♥ Sunday, January 31
felt so shit after last niqht's drinkinq session ;/ `
seriously , `
sucked man ;O `
tried callinq Boyf at 3 AM ;/ `
but he was still workinq `
couldnt qet th fucked up feelinq off `
so i went to find him today at workplace `
one off day per week `
how pathetic is that `
was so fuckinq happy to see him `
after last niqht `
i absolutely reqret treatinq him like shit before `
sorry Dear , i quess i was wronq `
okay `
lesson learnt from mistakes made `
had lunch with Boyf at basement `
he said i was qettinq sweeter -_- ; crap `
& he bouqht me 2 nose rinqs and a nose stud `
haaa what th fuck , cus i wanted it so badly `
& he said i wouldnt wear it ;/ `
he stated looks like malay -_- `
so mean of him ;/ but hey ; idc `
i couldnt qet th fuckinq nosestud in `
so he helped me , endinq with me tearinq `
not that im afraid of pain `
th nerves are connected ;/ `
was about to leave when i saw XINYI `
i was like omqomqomq serious ?! `
cus i haven seen her for a VERY lonq time `
was like overjoyed ;/ `
1 more month T_T `
-siqhs- `
shopped for certain stuffs after `
which was pretty stupid `
hahaha what th fuck `
& slacked at skypark ;/ `
so yeah `
i admitted to Boyf `
cus i couldnt take it anymore ;/ `
he forqave me & all `
haaa , i cried . what th fuck `
just so upset about it `
stayed there until 6 ;/ `
Boyf went back to work, sadly `
ha ;/ `
cancelled Eric's pool appointment `
& went out with kor instead `
i wanted to qo chop off my hair >;D `
but hais ;[ it closed already `
so went shoe shoppinq with kor `
qot mislead to RM `
which was crazy -_- `
kor was doinq this stupid thinq `
th "no link siqn" `
which qot me lauqhinq like hell `
fuck he's so entertaininq `
he wants to learn somethinq from me `
but i'm too hooked up on FB `
so yeah `
-♥- `
Thanks ♥Damien honeh `
my One true lil brother ;] `
love you truckloadzxc `
for beinq my listeninq ear & all `
qivinq advice , i took it ;] `
seriously `
Thanks to you `
i qot my confidence back `
didnt have th couraqe to qo out initially `
but i did `
i quess i was stupid before `
thank qod i didnt drop you ;O `
Thanks ♥honeh `
-♥- `
Thanks ♥Jacqueline Jie `
for beinq so sweet `
& ♥Boyf `
for beinq so understandinq `
and everythinq for th past few months `
i promise to stop beinq mean `
& stop qoinq on private drinkinq sessions `
as well as beinq a pain in th ass `
Thanks ♥Dear `
♥Boyf says he'd qive me a monthly allowance `
what th fuck `
i LOLed okay `
that was hilarious `
my cute younq Boyf ;O `
okay im happy ;] `
fuckinq contented `
feel like chanqinq my number `
and puttinq private `
-♥- `
10 years of love, hatred & friendship `
10 years aqo `
probably around this time `
we became friends `
throuqh th years it chanqed `
trust ; betrayal ; sorrow `
i remember our last , `
rumours made me hate you `
sorrow made me think deep `
a soft heart made us friends aqain `
throuqh thick & thin `
spite & envy `
sweet & sour `
truth & lies `
first of th first `
last of th last `
10 years have passed `
my last chance is qone `
ruined , by myself `
such reqret is felt `
but nothinq is done `
takinq th bubbles to a drinkinq session `
blowinq them just below your block `
thinkinq about how we used to be `
reqret & everythinq `
cookies & chalet catchinq `
makinq up stupid clubs & names `
qrotesque recipes & qinqerbread `
pullinq & pushinq `
i keep it all inside `
pretendinq i don't care `
flaqrant lies `
i do , but its too late `
i took it as possessiveness `
it was a wronq siqhtinq `
dear qirl `
i doubt you'd read my bloq ever aqain `
but i'll still say this `
cus of you `
i treasure everyone today `
without you `
i'd probably not understand th meaninq of true friendship `
how much sacrifice one can make `
for another soul `
i owe you so much `
but i dont know how to repay you `
instead , i caused you so much pain `
too late `
you're qone `
& you'd never come back `
here , we part `
its th end `
- `
written with a pen `
sealed with a kiss `
if you're my friend `
answer me this `
are we friends or are we not ? `
you told me once `
but i forqot `
so tell me one more `
& tell me th truth `
so i can say `
i'm here for you `
& if i die before you `
i'll qo to heaven `
& wait for you `
hock sent me this sms `
but i don've th quts to send it to you `
my contact's still th same `
i'd hate to chanqe it `
cause you actually bothered to remember it `
i'd let you know if i do `
but i doubt thinqs would ever be th same aqain `
unless we end up in th same course `
chances are like 0% `
but i'd still pray&hope `
hopinq that one day it'd all be th same aqain `
currently listeninq to "Thats what you qet : Paramore" `
-lauqhs- `
currently disturbinq Damien honeh on FB `
after Gwen liked my activity ;O `
i went to Damien's and clicked everythinq `
& i LOLed for a pretty lonq time ;/ `
self entertainment `
hmph `
okay `
qonna bake muffins with bro `
Labels: 10 years of love, hatred and friendship `
♥ Monday, January 11
shall reopen my bloq today ;/ `
due to some personal reasons `
-siqhs- `
was just talkinq to qrandpa & lianq `
considerinq whether to qo qet my shit results `
so yeah ;/ `
i just went anyway `
qot cauqht by A.L & was sent to din `
bitch -_- `
crap ;/ spammed smses , couldn't reply `
so i called one by one -_- `
which was stupid `
-siqhs- `
thanks Damien honeh & Siaowei Kor `
for tryinq `
-lauqhs- `
& lianq , boyf , qrandpa , theva kor `
derrick , henqburqer , Gwen `
Punkie , Andrew , Todd `
for endurinq my nonsense `
-lauqhs- `
so yeah , `
thouqht about how i spent my o lvl days `
Boyf campinq over like 5 days a week `
crappinq all th way `
i didn't study `
so i was like panickinq already la `
i was thinkinq of 33 at least `
;/ MrThonq took my results down for me `
sweet , thanks <3>i was like cryinq and lauqhinq `
so yeah `
i didnt qet 33 -_- `
but i think i qot last in class `
lol , thats for not studyinq `
my textbooks are still new `
anyone want them ? `
so yeah , i qot somethinq i didnt think i would qet `
A2 for Math , went to find Mrs Yoqa `
haaaaaaa <3>F9 to A2 <3>Mr Panq was shocked too la `
hahhah -_- `
went to work after that `
stood infront of th counter lauqhinq `
;/ was so fuckinq funny `
just couldnt stop `
qot over it after awhile `
just so screwed `
finished workinq , & started thinkinq `
Boyf , know what's th best thinq in life today `
its th fact that i passed my O's `
unlike your ex qirlf who failed 3 times `
than willinqly pack her ass to ITE `
if i failed i would have went `
& th fact that i proved my mum wronq `
th fact that i can still pass O's `
despite you cominq over daily `
sleepinq over daily `
and accompaninq me daily `
it proves that study or not `
somehow i can do it `
even if its th lousiest pass `
& to why i started cryinq in th niqht `
know how painful it is `
we both work full time `
no one's there anymore `
i know you don't like me havinq qans `
moreover my phone's spoilt `
my point is `
so what if i/you have money ? `
you think i will be happy ? `
no , indeed `
whats th point of havinq everythinq `
whats th point of havinq everythinq `
job , money , passinq qrades `
when its not what i really want `
so what if i qet qrades that pleases you all `
it doesnt please me ; not at all `
i dont qet to see you as often as Os period `
in fact i wish O's would come back `
than we could camp out at my home aqain `
without a worry `
sometimes i wonder , seriously `
why th fxck do i qet thinqs i wan so fuckinq easily -_- `
when i say i want them `
it doesnt really matter if i qet them or not `
-siqhs- `
i miss your touch `
seems about a fortniqht aqo when i last enjoyed life `
fuck your job `
& your boss `
Labels: screw th world
