♥ Wednesday, October 5
qood morninq loves ♥ `
today, Lori is a qoodqirl `
i woke up at seven just t qet prepared in time `
Boyf's bookinq out today despite it beinq Wednesday `
cabbed over t Bedok camp II & stood outside, smoke `
he came out & off t his homeeeeee ♥ `
was really tired, so i slept while he went to th hospital `
he came back & we talked for awhile `
attempted t sleep & i qot scared over someth `
i was terrified, as everyth from th past came floodinq `
i cried, ha, i was afraid, i wanted him t just huq me `
& tell me nothinq's qonna happen `
but he didn't understand at that point of time `
so i camped in th toilet, smokinq, cryinq `
& vandelized his toilet with my ciqarettes `
he qot really pissed off somehow `
i was scared, really fuckinq terrified `
he went out somewhere in between `
so i took his sleepinq pills `
i took five t six pills due t th lack of effects `
i probably wished i'd die at that moment `
he came back & murdered th door `
scarydieme, i couldn't sleep still `
biqbro came t pick us up soon `
it was then, that th effects kicked in `
too late, i just wanted t die `
seriously, went over t pick baby up & sheesha `
my favourite spot @ Merdandy's `
a lil too cold for me, but comfy enouqh `
chilled until late; th kinda crap they talk about `
enouqh humor t last me a lifetime `
we left a lil after 2, sat somewhere `
& i started my history lesson `
lauqhs, th quys, thank you `
sincerely, i doubt anyone would willinq sit down `
& let me rant my hearts out for hours t come `
♥ thanks `
love you quys, baby & ♥boyf `
went home, i mean boyf's home `
& he forqot t brinq his keys `
qoodjob dear - oh well `
whatever, as lonq as i'm with you `
that's all that matters `
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i was afraid you'd leave me, all alone in th dark `
i prayed you wouldn't walk out on me `
it's so touqh t decipher what's qoinq on in your mind `
i'm not trained t understand others `
i just want t be loved, by you, that's all `
silence is a qirl's loudest cry ♥ `
