♥ Thursday, September 3
♥Boyf was listeninq to this sonq `
so i played it as well `
i heard it before `
but i've never thouqht about th lyrics `
here i am riqht now `
cryinq before my beloved computer `
thinkinq about you `
a sinqle sonq `
countless tears `
never once did i think about this `
how could i have even thouqht of leavinq you `
seriously `
how could i `
such deliriousity `
i nearly ruined my own life `
thanks henqburqer `
thanks qwen & nuer `
for th advice `
and all `
thanks to your advice `
i didn't leave him `
how could i be so selfish `
so stupid `
i've a wonderful ♥Boyfriend `
he sacrificed so much for me `
& what've i done `
utter suicidal stuffs `
after listeninq `
it really made me think about months aqo `
remember th time `
you were still in hospital `
& your kors contacted me throuqh your phone `
& th biqbiq prank about your death `
back then `
i was totally flabberqasted `
was sittinq in front of my mum `
-lauqhs- `
such sour memories `
endlessly callinq your number `
& they just didn't pick up th phone `
just had to hear it myself `
but yeah `
biq joke `
i was relieved `
that was when i started to treasure you `
-siqhs- `
& th latest `
ouh i don't know anymore `
-siqhs- `
i was just so selfish `
i know you're busy and all `
sick , needed loads of rest and all `
-siqhs- `
& yeah `
i went out with others `
thouqht alot more `
-lauqhs- `
stupid of me `
when someone else asked `
i considered `
i actually considered `
what th fuck is wronq with me `
here i am `
a perfect ♥Boyf `
qeez `
i deserve to die `
i don've enouqh brains to fill an eqqcup `
i know i don't deserve you `
seriously `
i show attitude whenever i want `
even you `
oh wow `
come think about it `
i find myself so bitchy `
-siqhs- `
what do you even see in my anyway `
my bitchiness ? `
-siqhs- `
after hearinq th sonq `
i qot really afraid `
you know `
i know i'm not there enouqh `
but th thouqht of you leavinq me `
forever ; it still friqhtens me `
your determination , strive `
makes me so fuckinq quilty `
you know `
i can't imaqine it `
i'm so afraid `
what if it really happens `
i'm just so fuckinq scared `
what if you don't make it `
seriously `
how am i qonna live on `
whatever happens next `
dearest ♥Boyf `
i just want you to know `
i still love you `
despite my cold acts and all `
i just know th feelinq's still there `
even if you stop callinq niqhtly `
even if you stop SMSinq `
i'd understand `
i'd know `
& tomorrow `
you'd be admitted into hospital aqain `
do take care okays `
i'm so sorry `
i suck ; seriously `
but i've never stopped lovinq you `
i know it's hard `
but we'd make it somehow `
pray `
累了
照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想妳了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中不聽話的
就停止了
聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏
都難掌握
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
快樂
什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著
可知妳是我生命中的
最捨不得
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
如果我變成回憶
最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣
霸佔妳心裡
每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳
痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平
請妳盡力
把我忘記
if you don't understand `
there's enqlish translation `
When I'm tired
I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual
I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep
In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me
And just stop
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing
The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish
If I can barely control my own pulse?
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body
No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself
For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day
When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you
Happiness
When will it end?
When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly
Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white
Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
let him stay accompany you
I won't blame you
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air
Dominating your heart Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair
Please try your best
To forget me
♥ `
腾政，我爱你`
remember that time `
you asked me why i don't say th 3words `
i quess i'd tell you now `
typinq it out is one thinq `
sayinq it is another `
& everyone knows i don't mean half th thinqs i say `
& i hardly say th thinqs i really really mean `
so yeah `
if you catch th ball `
that's qood `
if you don't `
well ; too bad `
so i played it as well `
i heard it before `
but i've never thouqht about th lyrics `
here i am riqht now `
cryinq before my beloved computer `
thinkinq about you `
a sinqle sonq `
countless tears `
never once did i think about this `
how could i have even thouqht of leavinq you `
seriously `
how could i `
such deliriousity `
i nearly ruined my own life `
thanks henqburqer `
thanks qwen & nuer `
for th advice `
and all `
thanks to your advice `
i didn't leave him `
how could i be so selfish `
so stupid `
i've a wonderful ♥Boyfriend `
he sacrificed so much for me `
& what've i done `
utter suicidal stuffs `
after listeninq `
it really made me think about months aqo `
remember th time `
you were still in hospital `
& your kors contacted me throuqh your phone `
& th biqbiq prank about your death `
back then `
i was totally flabberqasted `
was sittinq in front of my mum `
-lauqhs- `
such sour memories `
endlessly callinq your number `
& they just didn't pick up th phone `
just had to hear it myself `
but yeah `
biq joke `
i was relieved `
that was when i started to treasure you `
-siqhs- `
& th latest `
ouh i don't know anymore `
-siqhs- `
i was just so selfish `
i know you're busy and all `
sick , needed loads of rest and all `
-siqhs- `
& yeah `
i went out with others `
thouqht alot more `
-lauqhs- `
stupid of me `
when someone else asked `
i considered `
i actually considered `
what th fuck is wronq with me `
here i am `
a perfect ♥Boyf `
qeez `
i deserve to die `
i don've enouqh brains to fill an eqqcup `
i know i don't deserve you `
seriously `
i show attitude whenever i want `
even you `
oh wow `
come think about it `
i find myself so bitchy `
-siqhs- `
what do you even see in my anyway `
my bitchiness ? `
-siqhs- `
after hearinq th sonq `
i qot really afraid `
you know `
i know i'm not there enouqh `
but th thouqht of you leavinq me `
forever ; it still friqhtens me `
your determination , strive `
makes me so fuckinq quilty `
you know `
i can't imaqine it `
i'm so afraid `
what if it really happens `
i'm just so fuckinq scared `
what if you don't make it `
seriously `
how am i qonna live on `
whatever happens next `
dearest ♥Boyf `
i just want you to know `
i still love you `
despite my cold acts and all `
i just know th feelinq's still there `
even if you stop callinq niqhtly `
even if you stop SMSinq `
i'd understand `
i'd know `
& tomorrow `
you'd be admitted into hospital aqain `
do take care okays `
i'm so sorry `
i suck ; seriously `
but i've never stopped lovinq you `
i know it's hard `
but we'd make it somehow `
pray `
累了
照慣例努力清醒著
也照慣例想妳了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在夢中不聽話的
就停止了
聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著
越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼
如果我連自己的脈搏
都難掌握
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
快樂
什麼時候會結束呢
哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著
可知妳是我生命中的
最捨不得
如果我變成回憶
退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣
我冰冷身體
擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳
人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己
如此狠心
如果我變成回憶
終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮
蹣跚牽著妳
看晚霞落盡
漫長時光
總有一天
妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以
讓他陪妳
我不怪妳
如果我變成回憶
最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣
霸佔妳心裡
每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳
痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平
請妳盡力
把我忘記
if you don't understand `
there's enqlish translation `
When I'm tired
I keep trying hard to stay awake as usual
I keep thinking of you as usual too
I'm really scared that when my mind is at rest and I'm asleep
In my dreams my heartbeat won't listen to me
And just stop
Listen; The sound of breathing like waves splashing
The more beautiful it gets, the more I feel uneasy
What can I still cherish
If I can barely control my own pulse?
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body
No longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself
For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance Of us tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day
When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
Let him stay accompany you I won't blame you
Happiness
When will it end?
When is the very end?
I really want to embrace you tightly
Know that you're the one in my life I can't bear to leave the most
If I became a memory - withdrew from this life
Leaving you startled and weeping
My ice-cold body no longer able to embrace you
Thinking that I'll leave you, the one I love
To travel among the sea of people alone
I will hate myself For being so heartless
If I became a memory - finally not so lucky
No chance to Tottering while holding your hand
Hair grown white
Watching the sunset
In this very long period of time
There'll be a day When your broken heart will heal
If someone can [heal your wound]
let him stay accompany you
I won't blame you
If I became a memory - I'm most afraid that I'll let myself down
Stubbornly lingering in the air
Dominating your heart Every part of it
Making the you that still loves me, suffer painfully for this loss
This isn't fair
Please try your best
To forget me
♥ `
腾政，我爱你`
remember that time `
you asked me why i don't say th 3words `
i quess i'd tell you now `
typinq it out is one thinq `
sayinq it is another `
& everyone knows i don't mean half th thinqs i say `
& i hardly say th thinqs i really really mean `
so yeah `
if you catch th ball `
that's qood `
if you don't `
well ; too bad `
Labels: ♥腾政，爱您一生一世`
