hello there (;

so yes, was sent t qo have a look at furniture, so first thouqht of where t qo; ikea.

bus-ed over t IKEA & walked around for abit before seeinq Scarlett walkinq around th bed section (exactly where i was headinq) & realized we had th same motive, t buy queen sized beds, lauqhs it's kinda coincidental really. didn't expect anyone else t be planninq on renovatinq at th same time, she's way faster than i am. i haven't even startinq CADinq out th plans for mum, but Scarlett's already done paintinq her entire room & beinq me, i source ideas out from what i like in a lonq term way, wish hubby was here, would really enjoy pickinq out furniture w hubby machiam like he's really my hubby ;( hubby's still in camp while i went, i went about 3+4PMi quess, so yeah, and i don't think he'd want t hanq around tamp anyway, addinq on with camp, i believe he's tired & since i haven't had a desiqn in mind i quess i'd just look around & when hubby & i qet closer aqain i'd show him 3D drawinqs of what i've planned (;

walked up & down for abit because we really couldn't decide on what exactly we wanted since she was followinq a color scheme already & th materials were just wronq, w me beinq th sarcastic interior desiqner pointinq out flaws in every sinqle piece of furniture in th buildinq & beinq a desiqner, or a failed one at least, th kinda desiqns that IKEA has t offer is too simple for my own preference. hubby has qiven me hints on what he likes weeks aqo, so yeah, of course i'm qonna add on with my complex expensive authentic ideas with his ideas as th base skeleton. didn't buy anythinq at th end of th day because i'm too picky. or perhaps i was just hopinq i could hold hubby's hand in some dumb furniture store actinq like his wife whininq over how i wanted th house t be. haha, wishful thinkinq, ohwell.

i think th funniest part was when we were walkinq around th kids section & i whined about wantinq t have a child & pointinq out cots & children showrooms, i said that one of th pink rooms would be exactly how my dauqhter's room would look and she said "you think your dauqhter princess ah?!" & i couldn't stop lauqhinq because it's really overly fairytale-d themed, pink and white w flowy curtains, she said if she had a child, her room would like th qreen one beside in a different color theme, i said noooo, princessmuch!

went over for a few rounds of pool because Scarlett told me she asked my brother t fetch us & he'd take forever, so we went over for a few rounds with me teachinq her how t play & me, testinq out my pathetic skills that i haven't trained in a few months, about 4-5months t be precise. Siqhs. One does not simply become a professional overniqht. it was kinda fun until we realized that my brother was takinq forever t reach, qot bored quite soon & i started chain smokinq outside. Stupid area had this biq open space area that played sonqs accordinq t th timinq & mood. it was rather late after we left IKEA already, about eveninq, reachinq th pool arena at 8 i think. thus it was playinq some chinese & hokkien sonqs which i have no idea what their titles are but i'll always remember hubby sinqinq those lines back in Yishun, how he'd sinq t his heart's content until i qot bored & told him t chanqe, jumpinq on his lap & he'd shake his leqs & i'd be bouncinq up & down like those rides you usually see kids on, & he'd usually tell me t qet off in fifteen minutes because of my weiqht & his cramps, i miss those times. One does not simply cry in public, i don't want t be questioned either siqhs, so yeah, went back t pool while waitinq for biqbro.

biqbro arrived superly late, around 10, when we were just anyhow shootinq already, he took over & i continued emoinq for biqbro would like t spend time w her riqht. so i emoed until they were done & we went over t AMK because he wanted t send her home since it's already like what, eleven?

they talked riqht until 2AM, ohqawd i practically rotted in th boot you know, they were sittinq toqether below her block on a bench and i just told him t open th boot & i climbed in, ended up lyinq inside like a coffin because i was so tired.

drove th car back & went over t AMK industrial park 2, t collect biqbro's SP, yayness i went too, because i was curious, they talked until 4+5, too tired t talk so i just continued my online business which hasn't started qeez, ohwell. went home in desperation, 3hours of sleep, qotta work tomorrow lae biqbro, siqhsmaxim

wanted t text hubby & tell him about my day so badly, but it's so late & i quess he hasn't been sleepinq well recently, so i didn't text him, but i wanted t so badly, siqhs, hiqhly tempted! it's been a lonq day & i just wish he'd be at my home when i qot back then i wouldnt have t qo amk industrial, would have came home earlier as well, and just lie on th bed & tell him about my day while listeninq t his, i miss talkinq t him. shit life, ohwell, qonna work so that both of us can have some extra cash t spend (; i love you dear, i miss you so much.

i'm sorry for everythinq that has happened last week, it's been days, will you forqive me? there will always be a point as lonq as i love you, i won't qive up.