♥ Sunday, October 30
30th October 2011 `
i'm feelinq rather down today, well, recently `
in a few minutes i'll be 18 `
so yes, thanks for lettinq me in all th clubs `
especially those who knew i was underaqe `
& my awesome PR, for always brinqinq me in A `
so that's 3 years worth of clubbinq, siamdiu-inq & drinkinq `
kinda brinqs back th old memories eh `
thanks for th childhood memories `
butterfactory, powerhouse, neverland `
sakura, club V4, D8, le noir, Attica `
now & then, lookers, china one, nauqhty qirl & all `
i can't remember everythinq `
but i want t thank everyone who hionqed me in `
qot yourself into trouble, fiqhts & banned cause of me `
♥ Love y'all, it's been a bumpy 3 year ride with you quys `
at fifteen, sittinq in th VIP seats of certain clubs `
kinda qlamorous t me, now that i'm reachinq 18 `
well i quess, i miqht just quit anytime soon `
it's kinda, time t stop i quess, i'm ruininq myself `
but th imaqe i've created for myself, (Y) in love `
qonna be a qood qirlf, a qood jieh & a qood sister `
i'm qettinq old, i'm stiff already `
but thanks le noir & butter factory `
for th dance experience, i remember back then `
me & attica on staqe every wed - sat `
hilarious max, qettinq into fiqhts & banninqs `
likea fun ♥ kinda childish now `
i'm supposed t be at sakura at 1AM `
Kris invited me over for a couple of drinks `
he's a very matured man, tellinq me thinqs i should know `
i'm rushinq my report alone, quess i did it, alone `
i was really upset, textinq lil brother `
life's been qood, but i just don't see th qood, without you `
sittinq in a thai disco, i see friends all over `
ex drinkinq kakis, joininq me once aqain `
cheers, to my awesome childhood `
& i completed my 18 year old tarqetboard `
i'm awesome & i know it, just too fat & uqly `
-lauqhs-, i quess, my quys brouqht me throuqh `
every sinqle thinq you quys have ever done for me `
oh well - i'm starinq at my phone `
i haven't finished my Maserati report `
i'm kinda broken & hopeless inside `
everyone's tellinq me t qive up on him `
but what you all don't know is `
that's not what i wanna hear `
you see th difference between you quys `
& th people whom i'm closest with `
& it's obvious who understands me th most `
i know everyone's tryinq t make me happy `
but xiaoD is riqht, he understands me so well `
he texted me, don't qive up `
just as i was on th verqe `
he's riqht, we are stubborn ppl `
th more you all want us t qive up `
th more we'd fiqht for it `
cause that's how we are `
i'll fiqht for this relationship til th end `
i don't qive easily `
but i quess my walls broke down `
i let you quys come in `
break me up into smithereens `
& leave me behind `
here's t my lil brother xiaodamien `
who knows i don't want t qive him up `
& thanks for beinq there 24/7 `
i'll just continue waitinq `
i mean i understand why you quys want me t qive up `
but you'd never understand how i'm feelinq inside `
t qive everythinq up for someone `
yesyes, continue commentinq on my stupidity `
sometimes when i rant it all out `
all i want t hear is, don't qive up `
not some stupid shit like just qive up la `
human nature, cool `
i texted lil bro until i fell asleep `
i cried t sleep unknowinqly `
i feel so pathetic `
you don't know what i'm thinkinq `
thanks my dear lil brother `
