♥ Monday, June 13
13th June, woke up sufferinq from a sliqht hanqover from last niqht `
i didn't drink much but i'm just, very tired i quess `
late for school, went at 4 only t receive some warninq letter `
qeez, walked down & met qwen for 2 hours t rant about everyth `
talked about droppinq out & considered th options left `
just feel th pain from a week aqo, it haunts me; still `
went home after that, prepared for th niqht `
wasn't really interested in whatbullshit " hello kitty event " `
-.- but since i promised & everyone was tryinq t psycho me `
i went, bouqht a bottle of martell & headed down t PH `
was in a hell of a bad mood, forqot t brinq IC `
ppl pushinq me to do retarded thinqs `
its like, hi, i'm not in charqe today `
so we went t qet our stuff, & back t drinkinq `
met Amelia & her friend halfway `
told her what happened throuqhout `
& she actually chanqed my perception on this previous relationship `
& there i qo, sittinq there, thinkinq " what th fuck was i doinq " `
she's riqht, i need a chanqe in my life `
-siqhs- fucked up niqht `
th quys came in late, was tired, stiff & Mot Arom `
no one wanted t move t th dance floor `
relationship problems, a stolen zippo `
tired early, school th next day `
qeez, miqht as well stay home `
but alriqht, at least qwen was there t dance w me for a moment `
hmmm, homed at 6 plus 7 `
couldn't sleep then, kept thinkinq of Amelia's words `
she's riqht, i just sat on my bed for half an hour thinkinq `
is this th end? or should i just try `
everyone's tellinq me not to `
but hey, i don't care about what you quys think anymore `
just so you know, some of you are really selfish `
i'm not qoinq t be here for you quys forever `
& just because i'm willinq t do alot for you quys `
doesn't mean i've to sacrifice my relationships one more time `
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i miss you , hais `
really, really do `
