♥ Saturday, December 20
20th december 2oO8 `
went over to ♥Dear's `
just had th urqe to see him `
too much huqqinq and all `
-lauqhs- `
-siqhs- `
qot sianded of bus `
went over to woodland `
then chanqed mind `
sat cab over to qombak `
th uncle was like totally deaf `
he asked me 3 times `
where i was qoinq `
and i replied th same answer 3 times `
annoyinq luh `
deaf `
and he asked me 3 times `
how i wanted to qo `
and i answered 3 times `
anythinq `
super stupid `
stupid old man `
he was drivinq at 40km/h `
thus th bill `
oh well `
why harp on th past `
but th uncle really wtf `
he was like why so lonq one `
i blanked out luh `
-lauqhs- `
met up with dear `
and up to his bed `
-lauqhs- `
i love his bed =] `
his friend came soonafter `
dear was mean `
he tried askinq for somethinq `
don't think too much `
then he chanqed his question `
and i was like noooo T_T `
cannot T____T `
he thouqht i cried `
funny `
i was thinkinq about th thinq `
qary uncle called `
asked me to qo over `
so i went `
qombak to ECP `
super lonq journey `
reached there anyway `
didn't qet much entertainment `
more confusion `
qot pretty cold `
huqqed dear `
-qiqqles- `
sound like tryinq to showoff `
funny aye ? `
heard from Dickson stuffs `
don't qive th boyf liqhter `
then i remembered `
i ever qave dear a liqhter `
-lauqhs- `
but it didn't happen anyway `
was still planninq to buy `
dear's birthday is cominq `
nothinq else to send `
sadded `
i treasure every day with dear now `
cant afford anymore losses `
continued slackinq about `
qot super bored `
decided to leave around 1:30AM `
reached qombak around 2-2:30AM `
fell asleep in th car `
-lauqhs- `
went home to find jacket GONE `
emo-ed `
then anqry `
flipped all th stuffs `
found jacket and happiness `
wore jacket to bed mwahaha `
and qoodniqhts `
♥DEAR , `
went over to ♥Dear's `
just had th urqe to see him `
too much huqqinq and all `
-lauqhs- `
-siqhs- `
qot sianded of bus `
went over to woodland `
then chanqed mind `
sat cab over to qombak `
th uncle was like totally deaf `
he asked me 3 times `
where i was qoinq `
and i replied th same answer 3 times `
annoyinq luh `
deaf `
and he asked me 3 times `
how i wanted to qo `
and i answered 3 times `
anythinq `
super stupid `
stupid old man `
he was drivinq at 40km/h `
thus th bill `
oh well `
why harp on th past `
but th uncle really wtf `
he was like why so lonq one `
i blanked out luh `
-lauqhs- `
met up with dear `
and up to his bed `
-lauqhs- `
i love his bed =] `
his friend came soonafter `
dear was mean `
he tried askinq for somethinq `
don't think too much `
then he chanqed his question `
and i was like noooo T_T `
cannot T____T `
he thouqht i cried `
funny `
i was thinkinq about th thinq `
qary uncle called `
asked me to qo over `
so i went `
qombak to ECP `
super lonq journey `
reached there anyway `
didn't qet much entertainment `
more confusion `
qot pretty cold `
huqqed dear `
-qiqqles- `
sound like tryinq to showoff `
funny aye ? `
heard from Dickson stuffs `
don't qive th boyf liqhter `
then i remembered `
i ever qave dear a liqhter `
-lauqhs- `
but it didn't happen anyway `
was still planninq to buy `
dear's birthday is cominq `
nothinq else to send `
sadded `
i treasure every day with dear now `
cant afford anymore losses `
continued slackinq about `
qot super bored `
decided to leave around 1:30AM `
reached qombak around 2-2:30AM `
fell asleep in th car `
-lauqhs- `
went home to find jacket GONE `
emo-ed `
then anqry `
flipped all th stuffs `
found jacket and happiness `
wore jacket to bed mwahaha `
and qoodniqhts `
♥DEAR , `
Labels: appreciated `
♥ Friday, December 19
woke up in th morninq `
decided to bake a cake for kor `
-lauqhs- `
failure it looked so funny `
stupid icinq funny `
he brouqht me heineken `
happiness `
he draqqed infront of me T_T `
fine i'm pathetic `
stupid qirl `
only drinks small kicks `
-_- yeah so what `
life was qettinq bitter already `
so i added suqar `
funny eh ? `
suqared beer `
doesn't taste nice `
plain old heineken tast better `
no one knows why i qot anqry `
it's funny isn't it ? `
life's a mystery `
waitinq to be revealed `
i'll reveal my anqer in a few days `
anyway `
if you can't take my moodswinqs `
th door's open `
leave if you must `
such sacrifices may be forced `
unwillinqly ; yet a must `
had peeps over aqain `
no point rushinq me peeps `
i'm slow and pathetic `
so they came `
was in thunderous mood `
tried keepinq it in `
but it qot let out anyway `
after a few rounds of audi `
went to kor's room `
emo-ed and all la `
played th old sonqs of th past `
nearly teared `
my 3CM nail broke `
a siqn of losinq somethinq precious `
for somethinq i cared for `
so lonq `
and now its broken `
just like losinq someone `
i once cared for `
and now lost `
broken off `
it always happens `
oh forqhet it `
such misery should be left alone `
untouched ; unfelt `
no one understands `
felt that i missed dear alot `
for someone whom i love `
someone of qreat importance `
anqer ; emotional mistakes `
had th feelinq of slamminq stuffs `
thouqht about how i used to be `
doors slamminq daily `
burninq of paper `
th vulqarities shot `
oh i do miss th times `
yet chanqe is somethinq so powerful `
overniqht chanqes made impossible `
i doubt you quys ever think `
why i qot anqry `
i believe you're thinkinq `
if i don't say `
how would you quys ever know ? `
people with hiqh EQ `
would understand `
perhaps i owe you an apoloqy `
sorry `
you qot it `
but to my anqer `
i doubt you quys even know `
-lauqhs- `
i won't say now `
days later perhaps `
then you qet pissed off ? `
none of my business now eh `
-lauqhs- `
you quys're qonna qet a shock `
but i don't care anyway `
after dyinq for a lil while `
went over for dinner `
SMSed punkie throuqhout `
he tried cheerinq me up `
success and all `
thanks punkie `
how come you understand ? `
th jokes `
indeed they made one feel better `
finished dinner `
went over for pool sessions `
felt super shit and all `
fuck houqanq `
seriously `
addinq qasoline to flames `
old wrinkly haqqard slut `
that's what you are `
didn't have an awesome mood `
met up with xun daddiie `
thank qod he came `
cabbed over to kovan `
pool-ed `
super weird sticks `
heavy and slippery `
but had fun anyway `
pooled until 2AM as usual `
felt so much better soon `
passinq out anqer and all `
went home `
felt super anqry aqain `
certain SMSes affect me qreatly `
left me shakinq inside `
to lose somethinq `
i quess beinq immuned to pain `
doesn't matter `
a loss so qreat `
it still hurts anyway `
but i believe in th old sayinq `
whatever that's yours `
will be yours `
may it take years to return `
it will still be yours `
yet if it isn't yours to be `
no matter how much force is used `
nonetheless `
it will never be yours `
locked ourselves in my room `
and let everythinq out `
i thank kor for everythinq `
this year `
who's there for me `
who's ears are lent to me `
dear ; kor `
such precious people `
bearers of th secrets `
th comforts `
-siqhs- `
i don't deserve them anyway `
thankful for them `
th company `
and for wastinq your time `
kor chatted with me until 5AM `
qrateful for th company `
th help for ventinq anqer `
qrateful for th solutions qiven `
th opinions shared `
despite th situation i'm in `
it really makes me feel blessed `
to have such people around me `
quess i love my family `
after today `
i placed dear first `
for beinq there always `
quess i'll qo qombak tomorrow `
i do miss dear so `
and dear's qot a heavy flu `
♥DEAR `
please understand `
i love you `
perhaps i don't SMS you much `
but like you understand `
you live in my heart `
huqqinq th jacket `
i just realized `
dear `
you mean so much to me `
decided to bake a cake for kor `
-lauqhs- `
failure it looked so funny `
stupid icinq funny `
he brouqht me heineken `
happiness `
he draqqed infront of me T_T `
fine i'm pathetic `
stupid qirl `
only drinks small kicks `
-_- yeah so what `
life was qettinq bitter already `
so i added suqar `
funny eh ? `
suqared beer `
doesn't taste nice `
plain old heineken tast better `
no one knows why i qot anqry `
it's funny isn't it ? `
life's a mystery `
waitinq to be revealed `
i'll reveal my anqer in a few days `
anyway `
if you can't take my moodswinqs `
th door's open `
leave if you must `
such sacrifices may be forced `
unwillinqly ; yet a must `
had peeps over aqain `
no point rushinq me peeps `
i'm slow and pathetic `
so they came `
was in thunderous mood `
tried keepinq it in `
but it qot let out anyway `
after a few rounds of audi `
went to kor's room `
emo-ed and all la `
played th old sonqs of th past `
nearly teared `
my 3CM nail broke `
a siqn of losinq somethinq precious `
for somethinq i cared for `
so lonq `
and now its broken `
just like losinq someone `
i once cared for `
and now lost `
broken off `
it always happens `
oh forqhet it `
such misery should be left alone `
untouched ; unfelt `
no one understands `
felt that i missed dear alot `
for someone whom i love `
someone of qreat importance `
anqer ; emotional mistakes `
had th feelinq of slamminq stuffs `
thouqht about how i used to be `
doors slamminq daily `
burninq of paper `
th vulqarities shot `
oh i do miss th times `
yet chanqe is somethinq so powerful `
overniqht chanqes made impossible `
i doubt you quys ever think `
why i qot anqry `
i believe you're thinkinq `
if i don't say `
how would you quys ever know ? `
people with hiqh EQ `
would understand `
perhaps i owe you an apoloqy `
sorry `
you qot it `
but to my anqer `
i doubt you quys even know `
-lauqhs- `
i won't say now `
days later perhaps `
then you qet pissed off ? `
none of my business now eh `
-lauqhs- `
you quys're qonna qet a shock `
but i don't care anyway `
after dyinq for a lil while `
went over for dinner `
SMSed punkie throuqhout `
he tried cheerinq me up `
success and all `
thanks punkie `
how come you understand ? `
th jokes `
indeed they made one feel better `
finished dinner `
went over for pool sessions `
felt super shit and all `
fuck houqanq `
seriously `
addinq qasoline to flames `
old wrinkly haqqard slut `
that's what you are `
didn't have an awesome mood `
met up with xun daddiie `
thank qod he came `
cabbed over to kovan `
pool-ed `
super weird sticks `
heavy and slippery `
but had fun anyway `
pooled until 2AM as usual `
felt so much better soon `
passinq out anqer and all `
went home `
felt super anqry aqain `
certain SMSes affect me qreatly `
left me shakinq inside `
to lose somethinq `
i quess beinq immuned to pain `
doesn't matter `
a loss so qreat `
it still hurts anyway `
but i believe in th old sayinq `
whatever that's yours `
will be yours `
may it take years to return `
it will still be yours `
yet if it isn't yours to be `
no matter how much force is used `
nonetheless `
it will never be yours `
locked ourselves in my room `
and let everythinq out `
i thank kor for everythinq `
this year `
who's there for me `
who's ears are lent to me `
dear ; kor `
such precious people `
bearers of th secrets `
th comforts `
-siqhs- `
i don't deserve them anyway `
thankful for them `
th company `
and for wastinq your time `
kor chatted with me until 5AM `
qrateful for th company `
th help for ventinq anqer `
qrateful for th solutions qiven `
th opinions shared `
despite th situation i'm in `
it really makes me feel blessed `
to have such people around me `
quess i love my family `
after today `
i placed dear first `
for beinq there always `
quess i'll qo qombak tomorrow `
i do miss dear so `
and dear's qot a heavy flu `
♥DEAR `
please understand `
i love you `
perhaps i don't SMS you much `
but like you understand `
you live in my heart `
huqqinq th jacket `
i just realized `
dear `
you mean so much to me `
Labels: such furiousity un-understood `
♥ Thursday, December 18
happy birthday kor `
-lauqhs- `
it's kor's birthday `
but i didn't celeb wit him `
went over to qombak `
missed boyf terribly `
-lauqhs- `
went over to his house `
cabbed down to his friend's house `
lalalas `
had steamboat `
celebrations `
and saw esther marmiiex there `
lalalas `
marmiiex marmiiex `
thanks for everythinq `
for th comforts in th past `
such actions remains lost `
it seems so lonq `
lalalas `
short post eh `
a thousand words may mean nothinq `
a few words however `
may mean everythinq `
beauty is skin deep `
but uqly is to th bone `
th reason behind this `
for me to know `
and for you to find out `
actions with[s]out[/s] reason `
-lauqhs- `
it's kor's birthday `
but i didn't celeb wit him `
went over to qombak `
missed boyf terribly `
-lauqhs- `
went over to his house `
cabbed down to his friend's house `
lalalas `
had steamboat `
celebrations `
and saw esther marmiiex there `
lalalas `
marmiiex marmiiex `
thanks for everythinq `
for th comforts in th past `
such actions remains lost `
it seems so lonq `
lalalas `
short post eh `
a thousand words may mean nothinq `
a few words however `
may mean everythinq `
beauty is skin deep `
but uqly is to th bone `
th reason behind this `
for me to know `
and for you to find out `
actions with[s]out[/s] reason `
Labels: for you ; everythinq means nothinq
♥ Sunday, December 14
it has been awhile `
haven't qot th chance to qet online `
don't qet me wronq darlinqs `
it's th business `
not th laziness yeah ? `
promise to clear wishlist soon `
th year is over `
it's almost completed `
but i want more piercinqs `
th dream or 13 earholes befor 16 `
completed `
more desires `
i want a lip piercinq T_T `
maybe qet metal studs on body `
-roflmao- `
craziness ? `
no ; hurt `
-lauqhs- `
had fever after th toninq `
body crampinqs all over `
stayed at home -_- `
qot super bored `
tried bakinq cookies `
and success `
roflmao la ?! `
everyone can success riqht ? `
duh -_- `
ok morninq craziness at 3:01AM `
whatever `
no SMS yet ; still early `
went out today `
with a lil fever `
but with happiness `
supposed to slack out today `
qwen SMSed in anyway `
so we went out with her `
and ALEX aka ICY `
nice quy from overseas `
and he's half sq-rean anyway `
he keep sayinq i have baby in TRS `
T___________T `
from his bloq !!!!! `
" went to toysrus =.= lol inside thr we keep on playing devil
Gwen: devil hw could u b so **** by leaving ur baby here ...
Devil: whr gt ?
Gwen: gt ! c the teddy bear on the floor .. "
see see T______T `
fine i'll stop whininq `
so we met up at NF `
went over to vivo `
shenq daddiie wasn't workinq today `
quess he's still not feelinq well `
daddiie ah daddiie `
do take care yourself alriqht ? `
slacked a lil while waitinq `
actually hor darlinqs `
join -FTB- `
nice quild with nice peeps `
quite friendly `
no offence -VIP- peeps `
i know what you're thinkinq `
they are so steady =X `
played with water ~ `
oh yeah i love water -_- `
qwen bouqht her present `
went over to swenson `
-lauqhs- `
had freakinq comments `
henqburqer came over soon `
lalalas ~ `
actually `
you know henqburqer's a nice quy `
oh yeah henqhenq `
don't you dare quit CCA `
=] you rawks if you stay `
and thanks for taq `
for passinq th messaqe `
thanks -LOL- `
went over to Pet shop `
thouqht of buyinq junk `
but didn't anyway -_- `
went next door and saw......... `
alot of......................... `
nevermind qo see yourself `
althouqh only 1 person'll understand `
-lauqhs- `
too ridiculous `
nevermind `
-_- `
walked a lil `
was playinq in daiso -_- `
when weichanq say qo home `
l0ls =X henqhenq say yaya -_- `
chionq out and phoned qwen `
by then `
he already phoned his parents `
didn't have to rush home ^_^ `
wanted to qo back into daiso `
sounds ridiculous riqht ? `
didn't anyway `
they had to qet home `
and since most of us were Purple/L `
went home ~ `
qoinq out tomorrow `
or today , 3;23AM `
i'm typinq real slow `
qwen's not qoinq tomorrow `
saddeninq `
she's qot to control quild `
but di & daddiie & mei's cominq `
oh yay `
finally i'm so qettinq extensions `
someone's lauqhinq `
fuck you -_- `
nevermind ~ `
th black's showinq `
th dye is fadinq T_T `
lazy qet it done aqain -siqhs- `
i'll just extend th color back `
smart eh ?! `
or pure stupid `
i think it's pure stupid `
nevermind `
i'm so qrateful `
so many peeps qoinq with me `
-lauqhs like fuck- `
hahas =D happiness `
hiqhliqht or bleach aqain ? `
nevermind `
i'll cut it tomorrow lalalas ~ `
spike qettinq lonq =[ `
after th metalic shits `
ECP or buqis ~ `
Di doesn't seem keen on buqis `
qo sun tanninq then `
still need to qet presents `
and my nails redone `
reminds of what henqhenq said `
he's freaked out by my nails `
i poked him today `
and he said my nails were dirty `
funny eh ? `
actually i catch no ball `
until jiamin said `
no la is th nail qlitter la `
then i at there OH LOL `
diao riqht `
yeah duh `
he's not qoinq tomorrow `
saddeninq `
kbox on monday `
not sure if xun daddiie's qoinq `
hope so yeah ? `
siyuMEIx ah `
do cheerup `
all is not lost `
you know i really envy some peeps `
to be able to let qo fast `
i couldn't do it in th past `
haha -_- `
now sure sure `
due to some heartless fool `
forqhot a love in 3 days =] `
oh well `
thanks ♥DEAR ! `
for th concern and L♥VE ! `
muacks ♥DEAR ! `
i L♥VE th care you show =] `
♥DiDi Sorry `
sincerest apoloqies `
qettinq th majorest moodswinq `
i know you feel it `
you're not annoyinq me `
somehow i'm disturbed `
i told you via SMS `
perhaps its true ? `
i don't know `
sorry di `
i promise to try to control `
=[ it sucks beinq alone `
seriously `
been listeninq to this sonq for weeks `
didn't qet online to upload either `
Leona Lewis ; Yesterday `
super sweet sonq `
sad lyrics `
I just can't believe you're gone,
Still waiting for morning to come
When I see if the sun will rise
And the way that your by my side
When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it all reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart
[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or at least how the story goes
I never believed until now
I know I'll see you again I'm sure
No it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday
[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
[Chorus]
I thought our days would last for ever
But it wasn't our destiny
'Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday
[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
somehow i feel th lyrics are wronq f3 `
nevermind `
dear `
i'm missinq you 04;07AM `
haven't qot th chance to qet online `
don't qet me wronq darlinqs `
it's th business `
not th laziness yeah ? `
promise to clear wishlist soon `
th year is over `
it's almost completed `
but i want more piercinqs `
th dream or 13 earholes befor 16 `
completed `
more desires `
i want a lip piercinq T_T `
maybe qet metal studs on body `
-roflmao- `
craziness ? `
no ; hurt `
-lauqhs- `
had fever after th toninq `
body crampinqs all over `
stayed at home -_- `
qot super bored `
tried bakinq cookies `
and success `
roflmao la ?! `
everyone can success riqht ? `
duh -_- `
ok morninq craziness at 3:01AM `
whatever `
no SMS yet ; still early `
went out today `
with a lil fever `
but with happiness `
supposed to slack out today `
qwen SMSed in anyway `
so we went out with her `
and ALEX aka ICY `
nice quy from overseas `
and he's half sq-rean anyway `
he keep sayinq i have baby in TRS `
T___________T `
from his bloq !!!!! `
" went to toysrus =.= lol inside thr we keep on playing devil
Gwen: devil hw could u b so **** by leaving ur baby here ...
Devil: whr gt ?
Gwen: gt ! c the teddy bear on the floor .. "
see see T______T `
fine i'll stop whininq `
so we met up at NF `
went over to vivo `
shenq daddiie wasn't workinq today `
quess he's still not feelinq well `
daddiie ah daddiie `
do take care yourself alriqht ? `
slacked a lil while waitinq `
actually hor darlinqs `
join -FTB- `
nice quild with nice peeps `
quite friendly `
no offence -VIP- peeps `
i know what you're thinkinq `
they are so steady =X `
played with water ~ `
oh yeah i love water -_- `
qwen bouqht her present `
went over to swenson `
-lauqhs- `
had freakinq comments `
henqburqer came over soon `
lalalas ~ `
actually `
you know henqburqer's a nice quy `
oh yeah henqhenq `
don't you dare quit CCA `
=] you rawks if you stay `
and thanks for taq `
for passinq th messaqe `
thanks -LOL- `
went over to Pet shop `
thouqht of buyinq junk `
but didn't anyway -_- `
went next door and saw......... `
alot of......................... `
nevermind qo see yourself `
althouqh only 1 person'll understand `
-lauqhs- `
too ridiculous `
nevermind `
-_- `
walked a lil `
was playinq in daiso -_- `
when weichanq say qo home `
l0ls =X henqhenq say yaya -_- `
chionq out and phoned qwen `
by then `
he already phoned his parents `
didn't have to rush home ^_^ `
wanted to qo back into daiso `
sounds ridiculous riqht ? `
didn't anyway `
they had to qet home `
and since most of us were Purple/L `
went home ~ `
qoinq out tomorrow `
or today , 3;23AM `
i'm typinq real slow `
qwen's not qoinq tomorrow `
saddeninq `
she's qot to control quild `
but di & daddiie & mei's cominq `
oh yay `
finally i'm so qettinq extensions `
someone's lauqhinq `
fuck you -_- `
nevermind ~ `
th black's showinq `
th dye is fadinq T_T `
lazy qet it done aqain -siqhs- `
i'll just extend th color back `
smart eh ?! `
or pure stupid `
i think it's pure stupid `
nevermind `
i'm so qrateful `
so many peeps qoinq with me `
-lauqhs like fuck- `
hahas =D happiness `
hiqhliqht or bleach aqain ? `
nevermind `
i'll cut it tomorrow lalalas ~ `
spike qettinq lonq =[ `
after th metalic shits `
ECP or buqis ~ `
Di doesn't seem keen on buqis `
qo sun tanninq then `
still need to qet presents `
and my nails redone `
reminds of what henqhenq said `
he's freaked out by my nails `
i poked him today `
and he said my nails were dirty `
funny eh ? `
actually i catch no ball `
until jiamin said `
no la is th nail qlitter la `
then i at there OH LOL `
diao riqht `
yeah duh `
he's not qoinq tomorrow `
saddeninq `
kbox on monday `
not sure if xun daddiie's qoinq `
hope so yeah ? `
siyuMEIx ah `
do cheerup `
all is not lost `
you know i really envy some peeps `
to be able to let qo fast `
i couldn't do it in th past `
haha -_- `
now sure sure `
due to some heartless fool `
forqhot a love in 3 days =] `
oh well `
thanks ♥DEAR ! `
for th concern and L♥VE ! `
muacks ♥DEAR ! `
i L♥VE th care you show =] `
♥DiDi Sorry `
sincerest apoloqies `
qettinq th majorest moodswinq `
i know you feel it `
you're not annoyinq me `
somehow i'm disturbed `
i told you via SMS `
perhaps its true ? `
i don't know `
sorry di `
i promise to try to control `
=[ it sucks beinq alone `
seriously `
been listeninq to this sonq for weeks `
didn't qet online to upload either `
Leona Lewis ; Yesterday `
super sweet sonq `
sad lyrics `
I just can't believe you're gone,
Still waiting for morning to come
When I see if the sun will rise
And the way that your by my side
When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it all reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart
[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for every day
Heaven knows what the future holds
Or at least how the story goes
I never believed until now
I know I'll see you again I'm sure
No it's not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day
One more smile on your face
But they can't take yesterday
[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
[Chorus]
I thought our days would last for ever
But it wasn't our destiny
'Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday
[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams, take everything,
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
somehow i feel th lyrics are wronq f3 `
nevermind `
dear `
i'm missinq you 04;07AM `
Labels: lala x `
♥ Friday, December 5
haiis `
don't ask why i'm mia-inq `
just not in th mood anymore `
won't be seeinq me online much `
don't feel like it anyway `
dearest qod up there `
take me away sooner would ya ? `
i can't stand it anymore `
it's just hurtinq so damn bad `
anyway forqhet it `
i know he's super anqry `
don't bother spamminq aqain `
won't be online anyway `
i read his bloq already `
-siqhs- `
thinqs had to turn out this way `
no one understands me `
seriously `
no one just no one `
everyone assumes it their way `
don't judqe my life would ya ? `
it's stupid and pathetic `
you don't understand me `
no ; not one bit `
what lies within `
is different from what you see `
you don't expect me to rely on you ? `
from past experience `
i understand nothinq lasts forever `
and that i'll not hold on `
for i believe in fate aqain `
-siqhs- `
it's hard for me to trust `
from betrayal `
i've never trusted much `
don't treat it as if i trust them much `
yeah i love my GANs `
who else is there `
when you're qone `
when you're busy `
i'm not that anti bitch you see `
i know you'll be anqry after readinq `
but what else can i do `
such horrendous thouqhts forminq `
to why i cried `
how would you feel `
if i would to diq up your past `
all th horrid imaqes `
it's true when i say `
you don't understand me `
don't expect me to open up `
not even my GANs know anyway `
so no point blaminq them `
like relations don last forever `
GANs don't either `
you must be wonderinq `
why i turned out like that `
you have NO idea how i'm feelinq `
have you ever been betrayed ? `
taunted ; your tales twisted ? `
perhaps ; yet perhaps not `
such cruelity happens `
you just don't know `
no ; i don't need your sympathy `
don't say you don't mind `
i know you do `
you most probably think i'm selfish `
yeah , all humans are `
such deprivation `
but i lived throuqh it `
no use readinq throuqh my inbox `
outbox and so whatever `
i told you `
trust is somethinq `
quite impossible for me `
don't bother `
come think about it `
i believe jiamin qot th closest `
but not there yet `
such torments `
qod -_- `
i hate today `
i wish i could drop dead `
i know you hate me `
no one's blaminq you `
life is about choices aint it not ? `
it's a choice to make `
to me `
nothinq really matters riqht now `
perhaps its qone `
or not ; only time will tell `
i rather be left alone for times now `
i'm adaptinq to life now `
a painful and tearful fantasy `
whatever `
-siqhs- `
it doesn't matter `
that's just another phrase of comfort `
-siqhs- `
you know `
it really took me months to forqhet `
and who's here to ruin it `
i know you don't want me to have a BF `
but seriously `
you're nothinq but a filthy liar `
no use lyinq `
no use tryinq `
you forqhot , `
i'm immune to pain `
anyway `
i can chanqe anytime i want `
facts will be facts `
don use lies on me `
reality is cruel `
but you must understand `
you're nothinq to me `
just donkey shit of a holy cow `
that's what you are `
anyway `
it doesnt matter to me `
if you're unhappy `
just come my house `
you know where i live `
i don't mind `
i'm super free anyway `
rather then hidinq behind th phone `
balless jerkface `
eew -_- `
i thank qod for everythinq `
but it's cruel `
i'm lyinq throuqh my teeth all th time `
i quess you don't know either `
don't bother cominq down `
no one's beqqinq you to anyway `
i wonder why i'm doinq all these `
it's delirious and redundant `
i feel like tellinq myself `
i don't need you `
but that's a lie ain't it ? `
-siqhs- `
don't say thinqs you don't mean `
you don't know how hurtful they are `
and stop rubbinq salt into my wound `
i wish i didn't accept your help `
i wish i was that heartless bitch `
why am i so damn stupid `
fuck `
jesus i hate myself `
my qod T_T `
i hate talkinq now `
you know how fucked up i feel ? `
quess not `
esp when you ask me WHY `
i HATE that fuckinq word `
stop forcinq me `
th more you force me `
th more its fadinq away `
i don't take harshness `
however you treat me `
i'll treat you th same `
iqnore my tears `
they're just lyinq `
th hurt cease existance already `
whatever you're unhappy about `
just shoot `
i don't care `
and don't blame me for shoutinq `
i hardly do it `
don't force me `
you made me twice `
don't do it aqain `
and no `
i'm not blaminq you `
what riqhts do i have ? `
none `
so why should i bother `
wastinq my breath and stuffs `
don't qet me wronq `
i'm not hintinq anythinq `
for my darlinqs `
thanks for th comforts `
even if you quys don't know why `
thanks for beinq there `
thanks jiamin ~ `
for always beinq there `
thanks shuaixionq erzi ~ `
for th comforts and "freehuq" `
thanks jerrold kor ~ `
for peiinq me and always there `
thanks daniel di ~ `
for th chats and understandinqs `
thanks shenq daddiie ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks sebas ahqonq ~ `
for th shoulder and comforts `
thanks siyu mei ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks esther marmiie ~ `
for beinq there `
thanks quys ~ `
for everythinq `
and jiamin ! `
you're true blue `
thanks babe `
well `
qoodbye now `
i can't stand it `
til' then , `
don't ask why i'm mia-inq `
just not in th mood anymore `
won't be seeinq me online much `
don't feel like it anyway `
dearest qod up there `
take me away sooner would ya ? `
i can't stand it anymore `
it's just hurtinq so damn bad `
anyway forqhet it `
i know he's super anqry `
don't bother spamminq aqain `
won't be online anyway `
i read his bloq already `
-siqhs- `
thinqs had to turn out this way `
no one understands me `
seriously `
no one just no one `
everyone assumes it their way `
don't judqe my life would ya ? `
it's stupid and pathetic `
you don't understand me `
no ; not one bit `
what lies within `
is different from what you see `
you don't expect me to rely on you ? `
from past experience `
i understand nothinq lasts forever `
and that i'll not hold on `
for i believe in fate aqain `
-siqhs- `
it's hard for me to trust `
from betrayal `
i've never trusted much `
don't treat it as if i trust them much `
yeah i love my GANs `
who else is there `
when you're qone `
when you're busy `
i'm not that anti bitch you see `
i know you'll be anqry after readinq `
but what else can i do `
such horrendous thouqhts forminq `
to why i cried `
how would you feel `
if i would to diq up your past `
all th horrid imaqes `
it's true when i say `
you don't understand me `
don't expect me to open up `
not even my GANs know anyway `
so no point blaminq them `
like relations don last forever `
GANs don't either `
you must be wonderinq `
why i turned out like that `
you have NO idea how i'm feelinq `
have you ever been betrayed ? `
taunted ; your tales twisted ? `
perhaps ; yet perhaps not `
such cruelity happens `
you just don't know `
no ; i don't need your sympathy `
don't say you don't mind `
i know you do `
you most probably think i'm selfish `
yeah , all humans are `
such deprivation `
but i lived throuqh it `
no use readinq throuqh my inbox `
outbox and so whatever `
i told you `
trust is somethinq `
quite impossible for me `
don't bother `
come think about it `
i believe jiamin qot th closest `
but not there yet `
such torments `
qod -_- `
i hate today `
i wish i could drop dead `
i know you hate me `
no one's blaminq you `
life is about choices aint it not ? `
it's a choice to make `
to me `
nothinq really matters riqht now `
perhaps its qone `
or not ; only time will tell `
i rather be left alone for times now `
i'm adaptinq to life now `
a painful and tearful fantasy `
whatever `
-siqhs- `
it doesn't matter `
that's just another phrase of comfort `
-siqhs- `
you know `
it really took me months to forqhet `
and who's here to ruin it `
i know you don't want me to have a BF `
but seriously `
you're nothinq but a filthy liar `
no use lyinq `
no use tryinq `
you forqhot , `
i'm immune to pain `
anyway `
i can chanqe anytime i want `
facts will be facts `
don use lies on me `
reality is cruel `
but you must understand `
you're nothinq to me `
just donkey shit of a holy cow `
that's what you are `
anyway `
it doesnt matter to me `
if you're unhappy `
just come my house `
you know where i live `
i don't mind `
i'm super free anyway `
rather then hidinq behind th phone `
balless jerkface `
eew -_- `
i thank qod for everythinq `
but it's cruel `
i'm lyinq throuqh my teeth all th time `
i quess you don't know either `
don't bother cominq down `
no one's beqqinq you to anyway `
i wonder why i'm doinq all these `
it's delirious and redundant `
i feel like tellinq myself `
i don't need you `
but that's a lie ain't it ? `
-siqhs- `
don't say thinqs you don't mean `
you don't know how hurtful they are `
and stop rubbinq salt into my wound `
i wish i didn't accept your help `
i wish i was that heartless bitch `
why am i so damn stupid `
fuck `
jesus i hate myself `
my qod T_T `
i hate talkinq now `
you know how fucked up i feel ? `
quess not `
esp when you ask me WHY `
i HATE that fuckinq word `
stop forcinq me `
th more you force me `
th more its fadinq away `
i don't take harshness `
however you treat me `
i'll treat you th same `
iqnore my tears `
they're just lyinq `
th hurt cease existance already `
whatever you're unhappy about `
just shoot `
i don't care `
and don't blame me for shoutinq `
i hardly do it `
don't force me `
you made me twice `
don't do it aqain `
and no `
i'm not blaminq you `
what riqhts do i have ? `
none `
so why should i bother `
wastinq my breath and stuffs `
don't qet me wronq `
i'm not hintinq anythinq `
for my darlinqs `
thanks for th comforts `
even if you quys don't know why `
thanks for beinq there `
thanks jiamin ~ `
for always beinq there `
thanks shuaixionq erzi ~ `
for th comforts and "freehuq" `
thanks jerrold kor ~ `
for peiinq me and always there `
thanks daniel di ~ `
for th chats and understandinqs `
thanks shenq daddiie ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks sebas ahqonq ~ `
for th shoulder and comforts `
thanks siyu mei ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks esther marmiie ~ `
for beinq there `
thanks quys ~ `
for everythinq `
and jiamin ! `
you're true blue `
thanks babe `
well `
qoodbye now `
i can't stand it `
til' then , `
Labels: don't assume it your way `
