woke up pretty early cause people were spamminq me with nonsense, ohwell. went over t th kitchen so that i wouldnt disturb hubby in his eternal slumber, thinkinq that i'd qet everythinq done with & just qo back & huq him while he sleeps. Went over t th kitchen for a smoke while attemptinq t finish up everythinq. mummy was there & i couldnt qet throuqh, & i told her th issues i was facinq & why i didn't tell hubby about it, & she told me that i had t tell hubby if not he'd misunderstand & that he;d like t know what i'm doinq, thouqh its not my problem, so yeah. Mummy also talked t me about alot of thinqs that i do that makes th relationship sour, more or less i keep issues t myself tryinq t settle everyone's problems, so yeah.

hubby woke up soon & mummy had her customer's cominq over so i told hubby everythinq that i had been doinq, explaininq what i'm doinq and reasons. i felt a truckload better after tellinq him too! he's really nice t me, listeninq & commentinq at times, i love their advice, makes me feel really stupid sometimes! but yeah, went back t huq hubbyhubby, kisskiss sleepsleep, until his didi came in & we woke up, Mummy told us t qo out for dinner & we did! we went for steamboat, but their daddy didn't let me pay, i feel so bad, she's always talkinq t me, advicinq me on stuffs & all despite beinq really stupid like why i should help them or not, and i must tell hubby everythinq.

finished & stayed th niqht aqain because it was raininq & i somehow died on th bed anyway. was really tired, huqqed hubby t bed & left in th morninq.

i'm really qrateful t hubby's mummy, she's really sweet lettinq me stay over thouqh i know i shouldnt be, & always talkinq t us until morninq sometimes! i love talkinq t people & listeninq t their stories, it makes me feel a hell lot younqer than i really am, i love takinq advice and followinq instructions! especially on how i can show my love t hubby more, le siqhs! even if i don't meet hubby much anymore, i just want him t know that i'm still here for him, i'm still supportinq him from behind thouqh i know that we've some issues recently, me beinq really tired from everythinq & unable t takecare of him as well as i did in th past, addinq on with my stupid business that really takes th shit outta me, i just hope that i can see hubby at least once a week ;( i miss him so much, life's been really shitty t me,debts increasinq, favors increasinq, but i'd drop everythinq for hubby. i don't know how t express myself anymore, th distance is qettinq further, i just hope that we'd be able t qet back t how we used t be, i'm still tryinq t chanqe for th better so that hubby wouldn't have t be so pissed off over everythinq i do, i need t be a better qirlfriend, i'm not understandinq enouqh, but i'm willinq t chanqe, it sucks sometimes when i really need someone t be there but i have t understand that hubby's really busy with everythinq else & it's not convenient t meet me so often! i just hope.....