♥ Thursday, October 27
27th - happy birthday daddy dearest `
javus xunxun daddy darlinq `
nuer loves you so much hah `
thanks for th years of companionship `
i'll always remember how me & laisoon became friends `
back then when he called you qay `
& i qot so pissed off & went down t your school `
in my checkered brown uniform cui tai ji w him `
til today, we still talk about it `
kinda interestinq don't you think `
i think he's really nice, more matured riqht now `
oh well `
i went t school today, about 40 minutes late `
qot a warninq from lecturer about minusinq marks `
finished up & went t houqanq `
i qot 2 piercinqs done at once `
th fuckinq lady qot th 2nd one sliqhtly senqek `
but it's not obvious so yeah `
had lunch w biqbro at kanqkar `
& went over t pasiris t finish up another 2 more piercinqs `
so yes - i hit my tarqet of 21 piercinqs before i hit 18 `
th interior piercinq wasn't as pain as th lip `
biqbro lauqhed likea madman when i was like cheebyeeee `
he didn't stop lauqhinq until i qot home `
bathed, chanqed & went over t town in purple lips `
metup with qirlf & baby `
they went shoppinq & qot me a present `
me shhho happy ♥ `
thank you baby & qirlf ♥ `
they qot their birkenstocks `
they qot th same desiqn somesorta `
it was about 8.30 already `
so i walked into ZARA cause baby wanted t check out stuffs `
i thouqht th pants were really sexy `
but i bouqht a shirt for Boyf instead `
not as low as i'd like, but i think th quality's still qood `
so i qot it, & went over t check out some other stuffs `
neu look shoes are really sexy, but a lil too tall & blinq `
nothinq new, shops were closinq `
& they waited for me just t have dinner toqether `
wasn't really in th mood t eat, but they waited `
so we went t din tai funq `
they wanted th xiaolonqbaos `
so yeah, we had those & some rice `
my battery was dyinq `
i kept flippinq over & over, lookinq at my textes `
seeinq if i could find what i have said or done wronq `
i found some nonsense from months aqo `
but i just didn't qet it `
qirlf was really adorable `
she said it was th first time i looked so sad `
so they qot me t eat `
& when we were done, there was nothinq left t shop `
& i was stalkinq boyf aqain `
his status made my stomach stir `
i had th urqe t vomit `
so we smoked for awhile `
& i thouqht they were qoinq home `
but qirlf asked me where i wanted t qo `
i qave ridiculous ideas `
th kinda shit i wanted t do was just ridiculous `
i wanted t drink, t dance, t cry & die `
we went t chanqi after an hour's worth of debate `
bouqht alcohol & drank `
sat there & thouqht about alot of stuff `
home in awhile `
i quess i'll stop here `
it's startinq t hurt so badly `
so much on my mind `
yes i don't understand you `
but it''s not like i'm not tryinq `
but will you ever understand that i'm tryinq `
-lauqhs- , bitterbitter `
kinda stupid . fucked up life `
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - ♥ - - - - - - - - - - - - - `
i miss you so much `
will you come back ? `
-siqhs- i hate myself `
so tell me, what's wronq with me `
everythinq, i quess `
i'll chanqe, for you `
cause i'm startinq t die a lil inside `
i love you ♥ `
more than words could ever express `
i need you, so much `
