♥ Sunday, May 23
Jason spammed me with his annoyinq phonecalls `
sickeninq ;[ `
very very tired from last niqht ;[ `
but i understand it's th time limit `
so when Jason decided to press th doorbell `
i woke up & rushed to shower `
mum let him in >;[ `
qrabbed stuffs & hitched a ride from bro to tampines `
cool we did th most ridiculous stuffs aqain `
we played wrestlinq >;D `
what th fuck -_- `
& watched a movie `
Trianqle , kinda stupid `
it's so stupid he fell asleep halfway `
that's how ridiculous th movie is `
burned myself with th ciq butt some more `
;[ -siqhs- qonna have a blister tomorrow `
went out for a lil while `
before he went in for a week ;[ `
-siqhs- `
no mood to walk `
hate sundays `
sundays are stupid & packed & fucked up `
qrabbed Mac & slacked below his block `
went up to wait for him to finish packinq `
actually he looks kinda cute in his full uni ;] `
lauqhsoutloud `
sent him all th way to camp `
;[ -siqhs- `
he went in & i cabbed home ;[ `
taxi record of th month $32.30 `
qeez , crappy uncle some more `
keep kaopehkaobu -_- `
pluqqed my earpiece in & slept `
reached home around 10 `
on th phone & fell asleep soon after `
qonna be a lonq week ;[ `
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it takes months , years for me to trust someone `
yet it takes just a simple action that requires minutes `
just for me to lose that trust i have for you `
-lauqhs- `
i don't know `
i'm dumb ;] `
Labels: i'm dumb ;] `
♥ Saturday, May 22
since Jason's been stuck inside for 3 weeks `
nice ole me bothered to accompany him for th weekends `
& since he wants to eat with my mum `
we went for lunch today -_- `
-evillauqhter- `
bro drove us to Chanqi `
lunched there `
they went for smokebreak after lunch `
mum cauqht them `
hilarious >;D `
okay `
so we went back to tampines `
brouqht my homework ;] `
finished some at Mac `
& back to Jason's `
his mum ask me qo his house eat >;[ `
walau eh `
okay fine `
did th rest of my work there while waitinq for him `
asshole . `
finished most already `
Dickson asked me if i wanted to qo drinkinq suddenly `
chanqed plans , went to qolden mile `
asked Matthew to join us since same location `
went home to chanqe ;/ wronq dresscode `
& cabbed back to east side `]
drank a lil `
lazy to elaborate -_- `
chanqed locations a few times & finish `
slacked below some blocks w my new pack of chill `
smoked one stick , left it there -_- `
only realized it when i reached home `
fucked up `
Jason sent me home today `
;] love that feelinq `
hahahhahaha >;D `
qotta meet him tomorrow morninq `
but i'd definately oversleep `
so yeah `
maybe i should hanq th housephone `
than he cant call >;D `
Labels: lalalas qolden mile ;] `
♥ Friday, May 21
Jason booked out today `
so i went to fetch him ;] `
qrabbed his fave drink on th way `
see , i'm so thouqhtful -_- `
-lauqhsoutloud- `
back to tampines `
& i forqot th details `
only remembered th part where i fell asleep `
hahahas `
qot him pissed off ;[ `
so we went home around 4 ;/ `
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th stupid botak found my bloq ;[ `
fuck ;[ `
Labels: yayness Jason booked out hahah ;D `
♥ Monday, May 10
FormEx-ed & left school `
Kelvin picked me up today `
shockinqly `
so we left for t1 for lunch `
i wanted my thai express `
& i qot it ;] `
that's th qood thinq about Kelvin `
i qet everythinq i want `
walked around all th malls `
realized i'm qettinq spendthrift `
sent Kelvin to busstop before qoinq home `
he's qotta work `
& i qotta do my stuffs
8 months , what th fuck `
& i'm qettinq paranoid `
Labels: yay thai express ♥ `
♥ Sunday, May 9
Happy Mother's Day Mum dearest `
so we went out today toqether `
it's been a lonq time since we ate toqether `
so Bro & I decided to brinq mum out for lunch `
Bro drove us out today ;] `
we went over to chanqi for zuchao `
half-halfed everythinq `
finished off & left for CCK `
Bro drove me to lot one `
sweet of him riqht `
walked around alone cause he didn't want to come down `
minutes later `
he came down `
hmph -_- `
qot my stuffs & left for his house `
his mum was bakinq appletarts `
so we just sat there & watched `
qot bored & went to sleep in his room `
Jason called & i qot really stressed up `
hmphs `
went home soonafter `
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Happy 8th monthsary Kelvin `i quess i suck at this
i know you've been my anqerventer `
& all those shit i said to you `
well , if thinqs don't work out `
i quess it's qoodbye `
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qive me time please `
i'm really fucked up `
Labels: happy 8th monthsary dear `
♥ Saturday, May 8
not feelinq well today `
decided to have a break @ 5Am last niqht `
a lil rest on th recliner resulted in deep sleep `
& i didn't finish my project `
so screwed `
had a harder-than-usual time openinq shop `
did my pathetic sales & off to qrandma's `
poor boss had to do alone cause no one's free `
went up for dinner with cousins & qrandma `
my cousin looks younqer than me ;[ `
she's like 20 & she looks so much younqer `
finished dinner & bro fetched me back to work `
yeps , bro drove me ;DDDD `
happy siol `
hahahahas love my bro ♥ `
so i went back as promised `
cause i'm kind enouqh to anyway `
had a hard time closinq th shop ;[ `
just wasnt in th mood `
phone batt died on me `
bro drove me home aqain ;] `
so excited despite my sarcastic remarks `
okay `
haven't done my formEx yet `
still in enjoy-mood `
qonna chop off my extensions soon `
& redye my hair `
currently considerinq eyebrow embroidery `
i do miss my spike ;[ `
& someone suqqested i shave th left side `
considerinq that too ;/ `
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6 missed calls `
& i felt like slappinq myself silly `
don't know what's wronq with me ;/ `
13 more days `
promise , i'd wait for you `
♥ i've almost made up my mind already `
just a lil more time `
decided to have a break @ 5Am last niqht `
a lil rest on th recliner resulted in deep sleep `
& i didn't finish my project `
so screwed `
had a harder-than-usual time openinq shop `
did my pathetic sales & off to qrandma's `
poor boss had to do alone cause no one's free `
went up for dinner with cousins & qrandma `
my cousin looks younqer than me ;[ `
she's like 20 & she looks so much younqer `
finished dinner & bro fetched me back to work `
yeps , bro drove me ;DDDD `
happy siol `
hahahahas love my bro ♥ `
so i went back as promised `
cause i'm kind enouqh to anyway `
had a hard time closinq th shop ;[ `
just wasnt in th mood `
phone batt died on me `
bro drove me home aqain ;] `
so excited despite my sarcastic remarks `
okay `
haven't done my formEx yet `
still in enjoy-mood `
qonna chop off my extensions soon `
& redye my hair `
currently considerinq eyebrow embroidery `
i do miss my spike ;[ `
& someone suqqested i shave th left side `
considerinq that too ;/ `
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6 missed calls `
& i felt like slappinq myself silly `
don't know what's wronq with me ;/ `
13 more days `
promise , i'd wait for you `
♥ i've almost made up my mind already `
just a lil more time `
Labels: ♥ your voice alone makes me happy `
♥ Thursday, May 6
it's 3:35 AM `
finally done with my ppt presentation for APEL `
-siqhs- `
today we had our lessons `
experimented on everythinq `
than Ernest `
where we did article cuttinqs `
qender , taboo , status & appearance `
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Kelvin picked me up from school `
for th very first time `
went down to buqis `
bouqht 2 jackets `
6 pairs of earrinqs `
2 pairs of heels `
2 armbands `
2 wallets `
& qod knows what else `
now my pocket's burnt ;[ `
he bothered to pay for me `
but i don't want `
he works so hard `
so i spent my own money ; stupidly `
dinner at benten's `
finished & left for home `
kelvin seemed really upset `
i quess i'm beinq mean to him aqain `
but went home anyway `
school work more important `
{quoted by Jason} `
supposed to do this PPT for APEL `
don't know if anyone's doinq anyway `
but for safety measures `
just do it `
spent hours on facebook `
until Jason called `
i always run to my room & close th door `
every sinqle time he calls `
than i'd qet super happy `
he told me stuffs that made me tear aqain `
really don't know what to do `
there's so much in life today `
i know you sacrificed alot `
i know you're tryinq very hard `
but qive me time `
don't ask me to hanq in there `
you know i can't make it `
but i hope you too , hanq in there `
as promised `
i'd wait for you `
even if it takes 2 years
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-siqhs- `
tomorrow `
presentation `
& you're th only one on my mind `
thinkinq of you makes me smile at times `
yet it makes me tear at times too ;/ `
♥ miss you `
Labels: ♥ i miss you but what's to be done `
♥ Wednesday, May 5
Suhan's `
we had consultation & we did our mockups `
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Ernest's `
we watched th japanese video `
they fantasize about caucasians `
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worked today ;/
Labels: for journal `
♥ Monday, May 3
its monday `
Jason went in ;[ `
hmmms `
lessons & lessons `
went home to sleep `
so not in th mood ;[ `
at least th phone call came in `
talked for an hour or so `
& we used to talk all th way until 3-5AM `
now it's so restricted `
-siqhs- `
;[ `
Labels: monday blues `
♥ Sunday, May 2
sunday `
i'm still rushinq my model `
qotta finish by tomorrow `
really not in th mood to do it `
didn't put my heart into it `
ended up with pathetic workmanship `
forqet th 10% `
Jason came over to pick me up `
but i didnt have plans either `
screwed th day up `
wore some tee & shorts `
went over to tampines `
walked around a lil bit `
had swensons `
went over to his area to slack `
just didn't have th mood to shop `
or even eat `
th playqrounds were filled `
slacked around for awhile `
talked about all th randoms stuffs in th world `
talked about our problems `
& our lives `
sat at th busstop until 3 `
th area lacked cabs `
reached my block by 4 `
slacked riqht until 5 plus `
said qoodbye & he sent me home `
continued doinq my formex project `
didn't have th mood to sleep either `
he's qoinq in like in a few hours `
really cant accept th fact `
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its th last day that you're qonna be there for me today `
i really don't know to accept everythinq `
it just happened too fast `
from th day you stepped into my life `
as a chillinq/toninq buddy `
didn't really like you at first `
just found you entertaininq `
& annoyinq `
2 weeks later `
i saw you in a different liqht `
since then `
i've enjoyed your friendship & love `
your care & concern `
honesty & straiqhtforward attitute `
you were my main companion for th month `
than i knew you were enterinq NS in a month `
qot kinda upset `
but you'd have to qo in anyway `
sorry i can't make up my mind `
it's obvious which is th better one `
sorry for not tellinq you everythinq `
now no one's qonna hear me out `
no one's qonna force me to eat for 3 weeks `
fetch me to & fro school `
brinq me out after school `
play wrestlinq with me anymore `
no one's qonna make choices for me anymore `
ha , i started cryinq `
Jason , really miss you `
truckloads `
i found this on facebook `
makes sense somehow ;[ `
makes me treasure you more `
1) The way you stand by my side
2) The times you make sure nothing will harm me
3) How you always find a new way to wow me
4) When I'm sad, you take the pain away with a joke
5) How you always look deep into my eyes
6) How you can make my heart melt with your soft lips
7) The way you hold my hand so tight
8) The way you never let my hands go
9) How you always watch out for me
10) They way you make sure I have everything I need
11) How you always know what to say when I get mad at you
12) When you buy me things out of the blue
13) How you say the cutest things over and over and never gets old
14) The way you play with my hair when I'm falling asleep
15) The way you stare at me as if I am the most handsome person in the world
16) The times when you were determined for me not to be mad at you anymore
17) The way you look when I get all dressed up
18) The smile you give after I'm done kissing you
19) The way you act like a weirdo but make me laugh
20) The way your not embarrassed to say or do anything in front of me
21) How you can just defend me and not be scared
22) The way you walk when you get sad
23) The look you make when you get jealous
24) When I’m feeling the worst, you make me feel the happiest
25) The way you sing to be all cheesy
sounds familiar don't you think `
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& everytime i liqht a new stick `
i think of you `
& my only companion 'J' `
Labels: i'm missinq you already `
♥ Saturday, May 1
probably one of last days i'd be seeinq Jason `
said he'd cook for me today `
went down with bro `
but he was qoinq houqanq `
went over to tampines `
watched how he cooked for me `
like totally amused me `
callinq himself handsome chef & all `
looked kinda "nice" `
tasted fabulous `
chilled until 3PM `
& Jason decides he wants to cut mohawk `
just before he qoes in NS `
i supported his idea `
cause he'd not have th chance for 2 years `
went down to find his hairdresser friend `
help him cut his mohawk `
actually it looks nice on him ;] `
his previous hairstyle makes him look cute `
mohawk makes him look handsome `
botak ; hahah , will see in 3 weeks ;[ `
metup with his friend in tm `
dinner-ed & home `
Jason bothered to do my project with me `
even if it meant him hoqqinq th comp `
& him just sittinq opp me `
i appreciate it `
i didn't expect to do until so late `
Jason stayed with me riqht until 4AM `
felt damn tired `
fell asleep aqain `
Jason tucked me into bed & left `
sweet of him riqht ;] `
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qonna miss you when you qo in ;[ `
no one's qonna accompany me with projects `
well, not until so late `
& no one's qonna tuck me into bed anymore ;[ `
it kinds of amuses me `
that you , of all people `
is always th first to run to me when i say cb ;[ `
& you qo " what happen what happen " `
-lauqhs- `
no one's willinq to stay out so late `
i know your parents aren't happy about it `
sorry ;[ my wronq `
don't worry `
will definately wait for you `
Labels: ♥ will definately miss you `
