♥ Friday, October 21
friday - wishinq it never came `
kinda woke up pretty late `
well, it's normal thouqh `
just not sure how t adapt t th new timetable `
5 entire blocks of morninq classes straiqht `
but oh well - qonna have t live throuqh it `
i think i woke up at five or maybe a lil earlier `
mum woke me up, pissed th fuck outta me `
told me t qet prepared or they were leavinq without me `
oh, whatever, your family acts that way, all th time `
so yeah, took my own sweet time & whatsapp complain `
by th time i qot ready, which was about 7pm `
my mum was munchinq on her dinner `
& biqbro was whininq that he's qonna die `
qoodjob people, lori loves you ♥ so much `
so yeah, i was feelinq seriously down already `
threatened t leave without me - be my quest `
& i stupidly believed, oh `
baby told me he was bitten by an aedes mozzie `
& th fucked up NS ppl didn't believe him `
fuck you all seriously, it's deadly okay `
if he dies i swear by my mum's vaqina i'd curse you all `
they didn't let him qo visit th doctor either `
nor did they believe him `
i hope your entire camp qets it seriously `
motherfuckinq selfish niqqas _l_ `
so i went down t pick lil bro up for dinner `
didn't want t eat alone `
& two people eat likea emo `
so 3 of us went over t lavender `
Boyf didn't want t join us `
he had stuff t do so we went ahead `
we had kwaychap - LOL , aqain IKR `
buqis there after `
had t buy stuff but i didn't know what t buy anyway `
was considerinq CR . but CR is for cheapos `
so i skipped that `
& i didn't really want t qet OPI `
but i checked it out & they didn't have th color i wanted `
so i skipped that & went over t perfume section `
i thouqht Dior was okay, but i was considerinq chanel `
so they were like, look around first lor `
cool, so i ended up in M.A.C `
th quys were really mean `
i tried on about 7 shades & xiaoD lauqhed `
but i don't care ;( that's a lie, really `
they were like, " thank qod i'm not your boyf " `
meanpuckerasses, hmph . whatever `
i qot myself 4 lip makeups `
purple plum lavender & a suqary pink ;/ `
yana called halfway, said she was bored `
so she came over & stoned in th shop for an hour `
th quys went up t qet their stuff `
was considerinq qettinq th entire limited edition set `
but then aqain, i don't even do much t my face anymore `
black thick liner & toninq, that's all i'm doinq recently `
i called Boyf t see if he wanted t come down `
but he didn't, he was in senqkanq `
so i thouqht, urqh just send yana t clarke `
pop by noir for abit & off t dolly `
& back t senqkanq - `
lil bro was lookinq outraqeously lonely `
so awesome jieh bouqht him icecream `
th turkish icecream seller was entertaininq `
he poked lil bro's dick, scammed him & disturbed him `
we lauqhed, but i thouqht it'd be nice t spoil my lil bro `
as planned, we sent her off & lil bro home `
& Boyf told me he wasn't feelinq well `
oh riqhto , so i went home `
- - - - - - - - - - - - ♥ - - - - - - - - - - - - `
-siqhs- i saw his facebook status `
& i spent th next 4 hours wonderinq `
what have i done wronq `
i'm so afraid, i don't know how t feel `
that's kinda lauqhable at, but i feel so empty `
have i hurt you in any way `
i don't know, -siqhs- `
i hate th way we always fiqht on th phone `
why th fuck must we do that `
i hate it, i hate myself `
puttinq myself in your shoes `
i probably feel th pain, already `
it's kinda sickeninq don't you think `
bloodyfuckedup qirlf, i know `
i'm sorry, what can i say now `
i miss you, i really do `
i wanted t qo over, but eqo qot t me first `
♥ i love you dear, please take care of yourself `
