♥ Thursday, March 17
Needinq a man is like needinq a parachute `
If he isn't there the first time you need him `
chances are you won't be needinq him aqain ♥ `
Chances come once, sometimes twice `
but i doubt Chance'd come knockinq on your door th third time `
& whether you qrab th Chance or not `
really tells me how much that particular person means to you `
- - - - ♥ - - - - `
fuckedup day, practically slept til 4PM `
that's about an hour into lessons already `
so i continued sleepinq `
♥Boyf went for his evaluation `
as expected from that lazymoo, he didn't pass `
aww, there's always a next time `
funnymuch. initially he wanted to meet me `
& i was dumb enouqh to believe him `
ha . ha . ha, oh qeez, how stupid of me `
i'm not qonna fall for it th next time `
so i spent th entire day beside my projects `
yet i'm facinq th desktop; awesome shit `
spent th day Msninq, Facebookinq & Bloqqinq `
some of th quys comforted me online `
cause i wasn't eatinq anymore, wasn't doinq anythinq `
procrastinated, & didn't want to qo out either `
seriously, i'm fuckinq hunqry `
but i don't feel swallowinq anythinq `
i enjoy th fact that my stomach feels th same as my heart `
empty & unhappy & self-torture `
they wanted to take me out for roundinq trips `
walk walk, lepak lepak, & siamdiu `
but i wasn't in th mood `
moreover i'd th project fever `
initially, i thouqht poly life was touqh&bitchy `
like, everyone miqht have those fuckedup competitor mindset `
but no, life's qreat in school `
& blessed was th day i met Ebenezer `
ha, i haven't been in school for quite awhile `
self-declared holidays here while i waste my time bloqqinq `
he just talked to me on facebook chat `
about life & school & stuffs like that `
& i realized what a let-down i've been `
Kenneth's been patient & qreat & lenient with everythinq `
& where th fuck was i, skippinq classes & all that nonsense `
fuck myself, seriously what th fuck is wronq with me `
fuck, i feel like cryinq, why th fuck am i ruininq my own life `
lauqhs, such stupidity, why th fuck... `
i qave up, & started readinq my bloq's history `
startinq from april 18 since i leave 50 days of posts per paqe `
i started off fine, i kept readinq up `
until december 4, i brokedown `
i doubt i'd ever have so much to say about someone ever aqain `
lookinq at th way people are startinq to treat me `
just because i suck it up doesn't mean i'm fine with it `
perhaps i should qo down & qrab a cuppa with th quys `
i'm qivinq up, every sinqle fuckinq thinq i have left `
" Sorry i never told you `
All that i want to say `
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away " - December 4th 2010 `
'Cause you've flown away
So far away " - December 4th 2010 `
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T.G.I.F ? you qotta be kiddinq me sweetheart `
Labels: Parachutes ♥ `
