♥ Thursday, November 17
thursday -
spent th entire niqht til morninq raidinq biqbro's itouch `
tweetinq lyrics for fun & feelinqs `
Boyf went t take MC `
so i decided i'd pop down t houqanq t do my passport `
since i couldn't sleep th entire niqht anyway `
explains my eyebaqs nowadays `
i just can't sleep, was super worried aloy won't talk t me `
i was wearinq FBT & Spaqhetti when Boyf told me cannot `
so i wasted eiqht bucks on some uqly shitty passport photo `
went t cut my hair short instead `
yes, aloy darlinq called me halfway ^^ `
i qet so happy when he calls me yknow `
likea happiness shot into my heart `
was planninq t qo shoppinq `
mum psychoed me not t do passport `
so i didn't , hmph `
it started t rain heavily so she psychoed me t qo home `
there went my shoppinq trip `
emodiemeh, walked about houqanq mall `
qot lil brother's dye & th usual piercinq solutions `
i just realized i ran out of everythinq, how can siol `
i actually survived on far east's sea salt for al infections `
well so i went back & Boyf came over `
i was kinda scared cause of yesterday's incident `
i'm really a sucky qirlf, makes me hate myself `
i want t be worth it for him `
he's th best thinq that ever happened t me `
i hate th fact that i'm unable t trust people `
it takes me forever t trust someone `
i trust him t a certain extent, hiqher than th averaqe `
but i want t trust him fully, i want him t be happy `
have freedom t do whatever he wants `
yet doubtful thouqhts wouldn't cross my mind `
workinq towards that at a super slow pace `
so yeah i went home while they came over `
i love how aloy's willinq t takecare of th lil mofo `
so they came over & i kept quiet `
i was really tired & afraid he wouldn't talk t me `
so i nuaed for awhile when he sprinkled water on me `
than i chased him, hah, he's really adorable `
i love how he plays with me `
aloy darlinq dyed xiaodi's hair while he kaopei-ed `
i quess th funniest part was when mum cut him a shirt `
had t take a photo, too funny `
posted online & watched Boyf at work `
sexy as hell i swear, wanted t lick him there & then `
can't help it, startinq t have sick fetishes recently `
lil bro didn't want t pierce cause his lips are thick as hell `
Boyf saw my conversation with lil brother `
i quess its kinda shockinq & disappointinq t him `
th fact that i didn't trust him & actually asked if i should qive up `
i was down, unstable & lost after last niqht `
i never meant for him t know `
th thouqht that someone miqht qive up on you is `
heartbreakinq, torturous & t a man like him `
throuqh those smiles i saw somethinq bitter in him `
i reqretted, i should have stayed on as i always did `
& trusted, but i quess i'm not that stronq anymore `
i quess lil bro's riqht, i need t maintain `
a quy like him don't like weakshits like me `
i felt so, shameful at that particular point in time `
considerinq i only trust my Boyf & lil bro in my entire life `
i never meant t compare him t my ex `
or even comment that i feared he miqht `
i'm so afraid, because my ex did it & i found out `
twice, and th one before him, same story `
due t my anti sex campaiqn back then `
i quess cheatinq was th only way t satisfy themselves `
i'm some shitty persimist at heart `
i felt like sucha let down t aloy i emoed `
mum asked me whether we fouqht and i said no `
than i went t my room & emoed `
mum came in and talked t me `
i started tremblinq aqain so i took a shot of Jack.D `
it's a sort of stabilizer, one shot enouqh t heat my body `
mum talked t me about relationships `
she told me about how she & dad qot toqether `
dad's a very unapproachable male chauvanist piq `
we all know that, that's why i avoid him `
i salute my mum, marryinq him `
there were much similarities between Boyf & dad `
so i learnt my faults throuqh mum's experience `
i learnt t qive in & never doubt `
but dear already saw th messaqe `
i didn't have th face t face him `
i let him down aqain, & i promised i'd be qood before `
why did i have t rant it all out t lil brother `
Virqos hate comparisons `
i never compared him before `
why did i have t do it now in a blind state `
i hate myself, mum told me what i could do `
but i quess its really up t me entirely `
& not followinq th blind eh `
mum really likes his character, so do i `
he'll never believe in me ever aqain `
but as lonq as i feel him i'm not qonna qive up `
i quess th worst part was tellinq someone else `
back then, i kept evrythinq t myself `
why can't i do it now `
keepinq problems t oneselves saves lotsa efforts `
he talked t me in awhile, i liqhtened up `
so we went for 126 dimsum `
despite lil brother whininq about beinq hunqry `
but for once, he wasn't th priority `
cause Boyf deserves more `
i don't care, i'm becominq a road idiot like seriously `
i don't remember where th hell i used t qo `
but if you dump me there `
somehow or rather i do remember `
-lauqhs- funnymax `
i seriously salute boyf & lil ass `
they can eat a hell lot `
especially that mother fucker `
always whininq that he hasn't eaten for days & days `
liarmuch, no wonder why your qirlf hates you `
-lauqhs- so sent th lil fucker home `
& of t Boyf's house, must have him toniqht `
die also must have him `
i would die if i didn't feel his heat toniqht `
he's probably lauqhinq in his mind `
pathetic ole me, qeez `
- - - `
i'm sorry you had t see what you saw my dear `
i quess i'm still in pieces `
i'll collect th pieces myself & fix myself up `
afterall, no one's qonna pick up th pieces for me `
no one likes a dependent qirl `
with so much t think of, i don't want t add on `
i know there's lotsa issues qoinq on riqht now `
i want t be there for you `
it'd probably seem like a pack of bullshit t you `
but i'll try, i'm still tryinq `
i'm so afraid `
spent th entire niqht til morninq raidinq biqbro's itouch `
tweetinq lyrics for fun & feelinqs `
Boyf went t take MC `
so i decided i'd pop down t houqanq t do my passport `
since i couldn't sleep th entire niqht anyway `
explains my eyebaqs nowadays `
i just can't sleep, was super worried aloy won't talk t me `
i was wearinq FBT & Spaqhetti when Boyf told me cannot `
so i wasted eiqht bucks on some uqly shitty passport photo `
went t cut my hair short instead `
yes, aloy darlinq called me halfway ^^ `
i qet so happy when he calls me yknow `
likea happiness shot into my heart `
was planninq t qo shoppinq `
mum psychoed me not t do passport `
so i didn't , hmph `
it started t rain heavily so she psychoed me t qo home `
there went my shoppinq trip `
emodiemeh, walked about houqanq mall `
qot lil brother's dye & th usual piercinq solutions `
i just realized i ran out of everythinq, how can siol `
i actually survived on far east's sea salt for al infections `
well so i went back & Boyf came over `
i was kinda scared cause of yesterday's incident `
i'm really a sucky qirlf, makes me hate myself `
i want t be worth it for him `
he's th best thinq that ever happened t me `
i hate th fact that i'm unable t trust people `
it takes me forever t trust someone `
i trust him t a certain extent, hiqher than th averaqe `
but i want t trust him fully, i want him t be happy `
have freedom t do whatever he wants `
yet doubtful thouqhts wouldn't cross my mind `
workinq towards that at a super slow pace `
so yeah i went home while they came over `
i love how aloy's willinq t takecare of th lil mofo `
so they came over & i kept quiet `
i was really tired & afraid he wouldn't talk t me `
so i nuaed for awhile when he sprinkled water on me `
than i chased him, hah, he's really adorable `
i love how he plays with me `
aloy darlinq dyed xiaodi's hair while he kaopei-ed `
i quess th funniest part was when mum cut him a shirt `
had t take a photo, too funny `
posted online & watched Boyf at work `
sexy as hell i swear, wanted t lick him there & then `
can't help it, startinq t have sick fetishes recently `
lil bro didn't want t pierce cause his lips are thick as hell `
Boyf saw my conversation with lil brother `
i quess its kinda shockinq & disappointinq t him `
th fact that i didn't trust him & actually asked if i should qive up `
i was down, unstable & lost after last niqht `
i never meant for him t know `
th thouqht that someone miqht qive up on you is `
heartbreakinq, torturous & t a man like him `
throuqh those smiles i saw somethinq bitter in him `
i reqretted, i should have stayed on as i always did `
& trusted, but i quess i'm not that stronq anymore `
i quess lil bro's riqht, i need t maintain `
a quy like him don't like weakshits like me `
i felt so, shameful at that particular point in time `
considerinq i only trust my Boyf & lil bro in my entire life `
i never meant t compare him t my ex `
or even comment that i feared he miqht `
i'm so afraid, because my ex did it & i found out `
twice, and th one before him, same story `
due t my anti sex campaiqn back then `
i quess cheatinq was th only way t satisfy themselves `
i'm some shitty persimist at heart `
i felt like sucha let down t aloy i emoed `
mum asked me whether we fouqht and i said no `
than i went t my room & emoed `
mum came in and talked t me `
i started tremblinq aqain so i took a shot of Jack.D `
it's a sort of stabilizer, one shot enouqh t heat my body `
mum talked t me about relationships `
she told me about how she & dad qot toqether `
dad's a very unapproachable male chauvanist piq `
we all know that, that's why i avoid him `
i salute my mum, marryinq him `
there were much similarities between Boyf & dad `
so i learnt my faults throuqh mum's experience `
i learnt t qive in & never doubt `
but dear already saw th messaqe `
i didn't have th face t face him `
i let him down aqain, & i promised i'd be qood before `
why did i have t rant it all out t lil brother `
Virqos hate comparisons `
i never compared him before `
why did i have t do it now in a blind state `
i hate myself, mum told me what i could do `
but i quess its really up t me entirely `
& not followinq th blind eh `
mum really likes his character, so do i `
he'll never believe in me ever aqain `
but as lonq as i feel him i'm not qonna qive up `
i quess th worst part was tellinq someone else `
back then, i kept evrythinq t myself `
why can't i do it now `
keepinq problems t oneselves saves lotsa efforts `
he talked t me in awhile, i liqhtened up `
so we went for 126 dimsum `
despite lil brother whininq about beinq hunqry `
but for once, he wasn't th priority `
cause Boyf deserves more `
i don't care, i'm becominq a road idiot like seriously `
i don't remember where th hell i used t qo `
but if you dump me there `
somehow or rather i do remember `
-lauqhs- funnymax `
i seriously salute boyf & lil ass `
they can eat a hell lot `
especially that mother fucker `
always whininq that he hasn't eaten for days & days `
liarmuch, no wonder why your qirlf hates you `
-lauqhs- so sent th lil fucker home `
& of t Boyf's house, must have him toniqht `
die also must have him `
i would die if i didn't feel his heat toniqht `
he's probably lauqhinq in his mind `
pathetic ole me, qeez `
- - - `
i'm sorry you had t see what you saw my dear `
i quess i'm still in pieces `
i'll collect th pieces myself & fix myself up `
afterall, no one's qonna pick up th pieces for me `
no one likes a dependent qirl `
with so much t think of, i don't want t add on `
i know there's lotsa issues qoinq on riqht now `
i want t be there for you `
it'd probably seem like a pack of bullshit t you `
but i'll try, i'm still tryinq `
i'm so afraid `
