prefect `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
thanks for keepinq to your promise `
back in july `
-lauqhs- `
you amuse me `
hidinq from me and all `
lousy planninq `
i found out soon enouqh `
-lauqhs- `
okays `
there's this part that i catch no ball `
in your post `
"IF REALLY THE DAY I LOST U HAPPEN IT WILL BECOME THE MOST TREASUREABLE MEMORY FOR ME ^^"
& i'd like to know , why ? `
so if you lost me `
you'd find that day treasurable ? `
oh wow `
you make me seriously upset `
i hate you ;[ `
oh , chrome says there's no such word `
treasurable `
-lauqhs- `
okays i think i'm qettinq pretty ridiculous `
"thx darling ! thx for all u hv done for me ^^"
thanks for what darlinq ? `
what've i done for you so far `
lets look back `
nearly pushed you&qwen toqether `
REMEMBER ?! `
we wanted to leave you quys to enjoy toqether `
never thouqht we'd end up toqether `
-lauqhs- what else hmmm `
qettinq you reprimanded for ton-inq at your house `
qettinq you reprimanded for lateness `
throwinq stuff at you `
sayinq "ihateyou" to you `
makinq you cry `
makinq you worry `
bullyinq you in pool `
hmph `
all th neqative stuffs `
what's there to thank `
-lauqhs- `
we've barely started `
you'd make it happen `
i'm so not automatic `
i like beinq th lazy one ;] `
thanks for treasurinq me `
thanks for lovinq me `
i do , believe you `
say i'm think skinned `
but i saw it throuqh your eyes `
-lauqhs- `
a different liqht `
-lauqhs- `
i'm so fuckinq weird `
OH WOW `
i can't believe i just replied every sinqle sentence `
sentence by sentence `
i'd definitely fail my comprehension `
;/ but i don't care `
i'd qive you answers if you just asked `
qeez `
i spent over an hour just typinq this out `
qettinq slower `
-suck- `
just talked to daddy and all `
we hardly talk come think about it `
he's so kind `
he said he'd sponsor me `
where ever i wanted to qo after secondary `
just as lonq as i make it `
& even if i don't `
he won't blame me `
for th lonqer path'd take me there eventually `
-lauqhs- `
awesome parents `
so yeah `
even if i do drop to ITE `
it doesn't matter `
& he asked me to qo china with him `
qet chauffeured around `
oh wow `
but yeah `
if you know me `
you'd know how much i detest china `
-lauqhs- `
taiwan maybe `
so he asked where i wanted to qo `
quess where `
yeah i told him kota kinabalu `
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA `
yeah he aqreed `
said he'd save up to sponsor me `
happiness ;/ `
-jumps in joy- `
HAHS `
free tour `
why not ;/ `
when i'm younq `
i wanna do it man `
& i wanna qo australia `
i wanna explore th world before i die `
so when i die `
i'd know i already fulfilled my wishes `
home-d after awhile `
movie-d with him `
some chinese movie `
funny how i manaqed to qrasp what they're sayinq `
basically corruption `
money ; source of happiness `
& th cause of downfall `
slept for a few hours after that `
-siqhs- `
school-ed `
had emath lessons and all `
as predicted ; borinq shit `
had free study period after that `
startinq was fine `
just listen to music `
do maths `
as time passed by `
qot super bored ;/ `
just stayed there riqht until 2;20 `
early release ;] `
went tampines after `
daddy was kind `
offered to buy my contact lens `
HAHS `
so yeah `
i refilled my depleted stocks `
;] contentedly `
but i took 4 box nia leh `
he was like `
why don't i take half year's supply `
oh my qod ;O `
didn't wanna play pool/billard `
my usual excuse ; " billard table too biq " `
" no strenqth " `
i know `
bullshit riqht ? `
hahs where qot such thinq `
so yeah `
just don't want to `
eyes hurt alot `
i think i contracted some eye disease `
-faints- `
just havinq bloodshot eyes all th time `
& it's pain okays `
or perhaps i've to chanqe my contacts `
aqain -_- `
i'm like wastinq contact lenses `
i'm like chanqinq every half month `
what th fuck `
so wasted riqht `
yeah `
can't help it `
i'd rather save my eyes `
seriously don't understand why some reuse contacts `
so harmful `
danqerous & all `
went to sleep after that `
seriously so tired `
woke up at 11 ;/ `
saw Boyf's messaqe `
i totally freaked out `
used my phone to qet online `
qeez `
just imaqininq my bill -_- `
definitely over $300 this month `
so yeah `
i did what he asked me to do `
read bloq -_- `
LOL cute of you `
darlinq `
you could've just SMSed me `
but yeah `
since you bloqqed `
imma qonna reply you here `
it doesn't matter `
i know you're unwell `
uncapable of carinq for your bitch here `
don't worry she's fine `
i've never stopped lovinq you `
i'm qlad you qot that riqht `
HAHs `
& yeah ; i know you love me `
i miss you too ;[ `
that's why `
i just want you to know `
even if you don't make it to poly `
i won't blame you `
take care of your health first `
diplomas can be achieved later `
health comes first `
don't stress le laaaa `
i sayanq you kay ;] `
no time talk phone with me ? `
nehmind it's okays `
i just miss your sexy voice -_- `
& why am i your pillow ? `
;O i'm not that cuddly riqht ;O `
IF one day i really leave you `
it's not your fault `
stop sayinq it is `
you already said `
if i did leave you `
you'd chanqe ;O `
& jio me back riqht `
hahs pardon my thick hide `
i like quotinq stuffs outta your text `
;] -lauqhs- `
so yeah `
don't worry `
& don't break your promise `
remember that time you kept askinq ? `
th stead thinqy `
then i kept tellinq you sincerity counts `
& you qot so pekchek over it `
-LOL- poor you ;] `
i still qot that SMS on 16.04.2009 `
" ok lo den will you be my stead ? " `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
i just like beinq mean to you `
darlinq , please blush `
don't worry okays `
is not i don't want couple rinq `
is you so kelian liao ;/ `
what for i spend your money `
arbo i buy couple rinq for you `
then you be my GirlF aimai ;] `
swee ; i like `
hahahas ;D `
" if u reli wan me to do wad u can tell me ^^ " `
ooh `
i like this line `
i want alot of thinqs `
i want Boyf riqht now `
i want Boyf to amuse me somehow `
i want Boyf to be there ; impossible `
i want Boyf to sinq `
i want Boyf to dance ` LOL `
i want Boyf to pass his O lvls `
i want Boyf to take my results with me `
i want Boyf to sit SGF with me `
i want Boyf to qo kbox with me aqain `
i want Boyf to be happy ;] `
i want Boyf to qo movie marathon with me `
i want Boyf to be my for a niqht `
i want Boyf to qet well `
i want Boyf to stop beinq MrNiceGuy `
i want Boyf to qo pool sessions with me `
i want Boyf to stop thinkinq too much `
i want Boyf to be my barbie doll for a day `
i want Boyf to qo shoppinq spree with me `
i want Boyf to quit all vulqarities excludinq fuck `
i want Boyf to be Girlf for a day `
i want Boyf to teach me malay vulqarities ;D `
i want Boyf to call me niqhtly T_T `
i want Boyf to find me after midniqht `
i want Boyf to text me more often `
i want Boyf to think outta th box `
i want Boyf to stop worryinq about offendinq me `
i want Boyf to love me ;D HAHAs `
i want Boyf to know , i love you `
i want Boyf to be my last `
i want Boyf to be happy even if we weren't meant to be `
know darlinq `
i'd answer your question riqht now `
i like white chrysanthemums `
i like clocks `
& i like shoes `
LOL `
just kiddinq `
i'm th averaqe 15th year old `
i think red,black & purple's appealinq to th eyes `
yeah i qot your disease `
i like purple now `
oh wow ;/ `
& i'm so not happy `
i'm so fuckinq upset `
i'm deprived of my Boyf -_- `
don't worry darlinq `
i'm so used to empty promises `
even if you don't fulfil it `
i won't blame you `
-lauqhs- `
110 days `
that's lonq `
come think about it `
you were there for me since march `
you don've to ask , darlinq `
you know th answer already `
i told you just days aqo `
i chose you `
& i'd continue life with you `
it's not your disadvantaqes that irks me `
i know you're tryinq `
too hard in fact `
too hard that it's funny `
why are you so willinq to chanqe `
i really wonder `
why you ; and not so many others `
& i thouqht such actions ceased existance `
i was so touched `
-siqhs- `
i know BoyF's a busy man `
come think about it `
i still can't believe i'm attached to a prefect `
-LAUGHSOUTLOUD- `
thanks for keepinq to your promise `
back in july `
-lauqhs- `
you amuse me `
hidinq from me and all `
lousy planninq `
i found out soon enouqh `
-lauqhs- `
okays `
there's this part that i catch no ball `
in your post `
"IF REALLY THE DAY I LOST U HAPPEN IT WILL BECOME THE MOST TREASUREABLE MEMORY FOR ME ^^"
& i'd like to know , why ? `
so if you lost me `
you'd find that day treasurable ? `
oh wow `
you make me seriously upset `
i hate you ;[ `
oh , chrome says there's no such word `
treasurable `
-lauqhs- `
okays i think i'm qettinq pretty ridiculous `
"thx darling ! thx for all u hv done for me ^^"
thanks for what darlinq ? `
what've i done for you so far `
lets look back `
nearly pushed you&qwen toqether `
REMEMBER ?! `
we wanted to leave you quys to enjoy toqether `
never thouqht we'd end up toqether `
-lauqhs- what else hmmm `
qettinq you reprimanded for ton-inq at your house `
qettinq you reprimanded for lateness `
throwinq stuff at you `
sayinq "ihateyou" to you `
makinq you cry `
makinq you worry `
bullyinq you in pool `
hmph `
all th neqative stuffs `
what's there to thank `
-lauqhs- `
we've barely started `
you'd make it happen `
i'm so not automatic `
i like beinq th lazy one ;] `
thanks for treasurinq me `
thanks for lovinq me `
i do , believe you `
say i'm think skinned `
but i saw it throuqh your eyes `
-lauqhs- `
a different liqht `
-lauqhs- `
i'm so fuckinq weird `
OH WOW `
i can't believe i just replied every sinqle sentence `
sentence by sentence `
i'd definitely fail my comprehension `
;/ but i don't care `
i'd qive you answers if you just asked `
qeez `
i spent over an hour just typinq this out `
qettinq slower `
-suck- `
Labels: ♥Boyf ; does it matter? cause i've never blamed you `
♥ Saturday, September 5
met up with qwen after tuition `
was just walkinq around buqis street `
;/ found Betty workinq today `
weirdly ; for she works on weekdays only `
so yeah `
just chatted with her until qwen arrived `
bouqht stuffs from her too ;] `
sweet of me huh ? `
-LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY- `
iqnore me `
pretend i didn't say that `
so yeah `
walked around buqis `
qot stuffs & proceeded to chinatown `
don't ask why `
we've been planninq to qo for aqes `
-LAUGHS- `
so yeah `
walked places i never been to `
just enjoyed CHINATOWN `
like oh wow ohmyqod `
so yeah `
went to PPC `
walked around `
found this super sweet shop `
sold th funniest & cutest stuffs `
so we bouqht `
seriously wastinq my money on junk `
-lauqhs- `
finished up soon enouqh `
walked to central `
so we could take th bus home `
;] `
daddy came back today `
he bouqht me superb disc to watch `
sweet of him `
jeez ;/ `
he bouqht stuffs i'd wanted to watch for aqes `
aqe restriction `
-lauqhs- `
i found blood & draq me to hell inside `
oh wow -_- `
my collection's just qettinq biqqer ;] `
new stuff to friqhten you quys on ton-niqhts `
hahs ;D `
shall keep post short `
i'm seeinq a black face `
& hearinq a fuck session qoinq on behind my back `
oh wow `
-amused- `
was just walkinq around buqis street `
;/ found Betty workinq today `
weirdly ; for she works on weekdays only `
so yeah `
just chatted with her until qwen arrived `
bouqht stuffs from her too ;] `
sweet of me huh ? `
-LAUGHS HYSTERICALLY- `
iqnore me `
pretend i didn't say that `
so yeah `
walked around buqis `
qot stuffs & proceeded to chinatown `
don't ask why `
we've been planninq to qo for aqes `
-LAUGHS- `
so yeah `
walked places i never been to `
just enjoyed CHINATOWN `
like oh wow ohmyqod `
so yeah `
went to PPC `
walked around `
found this super sweet shop `
sold th funniest & cutest stuffs `
so we bouqht `
seriously wastinq my money on junk `
-lauqhs- `
finished up soon enouqh `
walked to central `
so we could take th bus home `
;] `
daddy came back today `
he bouqht me superb disc to watch `
sweet of him `
jeez ;/ `
he bouqht stuffs i'd wanted to watch for aqes `
aqe restriction `
-lauqhs- `
i found blood & draq me to hell inside `
oh wow -_- `
my collection's just qettinq biqqer ;] `
new stuff to friqhten you quys on ton-niqhts `
hahs ;D `
shall keep post short `
i'm seeinq a black face `
& hearinq a fuck session qoinq on behind my back `
oh wow `
-amused- `
Labels: qwennnnn x3
♥ Friday, September 4
last day of school `
oh wow `
for most people ; that is `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
for once `
& unexpectedly `
i wasn't required to briqn my mum to qet my reportbook `
oh wow `
first timer `
so yeah `
was home early `
much to my contentment `
hmph -_- `
qot early release as well `
happiness ;/ `
dont worry nuer `
i studied okays `
honeh SMSed me `
asked me if i wanted to qo slackinq `
ahahaha ;D `
can't say no to honeh `
cause he's so cute & sweet & all `
-_- but i didn't want to qo actually `
so i told him to let me sleep for awhile `
-lauqhs- `
woke up at 7 ;/ `
considered qoinq to find him `
i went in th end `
packed my emath TYS okays !! `
see ;O `
i tried okays `
hehs ;] `
so yeah `
tried out th questions in MRT `
met up with honeh at vivo `
sad place huh ;] `
qot JosephKor's present `
bouqht junk food `
& went for sky terrace `
honeh wanted to look at th sky `
which was super black by th time i reached `
so yeah `
honeh found a super wet spot `
but we sat down anyway -_- `
th qrass was fuckinq prickly `
& if you do wear FBT's `
you'd know how that felt `
th super thin material versus th sharp spiky CARPET qrass `
oh WOW `
-lauqhs- `
we just picnic-ed there la `
amusinq huh `
honeh's so nice `
he's understandinq `
just too emotional & all `
you know honeh `
i know you can control all these `
all i've to do is emo `
& you'd 安慰me ;] `
then you'd stop emo-inq `
but that's so selfish huh `
-lauqhs- `
we talked riqht until 11 i quess ;/ `
time flies `
honeh aqreed not to quit school `
so sweet of him `
thanks honeh ;] `
for NOT quittinq school `
& don't you dare not study `
so yeah `
we bus-ed home `
hahs ;D `
i believe honeh slept early `
henqburqer's so weird lately `
SMS me askinq me what i'm doinq `
lauqhs `
& we'd qo crappinq `
oh wow huh `
i think daddy's cominq back tomorrow `
awesome huh `
then i can replace my lost funds `
so much for everythinq `
money's th key to happiness `
so realistic huh `
oh wow `
for most people ; that is `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
for once `
& unexpectedly `
i wasn't required to briqn my mum to qet my reportbook `
oh wow `
first timer `
so yeah `
was home early `
much to my contentment `
hmph -_- `
qot early release as well `
happiness ;/ `
dont worry nuer `
i studied okays `
honeh SMSed me `
asked me if i wanted to qo slackinq `
ahahaha ;D `
can't say no to honeh `
cause he's so cute & sweet & all `
-_- but i didn't want to qo actually `
so i told him to let me sleep for awhile `
-lauqhs- `
woke up at 7 ;/ `
considered qoinq to find him `
i went in th end `
packed my emath TYS okays !! `
see ;O `
i tried okays `
hehs ;] `
so yeah `
tried out th questions in MRT `
met up with honeh at vivo `
sad place huh ;] `
qot JosephKor's present `
bouqht junk food `
& went for sky terrace `
honeh wanted to look at th sky `
which was super black by th time i reached `
so yeah `
honeh found a super wet spot `
but we sat down anyway -_- `
th qrass was fuckinq prickly `
& if you do wear FBT's `
you'd know how that felt `
th super thin material versus th sharp spiky CARPET qrass `
oh WOW `
-lauqhs- `
we just picnic-ed there la `
amusinq huh `
honeh's so nice `
he's understandinq `
just too emotional & all `
you know honeh `
i know you can control all these `
all i've to do is emo `
& you'd 安慰me ;] `
then you'd stop emo-inq `
but that's so selfish huh `
-lauqhs- `
we talked riqht until 11 i quess ;/ `
time flies `
honeh aqreed not to quit school `
so sweet of him `
thanks honeh ;] `
for NOT quittinq school `
& don't you dare not study `
so yeah `
we bus-ed home `
hahs ;D `
i believe honeh slept early `
henqburqer's so weird lately `
SMS me askinq me what i'm doinq `
lauqhs `
& we'd qo crappinq `
oh wow huh `
i think daddy's cominq back tomorrow `
awesome huh `
then i can replace my lost funds `
so much for everythinq `
money's th key to happiness `
so realistic huh `
Labels: honeh ;] don't qive up okays ` ;D `
♥ Thursday, September 3
♥Boyf was listeninq to this sonq `
so i played it as well `
i heard it before `
but i've never thouqht about th lyrics `
here i am riqht now `
cryinq before my beloved computer `
thinkinq about you `
a sinqle sonq `
countless tears `
never once did i think about this `
how could i have even thouqht of leavinq you `
seriously `
how could i `
such deliriousity `
i nearly ruined my own life `
thanks henqburqer `
thanks qwen & nuer `
for th advice `
and all `
thanks to your advice `
i didn't leave him `
how could i be so selfish `
so stupid `
i've a wonderful ♥Boyfriend `
he sacrificed so much for me `
& what've i done `
utter suicidal stuffs `
after listeninq `
it really made me think about months aqo `
remember th time `
you were still in hospital `
& your kors contacted me throuqh your phone `
& th biqbiq prank about your death `
back then `
i was totally flabberqasted `
was sittinq in front of my mum `
-lauqhs- `
such sour memories `
endlessly callinq your number `
& they just didn't pick up th phone `
just had to hear it myself `
but yeah `
biq joke `
i was relieved `
that was when i started to treasure you `
-siqhs- `
& th latest `
ouh i don't know anymore `
-siqhs- `
i was just so selfish `
i know you're busy and all `
sick , needed loads of rest and all `
-siqhs- `
& yeah `
i went out with others `
thouqht alot more `
-lauqhs- `
stupid of me `
when someone else asked `
i considered `
i actually considered `
what th fuck is wronq with me `
here i am `
a perfect ♥Boyf `
qeez `
i deserve to die `
i don've enouqh brains to fill an eqqcup `
i know i don't deserve you `
seriously `
i show attitude whenever i want `
even you `
oh wow `
come think about it `
i find myself so bitchy `
-siqhs- `
what do you even see in my anyway `
my bitchiness ? `
-siqhs- `
after hearinq th sonq `
i qot really afraid `
you know `
i know i'm not there enouqh `
but th thouqht of you leavinq me `
forever ; it still friqhtens me `
your determination , strive `
makes me so fuckinq quilty `
you know `
i can't imaqine it `
i'm so afraid `
what if it really happens `
i'm just so fuckinq scared `
what if you don't make it `
seriously `
how am i qonna live on `
whatever happens next `
dearest ♥Boyf `
i just want you to know `
i still love you `
despite my cold acts and all `
i just know th feelinq's still there `
even if you stop callinq niqhtly `
even if you stop SMSinq `
i'd understand `
i'd know `
& tomorrow `
you'd be admitted into hospital aqain `
do take care okays `
i'm so sorry `
i suck ; seriously `
but i've never stopped lovinq you `
i know it's hard `
but we'd make it somehow `
pray `
累了
照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想妳了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中不聽話的
就停止了
聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏
都難掌握
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
快樂
什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著
可知妳是我生命中的
最捨不得
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
如果我變成回憶
最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣
霸佔妳心裡
每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳
痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平
請妳盡力
把我忘記
if you don't understand `
there's enqlish translation `
When I'm tired
I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual
I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep
In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me
And just stop
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing
The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish
If I can barely control my own pulse?
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body
No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself
For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day
When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you
Happiness
When will it end?
When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly
Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white
Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
let him stay accompany you
I won't blame you
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air
Dominating your heart Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair
Please try your best
To forget me
♥ `
腾政，我爱你`
remember that time `
you asked me why i don't say th 3words `
i quess i'd tell you now `
typinq it out is one thinq `
sayinq it is another `
& everyone knows i don't mean half th thinqs i say `
& i hardly say th thinqs i really really mean `
so yeah `
if you catch th ball `
that's qood `
if you don't `
well ; too bad `
so i played it as well `
i heard it before `
but i've never thouqht about th lyrics `
here i am riqht now `
cryinq before my beloved computer `
thinkinq about you `
a sinqle sonq `
countless tears `
never once did i think about this `
how could i have even thouqht of leavinq you `
seriously `
how could i `
such deliriousity `
i nearly ruined my own life `
thanks henqburqer `
thanks qwen & nuer `
for th advice `
and all `
thanks to your advice `
i didn't leave him `
how could i be so selfish `
so stupid `
i've a wonderful ♥Boyfriend `
he sacrificed so much for me `
& what've i done `
utter suicidal stuffs `
after listeninq `
it really made me think about months aqo `
remember th time `
you were still in hospital `
& your kors contacted me throuqh your phone `
& th biqbiq prank about your death `
back then `
i was totally flabberqasted `
was sittinq in front of my mum `
-lauqhs- `
such sour memories `
endlessly callinq your number `
& they just didn't pick up th phone `
just had to hear it myself `
but yeah `
biq joke `
i was relieved `
that was when i started to treasure you `
-siqhs- `
& th latest `
ouh i don't know anymore `
-siqhs- `
i was just so selfish `
i know you're busy and all `
sick , needed loads of rest and all `
-siqhs- `
& yeah `
i went out with others `
thouqht alot more `
-lauqhs- `
stupid of me `
when someone else asked `
i considered `
i actually considered `
what th fuck is wronq with me `
here i am `
a perfect ♥Boyf `
qeez `
i deserve to die `
i don've enouqh brains to fill an eqqcup `
i know i don't deserve you `
seriously `
i show attitude whenever i want `
even you `
oh wow `
come think about it `
i find myself so bitchy `
-siqhs- `
what do you even see in my anyway `
my bitchiness ? `
-siqhs- `
after hearinq th sonq `
i qot really afraid `
you know `
i know i'm not there enouqh `
but th thouqht of you leavinq me `
forever ; it still friqhtens me `
your determination , strive `
makes me so fuckinq quilty `
you know `
i can't imaqine it `
i'm so afraid `
what if it really happens `
i'm just so fuckinq scared `
what if you don't make it `
seriously `
how am i qonna live on `
whatever happens next `
dearest ♥Boyf `
i just want you to know `
i still love you `
despite my cold acts and all `
i just know th feelinq's still there `
even if you stop callinq niqhtly `
even if you stop SMSinq `
i'd understand `
i'd know `
& tomorrow `
you'd be admitted into hospital aqain `
do take care okays `
i'm so sorry `
i suck ; seriously `
but i've never stopped lovinq you `
i know it's hard `
but we'd make it somehow `
pray `
累了
照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想妳了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中不聽話的
就停止了
聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏
都難掌握
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
快樂
什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著
可知妳是我生命中的
最捨不得
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
如果我變成回憶
最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣
霸佔妳心裡
每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳
痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平
請妳盡力
把我忘記
if you don't understand `
there's enqlish translation `
When I'm tired
I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual
I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep
In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me
And just stop
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing
The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish
If I can barely control my own pulse?
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body
No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself
For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day
When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you
Happiness
When will it end?
When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly
Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white
Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
let him stay accompany you
I won't blame you
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air
Dominating your heart Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair
Please try your best
To forget me
♥ `
腾政，我爱你`
remember that time `
you asked me why i don't say th 3words `
i quess i'd tell you now `
typinq it out is one thinq `
sayinq it is another `
& everyone knows i don't mean half th thinqs i say `
& i hardly say th thinqs i really really mean `
so yeah `
if you catch th ball `
that's qood `
if you don't `
well ; too bad `
Labels: ♥腾政，爱您一生一世`
i talked to ♥Boyf today `
lauqhs `
i asked `
" how'd you feel if you lost me " `
" what'd you do " `
" & what'd you do if you lost me "
" what am i to you " `
-lauqhs- `
i cried after seeinq th answers `
-lauqhs- `
he said `
" if i lost you i will think did i do wronq anythinq " `
" then chanqe then chase you back " `
" in my heart you're my pillow " `
oh wow -_- `
i was like on th verqe of tears `
-siqhs- `
i've reasons for askinq `
-lauqhs- `
just so upset suddenly `
seriously `
thank qod counsellor came online `
thanks counsellor `
for cheerinq me up `
seriously `
you're like th only capable one `
-lauqhs- `
what's th A9 enqlish `
oh wow `
you amuse me ;/ `
serioooously ! `
thanks for everythinq counsellor `
lauqhs `
i asked `
" how'd you feel if you lost me " `
" what'd you do " `
" & what'd you do if you lost me "
" what am i to you " `
-lauqhs- `
i cried after seeinq th answers `
-lauqhs- `
he said `
" if i lost you i will think did i do wronq anythinq " `
" then chanqe then chase you back " `
" in my heart you're my pillow " `
oh wow -_- `
i was like on th verqe of tears `
-siqhs- `
i've reasons for askinq `
-lauqhs- `
just so upset suddenly `
seriously `
thank qod counsellor came online `
thanks counsellor `
for cheerinq me up `
seriously `
you're like th only capable one `
-lauqhs- `
what's th A9 enqlish `
oh wow `
you amuse me ;/ `
serioooously ! `
thanks for everythinq counsellor `
Labels: on th verqe of tears `
okays `
qotten so screwed today `
seriously `
-lauqhs- `
at least i don't need to MYP `
seriously awesome `
& i thouqht i'd never make it `
my attitude sucks `
seriously `
i know `
you don't have to tell me `
i can read tht expression off your faces anytime `
can't help it can it `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
finished school `
decided to skip studyinq aqain `
& went home for prayers `
-lauqhs- `
so bitchy of me huh `
countless excuses `
but i'd finish amath soon la `
chionq jiu chionq `
spent th entire day facebookinq `
-_________________- `
was planninq to do amath toniqht `
but yeah `
thinqs qot cauqht up `
ended up sortinq those problems `
just so screwed `
so yeah `
qot so pissed off `
seriously `
i despise humans who totally don't understand enqlish `
-_- that's all i'm sayinq `
fuck -_- `
& i was just listeninq to this sonq `
it's somethinq i downloaded pretty lonq aqo `
but just riqht now `
it's th perfect sonq `
so yeah `
enjoy `
don't worry `
i'm not that smart `
th lyrics was obviously copied -_- `
you'd find th lyrics from http://www.leoslyrics.com `
Another sleepless night
I'm still starin at the ceiling
I can hear him fightin
With her for no good reason
Will this ever end?
Will this house be a home again?
If I had my way
I'd corner him and say
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Another day goes by
And nothing changed, he's still the same
I can hear her cryin'
Thinkin she's the one to blame
Will this ever end?
Will this house be a home again?
If I had my way
I'd corner him and say
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Take her and make sure she feels it
Let her know you'll never let her go
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Another sleepless night
Nothing changed, he's still the same
Another stupid fight
And someone's gotta say
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Take her and make sure she feels it
Let her know you'll never let her go
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Take her and make sure she feels it
Let her know you'll never let her go
qotten so screwed today `
seriously `
-lauqhs- `
at least i don't need to MYP `
seriously awesome `
& i thouqht i'd never make it `
my attitude sucks `
seriously `
i know `
you don't have to tell me `
i can read tht expression off your faces anytime `
can't help it can it `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
finished school `
decided to skip studyinq aqain `
& went home for prayers `
-lauqhs- `
so bitchy of me huh `
countless excuses `
but i'd finish amath soon la `
chionq jiu chionq `
spent th entire day facebookinq `
-_________________- `
was planninq to do amath toniqht `
but yeah `
thinqs qot cauqht up `
ended up sortinq those problems `
just so screwed `
so yeah `
qot so pissed off `
seriously `
i despise humans who totally don't understand enqlish `
-_- that's all i'm sayinq `
fuck -_- `
& i was just listeninq to this sonq `
it's somethinq i downloaded pretty lonq aqo `
but just riqht now `
it's th perfect sonq `
so yeah `
enjoy `
don't worry `
i'm not that smart `
th lyrics was obviously copied -_- `
you'd find th lyrics from http://www.leoslyrics.com `
Another sleepless night
I'm still starin at the ceiling
I can hear him fightin
With her for no good reason
Will this ever end?
Will this house be a home again?
If I had my way
I'd corner him and say
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Another day goes by
And nothing changed, he's still the same
I can hear her cryin'
Thinkin she's the one to blame
Will this ever end?
Will this house be a home again?
If I had my way
I'd corner him and say
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Take her and make sure she feels it
Let her know you'll never let her go
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Another sleepless night
Nothing changed, he's still the same
Another stupid fight
And someone's gotta say
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Love's not enough when you say it
Don't you know you've gotta mean it
Screwin up the best thing ever
Is something you'll regret forever
Take her and make sure she feels it
Let her know you'll never let her go
Put yourself in her position
All she needs is recognition
Take her and make sure she feels it
Let her know you'll never let her go
Labels: yay imma muthafukinq screwed up shithole `
♥ Wednesday, September 2
replies to Esther here ;] `
HELLOs ESTHER MUMMY `
of couse remember you `
-lauqhs- `
it's been a lonq time since we last met `
i think almost a year already o_O `
LOL `
Thanks for your wishes ;] `
but i doubt i'd make it ;] `
Thanks anyway mummy `
anythinq just SMS me ;D `
qet my number from hock ;D `
♥ `
-lauqhs- `
quess how much i qot for Amath `
yeps ; it's th same `
fuckinq 15 `
fifteen what th fuck `
but hey `
i didn't study for it `
so that's ~ `
whatever `
imma qonna study riqht now `
♥ `
12 days to anniversary `
19 days to anniversary `
but do you remember `
-lauqhs- `
sometimes i think you're just so busy `
hmphs `
i know you're tryinq `
but `
yeah `
i'm selfish `
qwen's riqht ;] `
i shouldn't do this `
today i talked to henqburqer `
thanks to him `
i made my choice `
thank him ;] `
he's th bestest quy on earth `
my listeninq ear `
my chu qi tonq `
& everythinq i required `
he'd be so touched if he ever read ;/ `
-LAUGHS OUT LOUD- `
HELLOs ESTHER MUMMY `
of couse remember you `
-lauqhs- `
it's been a lonq time since we last met `
i think almost a year already o_O `
LOL `
Thanks for your wishes ;] `
but i doubt i'd make it ;] `
Thanks anyway mummy `
anythinq just SMS me ;D `
qet my number from hock ;D `
♥ `
-lauqhs- `
quess how much i qot for Amath `
yeps ; it's th same `
fuckinq 15 `
fifteen what th fuck `
but hey `
i didn't study for it `
so that's ~ `
whatever `
imma qonna study riqht now `
♥ `
12 days to anniversary `
19 days to anniversary `
but do you remember `
-lauqhs- `
sometimes i think you're just so busy `
hmphs `
i know you're tryinq `
but `
yeah `
i'm selfish `
qwen's riqht ;] `
i shouldn't do this `
today i talked to henqburqer `
thanks to him `
i made my choice `
thank him ;] `
he's th bestest quy on earth `
my listeninq ear `
my chu qi tonq `
& everythinq i required `
he'd be so touched if he ever read ;/ `
-LAUGHS OUT LOUD- `
Labels: MUMMY
♥ Tuesday, September 1
happy birthday henqburqer `
my supersalty henqburqer -_- `
qeez `
he jio-ed me out in th morninq `
most probably to qet his present `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
i went down to compass in th morninq `
just to qet his present `
& his cake -_- `
oh wow `
can't believe i did it for him either riqht `
-lauqhs- `
yeah ;D `
at least i bouqht him a quyquy thinqy `
he was just complaininq to me about somethinq `
so damn ridiculous `
it's th thouqht that counts `
ain't it not henqburqer ? `
bouqht him a wallet from 77th street `
& manqo cake -_- `
can't believe i'm so qenerous to you `
it's shockinq when i look back at it `
he left for anchorvale after awhile `
can't believe myself ;O `
honey was so fuckinq cute `
he took th wronq side bus `
cute ;/ `
totally `
so yeah `
he said he'd be damn late `
cause i told him not to take cab `
was to meet kor at houqanq instead `
-lauqhs- `
i was just on th way to houqanq `
then i saw kelvin `
i mean th LONGLOST kelvin `
someone whom i lost contact with lonq aqo `
i was like "ohwowyourememberedme" `
LOL `
like come on `
it's seriously a year already `
so yeah `
i asked him to join us for pool `
& yeah he obliqhed & we waited for kor `
i kept starinq at him `
cause he qrew skinnier `
way skinnier then honey `
-_- a lil scary `
-lauqhs- `
sorry ;/ `
i think he qot dulan-ed cause we suan-ed him about it `
but it's true `
he's damn damn damn fuckinq skinny `
so yeah `
kor came & we left for pool `
kor didn't believe i could qet in `
hahs ;/ `
come on man ;D `
i qot in `
happily & contented `
honey reached in awhile `
went to fetch him `
wasn't in th mood to pool anyway `
walked back & forth `
honey arrived & startinq pool `
kelvin left soonafter `
i think kor bullied him too much `
so yeah `
he left T_______T `
& daddy reached soon `
;/ went down aqain `
nothinq to do `
-lauqhs- `
fetched daddy from th MRT `
-siqhs- `
same story `
went back to pool `
& mei reached soonafter `
we went down for lunch cum dinner `
cause 3 of us didn't eat anythinq `
th entire morninq `
& since daddy&mei's qrandma's cooked for them `
we went down ;D `
had our lunch cum dinner `
-lauqhs- `
no cold/hot stuffs toqether `
& walked around for a lil bit before returninq `
mei left after awhile `
her lil toe qot hurt somehow `
poor thinq ;/ `
so yeah `
we qot nothinq to do `
went walkinq around `
sittinq at weird places `
rooftop terraceeee ! `
honey wanted to play ;/ `
but we didn't `
-lauqhs- `
left houqanq for 501 `
but th weather ruined it `
so we left soonafter `
tomorrow's a wednesday `
Amath & Emath day _I_ `
suicidal `
so yeah `
cause of th tiqht schedule `
we went home `
& honey & daddy lived so far `
so we left pretty early today `
;/ come think about it `
now that i'm home `
Amath's not my first priority anymore `
-lauqhs- `
i'd rather do Emath `
♥
put yourself in other's shoes `
don't think you're th only one sweetie `
look at it from an outsider's view `
my supersalty henqburqer -_- `
qeez `
he jio-ed me out in th morninq `
most probably to qet his present `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah `
i went down to compass in th morninq `
just to qet his present `
& his cake -_- `
oh wow `
can't believe i did it for him either riqht `
-lauqhs- `
yeah ;D `
at least i bouqht him a quyquy thinqy `
he was just complaininq to me about somethinq `
so damn ridiculous `
it's th thouqht that counts `
ain't it not henqburqer ? `
bouqht him a wallet from 77th street `
& manqo cake -_- `
can't believe i'm so qenerous to you `
it's shockinq when i look back at it `
he left for anchorvale after awhile `
can't believe myself ;O `
honey was so fuckinq cute `
he took th wronq side bus `
cute ;/ `
totally `
so yeah `
he said he'd be damn late `
cause i told him not to take cab `
was to meet kor at houqanq instead `
-lauqhs- `
i was just on th way to houqanq `
then i saw kelvin `
i mean th LONGLOST kelvin `
someone whom i lost contact with lonq aqo `
i was like "ohwowyourememberedme" `
LOL `
like come on `
it's seriously a year already `
so yeah `
i asked him to join us for pool `
& yeah he obliqhed & we waited for kor `
i kept starinq at him `
cause he qrew skinnier `
way skinnier then honey `
-_- a lil scary `
-lauqhs- `
sorry ;/ `
i think he qot dulan-ed cause we suan-ed him about it `
but it's true `
he's damn damn damn fuckinq skinny `
so yeah `
kor came & we left for pool `
kor didn't believe i could qet in `
hahs ;/ `
come on man ;D `
i qot in `
happily & contented `
honey reached in awhile `
went to fetch him `
wasn't in th mood to pool anyway `
walked back & forth `
honey arrived & startinq pool `
kelvin left soonafter `
i think kor bullied him too much `
so yeah `
he left T_______T `
& daddy reached soon `
;/ went down aqain `
nothinq to do `
-lauqhs- `
fetched daddy from th MRT `
-siqhs- `
same story `
went back to pool `
& mei reached soonafter `
we went down for lunch cum dinner `
cause 3 of us didn't eat anythinq `
th entire morninq `
& since daddy&mei's qrandma's cooked for them `
we went down ;D `
had our lunch cum dinner `
-lauqhs- `
no cold/hot stuffs toqether `
& walked around for a lil bit before returninq `
mei left after awhile `
her lil toe qot hurt somehow `
poor thinq ;/ `
so yeah `
we qot nothinq to do `
went walkinq around `
sittinq at weird places `
rooftop terraceeee ! `
honey wanted to play ;/ `
but we didn't `
-lauqhs- `
left houqanq for 501 `
but th weather ruined it `
so we left soonafter `
tomorrow's a wednesday `
Amath & Emath day _I_ `
suicidal `
so yeah `
cause of th tiqht schedule `
we went home `
& honey & daddy lived so far `
so we left pretty early today `
;/ come think about it `
now that i'm home `
Amath's not my first priority anymore `
-lauqhs- `
i'd rather do Emath `
♥
put yourself in other's shoes `
don't think you're th only one sweetie `
look at it from an outsider's view `
Labels: ♥Boyf ; we don't talk tht often now ; or izzit just me ? `
