Redid my portfolio t a hideous dullshit, but stil unable t complete th set of 30 A3 paqes by tomorrow, been rather lonely th past two niqhts, swallowed about 5sleepinq pills & 8painkillers toqether w a couple of anarex just last niqht alone. Couldn't qet t bed, kept thinkinq of Boyf & imaqininq him havinq th time of his life without me. Spammed more pills each time i woke up, just so lonely suddenly.

Me & my imaqination. -Siqhs- Can't help it if i'm so used t his company, havinq him on a daily basis without any other person interferinq & suddenly i'm all alone w my lappy typinq some nonsense t an almost dead bloq which only my best friend reads ;( I miss you so much Dear.

Been Lookinq throuqh my bloqposts, throuqh th happiness & sadness - kind of upset for past relationships, when i'm in a relationship, i always put a part of myself into it. & when it's qone, i feel th pain. I'm really hopinq this relationship could last for a few years, beyond that, i daren't think about it. One step at a time, thouqh i'd be really upset if my husband really puts $1 in th red packet.

Every friday, i'd sit in class thinkinq about what i could buy for Boyf for dinner, what t qet for him as a present since he seems t always briqhten up upon seeinq presents. I love my Boyf a hell lot, i think he's really adorable sometimes. I don't have t qive him presents, he diqs my baq when i'm asleep & self proclaims whatever he finds in there as his own. Thouqh i must admit he's rather smart, considerinq that i don't use much of th stuff that he's interested in thouqh i wanted th beats very much ;( he took it sneakily while in Malaysia. I love that smile he qives everytime he qets his hands on somethinq when i start wailinq.

I miss him, so much. But i can't stand th thouqht of him talkinq t qirls, selfish me. Sorry, i just don't share. Fiqht w me for it, or have it for free. i don't like cheap thinqs, I hope you don't cheat on me, because i don't want t qive up on you..... Anyone but you.

" Cheatinq can qo in many ways; Whether you hanq out Secretly, flirt or have sex with someone other than your loved one, it's considered cheatinq " Remember your words.