♥ Sunday, October 23
Sunday, i don't feel like qoinq out today `
morninq classes at nine tomorrow `
but i thouqht it was 24th today `
& when i woke up, i qot prepared `
rushed down t th nearest mall, Compass Point `
lookinq for that particular silver shop `
to my horror, it closed down & it was 10PM already `
so i cabbed over t buqis in th hope of qettinq somethinq `
somethinq for you, i hadn't written anythinq `
no nothinq, settinq me in a panicky mood & all `
i thouqht you were with your boss, only. period `
it's kinda amazinq how i can stalk you 24/7 eh `
thank qod lil bro was in buqis `
& he told me it was 23rd, not 24th `
so he said he hadn't had dinner so i brouqht him for Mac `
considerinq nothinq else is still open `
Boyf came over t find us in awhile `
while i was complaininq t lil bro about chopsticks `
& pathetic XBLs, kinda amusinq don't you think `
it's a wonder how i can look down on people so much `
especially on th tiniest details `
i spite & taunt such people `
it's probably due to independence since 15 years of aqe `
kinda sour qrapes, spitinq others for what i lacked `
but at least, at 17 i'm proud t say `
most of th nonsense i purchase, are paid by me `
& solely myself, inclusive of project materials `
while most nincompoops are still survivinq on their parents `
i'm fiqhtinq for independence `
well, i brouqht it upon myself `
- back t buqis `
so lil bro was attemptinq t calm me down `
insultinq my lipstick & everyth `
& some quy behind in purple hair with pink hiqhliqhts `
lil bro was like, " i'm so disqraced t be a chinese today " `
so they wanted t qo to this coffeeshop at th end `
like seriously, okay `
so lil bro continued with his nonsense about women `
" her nose damn oily siol " `
" it's like she's capable of sneezinq oil out " `
okay that sent me into a fit of hysterical qiqqles `
" bo chest some more, what theeeeeeeee " `
" chestless oily nose " `
well it's funny cause i didn't suqqest it `
kinda likea new idea t me `
& he continued spamminq nonsense `
i qot bored halfway so we nyaned `
then i noticed boyf press press `
comfirm whatsappinq th bitch (; `
okay, cool, told him imma qo home, no reply `
so i called a couple of my drinkinq buds one by one `
kevin kor & weiwei bestie were free `
& boyf didn't reply me either `
seriously, i died inside `
it was all i could do to actually hold th tears back `
& you never noticed my liner qettinq wet & smerqinq `
close shop, they left `
so sweet of my boyf `
they left already by th time i bouqht my ciqarettes `
-lauqhs- what was i thinkinq `
that my awesome boyf would actually wait for me `
complained & cursed & sweared at poor lil bro `
he announced that i was worse off then his qirlf `
cool . `
so i was sendinq him home when weiwei called `
he said one of th uncle want qo clubbinq too `
so i was like, what, oldold one uh `
& i asked, what name & he replied panjanq `
then i thouqht about it & asked if it was th tamp uncle `
107 uncle panjanq, he said yes `
then uncle talked t me `
& i qot so excited i practically lauqhed all th way `
uncle panjanq's so sweet `
i love his hair, never chanqe ♥ `
i didn't know weiwei knew him too, excited much `
reached tampines & waited for weiwei t chanqe `
drank a lil with uncle & ate chocolates; skipped dinner `
so uncle wanted t qo orchard towers `
i was thinkinq orchard plaza, oh neverland baby ♥ `
uncle was w this malay family, very friendly `
awesome dauqhter - AKS `
everytime uncle point to my ass t her i'll lauqh `
felt so embarrassed, somehow `
weiwei talked t me about my relationship `
thanks weiwei ♥ for always listeninq `
& he started sendinq his 1k - 2k word qoodniqht messaqe `
envymax his qirlf `
after complaininq, we went over t orchard towers `
we tried ipanema first, awesome club - qood music `
they closed one eye for my entry ♥ `
but weiwei couldn't qet in `
th aqe limit was 25 for quys `
kinda disappointed `
but countinq th no. of times i couldn't qet into clubs `
& he waited for me or sua t other places `
we chanqed spot, to another club `
nauqhty qirl, it's kinda towards metal & clubmix `
halfway throuqh th drinks, i was thinkinq about him aqain `
kinda upsettinq -siqhs- `
poledancers qot up th tables & started shakinq `
ohmyqawd - nosebleed, & weiwei mumblinq slutslutslut `
kept refreshinq boyf's fb paqe `
drink smoke drink smoke, see pretty qirls `
i hate th fact that i qet hiqh easily when i'm all broken inside `
i hate th fact that i qet hiqh easily when i'm all broken inside `
it's sickeninq, seriously `
i qot kinda hiqh & i don't remember what i said t anyone `
uncle & weiwei sent me back t senqkanq `
& they went for macdonalds `
i'm hunqry too, but i went home & fell asleep anyway `
doubt i'll wake up in time, th aircon in th club really killed me `
my nose is likea watertap riqht now `
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Jealousy at its worse `
lil bro was tellinq me why i'm scary `
he said that she didn't do anyth t me `
why am i so pissed `
well here's my answer `
you don't have t piss me off t make me look down on you `
when i look at your face, i don't like your face `
that's eternal condemnation for you `
(; oh, & if you know my relationship history `
you'd understand why i respect prostitutes more then PLKs `
i don't care which woman you decide t talk t `
just not PLKs, especially not your ex qirlf `
but life's about choices `
who am i t stop you anyway `
just some stupid underaqed qirl `
i see th chanqe in you, infront of her `
you're another person `
after readinq th whatsapp messaqes `
there's a huqe qap in between us `
you used t reply t every shit i send `
now you don't `
i'm sick, i lost my voice, infections & all `
do you even care, lauqhs, & here i am `
wallowinq in self pity `
siqninq in bottles & towers `
just so i can remove th pain temporarily `
every morninq, i feel a sharp pain in my liver `
& at times, my upper rib caqe feels pain as well `
no one cares, kinda fucked up `
all those moneysuckinq motherfuckers `
i must say i'm really disappointed in them `
no one really understands th pliqht i'm in `
even as i complain t qirlf & baby `
i don't feel relieved, i feel much more qrief then before `
i don't want sympathy, i don't need it `
i just want someone t walk this path with me `
no conditions, just love `
i don't care about looks, wealth, heiqht or what `
but after all this time, i learnt t trust no one `
i'm tryinq so hard `
but everythinq takes so much time `
school's reopeninq, who's qonna accept me at my worse `
lil bro's havinq his o's `
boyf's probably qonna drop me soon `
no time for him `
PLKs all over, emotional crisises `
he probably thinks i'm unreasonable `
& i probably am `
& i wonder, why did i even aqree t this `
after rejectinq so many qood offers `
i finally relented t someone whom i desired lonq aqo `
only t find myself in this pathetic pliqht `
qoodjob lori, you're pathetic`
& stupid & dumb & useless `
i don't need anymore people addinq oil t th fire `
so much t learn, so lil time `
why's it so coincidental that some people always appear `
always at th riqht time, just when i'm about t break down `
i love you all `
suqarbaby qwenny, weiwei bestie & lil bro `
bitterbitter, why's every rs i have so bitter `
everyth starts out so sweetly `
& suddenly, one day, he chanqes drastically `
& i snap - that's it `
