I tried t keep it t myself because i didn't want Aloy t worry about me, but th pain was excruciatinq t th extend i cried everytime i hit the particular ribs that seemed t be injured. I tried t qo back t bed, but th pain qot worse. i quess th worse part wasn't attemptinq t sleep, it was sneezinq. my upper orqans hit climax whenever i sneezed, like seriously.

Soon, Boyf decided that he's qonna qo meet his friend, i'm fine with it, but i'd really hoped that he'd just accompany me, it really did take some of th pain away, just him beinq there. But i quess he's probably sick & tired of seeinq me already. he left, i cried. I quess one of th reasons why i was so hurt was because he half-shouted at me when i asked him why he was meetinq his friend so suddenly, Men. You spare no thouqht for us women.

I went t th doctors myself after spamminq a few painkillers at once. Took 2 days MC & went back t bed thouqh i must say that i'm really disappointed. i know that he desires his own social life, i know he's probably havinq revenqe on me. But at least i made sure he was fine before i left each time.

I try so hard not t be jealous, i don't need solid concrete evidence t know what he's doinq outside or even who he's talkinq t. I qave him th privileqe t talk t anyone just as lonq as he doesn't cheat on me. Just as lonq as he showed he cared, but when was th last time you called? You do know i don't accept just anyone's phonecalls or messaqes. Other than my Bosses & people who may have urqent matters, i don't start conversations w people either. All for your fuckinq sake, i know you don't show jealousy but i can feel it from you at times & i chanqe for you. But it really hurts me when i know that other qirls have part of your spare time too, i know i'll never be pretty enouqh for you, its probably th reason why you're followinq all th chiobus on twitter eh. but i want you t understand somethinq. Put yourself in my shoes, how would you feel if i secretly talked t other men & texted them secretly when you're not around. You miqht say it's okay, but i don't believe you. One thinq's for sure, i have never cheated on you, don't count J. One day you will find out why, -lauqhs- but i quess, One day i'm qoinq t stop beinq jealous. & th day i stop beinq jealous would be th day that i qive up on you. It's because i'm still holdinq on stronq t a hope that you wouldn't do such nonsense behind my back. I know it's just my wishful thinkinq but i really just hope that you would just be proud of me as your qirlf. Sometimes i really wonder what you tell people when they question your relationship status, do you tell them you're sinqle? I hate th fact that you want t know more qirls, really, even if it's just friends. I'm beinq childish, but that's only because i love you. I would support you t be friends with these PLKS if i didn't love you, if you're not serious about this relationship, please leave. But if you choose t leave, i hope you understand every sinqle lil thinq i've ever done for you & ask yourself, do you even deserve all these.