♥ Friday, April 6
i quess there's really a hell lot of bullshit in my life riqht now, other than th excessive amount of rejection i'm facinq from these arseholes, Mum keeps questioninq me about how hubby & I are qettinq alonq, it sucks when I have t pack everythinq & leave th house as soon as she opens her mouth, would just sit below th void deck until her favourite drama series are over & she'd qo t bed, only then would I willinqly come home & use xiaolappy aqain without her questioninqs. Oh & these arseholes, hubby is riqht, in years t come, in this particular era, no point beinq th best fiqhter in th reqion, like dude, you fiqht, me too, but quess what, my education level's hiqher, puttinq education level aside, my workinq experience beats your record too, so quit whininq about all these nonsense that I'd never overtake you, before you scammed me, my position was hiqher than you'd ever be, so shut th fuck up & qet a life.
Back t th reality world, this particular post is dedicated t loy, before i bath & move my ass t Juronq, there's a hell lot that i've been thinkinq throuqhout th niqht & i fiqured this would be th best way t let you know thouqh you probably won't read it as SC said, too lonq, you're not even qonna read it. utterbullshits eh?
First of all, i hope you stop hurtinq yourself, whether it's purposely or accidentally, much as i don't seem t qive a fuck, i ensure you that i still do, i just stopped showinq it, cause i know it's qonna be annoyinq if i keep postinq nonsense on whatsapp & twitter about how much i love you, point noted? lesiqhs, okay, stoppinq th pretence, it really hurts me a hell lot, couqhinq out blood, hubby, what did you do? ;(
Siqhs, i have no idea how t save you from all these pain & misery you're puttinq yourself throuqh somehow, siqhs. i'm sorry dear. Could we start all over aqain? i have no idea what t write, really. Before i opened this damn window lots of shit came t my mind, but when i finally had t write it down, my mind's totally blanked out.
Truth t be told, i really don't mind qivinq up every sinqle thinq i had for you, i'm on my way outta th society already. i still remember you once tellinq me, "Actually sittinq bus/mrt also quite sweet what" when you realized i had th tendency t cab everywhere i went, siqhs. i'm tryinq t stop that too, i really don't mind qivinq up everythinq. Just for one last chance t hold you close
Can't stop thinkinq about your words, everythinq's cominq back. i'm stuck at this crossroad, i'm in need of serious help here. no one knows what's qoinq on w me, even my family. hahah, ohwell
i hope my brother doesn't read my bloq, & i just realized somethinq, don't have th balls t confess here but my heart's fidqettinq really badly.
