♥ Tuesday, November 1
sick, aqain `
went t school, for submission `
without a doubt, i was late `
i submitted early, & went home early `
slept th entire day, too tired, shaqmax `
skipped lunch, & dinner, & was rather bored `
havinq listened t Kris' advices for days `
i thouqht i'd just qo out & chill `
went for a private movie screeninq `
it's fuckinq amazinq i swear `
sittinq anywhere i want in th cinema `
talkinq throuqhout th entire movie `
& even smokinq in there (Y) `
4 people in 2 cinema halls `
Paranormal Activity 3 or One Day `
i picked One Day `
only because PA3 has cut off parts `
& One Day has Anne Hathaway `
my fave part was when they went skinnydippinq `
& someone stole th Dexter's clothinqs `
ahahha, hilariousmax, qonna stop s.dippinq `
after that, i was feelinq rather peckish `
thouqht i'd qo find lil brother `
he's havinq his O's at 8AM `
so we went t SRT aqain `
kinda upset cause i saw some stuffs `
so ordered th usual set of drinks `
& they started playinq dice w me `
i hate dice, i like mind qames, not luckqames `
i kept winninq, until th bouncer tried `
then, i kept losinq t him, so i had t drink `
nonstop, cause everytime i was on winninqstreaks `
he would say wait, then he would shake for xionq `
& i'd lose & i would have t finish everyth `
i think i drank half of everyth we ordered `
bouncer confiscated my phone `
said i was too emo & should stop stalkinq `
ahahha, i need t start takinq cammy out `
if there's one thinq i reqret `
it's not takinq photos while we were still loveydovey `
-siqhs- qot so hiqh when everyth ended at 6 `
i live th furthest, but i quess they were tired `
so i told them t just qo home & leave me `
i'd be fine anyway, ahahha `
so yeah, went home with th stronq urqe t puke `
uncle qave me sour plums which calmed my nerves `
i was fidqetty, nauseous & sleepy `
reached home, truth t be told `
first time in like, four years i vomitted from siamdiu `
in my own house, i hardly vomit `
say once every year ? `
i fell asleep after vomitinq `
didn't even chanqe out -.- sickeninq `
& without a doubt, i'm not qonna make it for school `
sorry Irvinq, your lessons are awesome `
but i'm not in the riqht state now `
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really at a loss `i'd usually cry th feelinqs out, all out `
but for once, it seems that i can't `
i cry, but th feelinqs remain, why `
& perhaps, even more feelinqs appear `
i think alot when i'm alone, th small stuff `
but i'm really feelinq so lost riqht now `
just end my sufferinq, or let somethinq happen `
