♥ Friday, November 4
been readinq horoscopes recently `
just abit lost & havinq futile hopes that th stars would quide `
kinda redundant & uncalled for, but considerinq all this `
i'm still on sinqle block, which explains my freedom `
in 2 more weeks i'll be really busy, but it doesn't matter `
like seriously, after next block i qotta qet a job `
next block's too stressful t work, need support `
for once, i was awake by 8AM `
went t school with th Mcdonalds report `
finished up & passed it t Rachel & went home `
went t bed immediately, haven't been feelinq well `
Jerr reckons it's th iceblast that's makinq me really sick `
he says its too cold; i actually tremble from smokinq iceblast `
& XINXIN says its because i stopped eatinq `
don't have fats t keep me warm & stable`
amazinq assumptions without a doubt `
i miqht have qotten parkinsons, no one knows ahah `
i lost 2.2 kiloqrams in th past 2-4 days that i stopped eatinq `
i don't even remember how lonq i stopped but yeah `
th sad thinq is, i don't feel skinnier, ahaha `
Friday niqht now, where should i qo `
i don't want t stay here, mum's beinq mean aqain `
club's a no-no at th moment, so's dancinq `
i have this stronq urqe t just let loose `
i want t qo skinny dippinq aqain, but it's too cold `
& all th ladies have qone missinq, it's amazinq `
just keepinq my mouth shut, i've learnt so much `
whoever's true, & whoever's a money suckinq whore `
i want t qo roundinq too, take me away t somewhere foreiqn `
i need t qrow up, i need t show lil bro that i'm stronq `
that way, he'd learn t be stronq too `
what else can i do that's decent enouqh `
i'm free riqht til Monday - without homework `
no projects, no nothinq, no strinqs attached on freedom `
i fiqured i'd qo back t church tomorrow `
but i'm not qoinq back t my previous church `
after a year, i'm qonna qo t Ben's church `
he's been tellinq me t qo, just once, for a year already `
so yes, i'll qo, & i hope th experience would chanqe my life `
i promise t devote, if i feel assurance from within `
but that's hiqhly impossible, but i'll try `
i dreamt of him aqain, i dreamt he came back `
but that's hiqhly impossible yes? `
need somethinq t take my mind off him `
quess i'll take my lil brother out `
optinq for roundinq & my favourite emo diu `
so yeah, we went over t sakura `
lil brother qot checked, so we chanqed t soprano `
was kinda bored since some people are so -.- `
so i asked Ryan t accompany me finish my stuff up `
& i followed him t Oceanz & d8 `
like seriously, it's like mirrored rooms `
replicas of each other, qeez `
okay, so after chillinq awhile i went back `
rounded for a lil bit before qoinq home `
kinda down on shit, private karaokae sessions `
my piercinq's hurtinq like one faqshit `
sianmax, qeez, bedtime `
some shitty niqht `
thank qod for Hazel&Ryan&xiaoD `
would probably have flunq myself out of boredom `
qeez, okay, cool `
bedtime `
