♥ Saturday, August 1
currently eatinq icecream `
well `
not really `
thinkinq alot just lately `
th icecream's melted `
-lauqhs- `
i'm just thinkinq about last weekend `
icecream `
-siqhs- `
just so tired
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -`
replies to ♥Boyf `
it's not that i wanna be cold to you or what ;/ `
sorry if you feel that way `
perhaps you don't know `
but i'd tell you anyway `
maybe weird's th word `
just thinkinq about last saturday `
it fuckinq hurts `
just thinkinq about it `
sayinq this sounds fuckinq stupid `
and it doesn't make sense at all `
i know i'm beinq all bitchy and all `
but talkinq to you just reminds me so much `
-siqhs- `
2 months `
that's fuckinq lonq `
qeez ;/ `
sometimes i'd just sit here `
& think & think & think `
it hurts so fuckinq much `
knowinq you wont be there `
for 2 months `
-siqhs- `
ps `
not everyone understands that feelinq `
people'd say i'm dumb and all `
they'd be like `
how weird can i qet and all `
so i'd just shut th fuck up `
or talk to PartTime Boyf `
cause only she understands ;/ `
i know you cant defy your parents `
like most kids out there `
aint it not ;/ `
i don't blame you `
i've never did `
what for `
blaminq you won't make your parents dissappear `
i know `
it's common & understandable `
i know you sacrificed alot for me already `
what's with takinq MC to pei me and all ;/ `
-siqhs- `
qettinq your parents mad `
rushinq back and forth `
all for my fuckinq sake `
thanks Boyf <3 `
it's not that i don want to talk to you `
it just reminds me you aren't here riqht now `
-siqhs- `
just tryinq to forqet that fact `
-lauqhs- `
reality set in just riqht after you left `
-lauqhs- `
makes me realize how much i took you for qranted `
th past & before `
not now ;/ `
but my chance is over `
next chance's like 2months away `
-lauqhs- `
and it's not your fault `
i'm dyinq to finish up everythinq `
incomplete works and all `
sorry i've hurt you `
i know i suck `
seriously ; i do `
i've never meant it that way `
i think it's awesome we don't fiqht already `
like "ohwowshockinqlyamazinq" `
don't think too much `
nothinq chanqed my views of you `
i'm just beinq quiet lately `
you did nothinq wronq `
everythinq riqht `
perfect Boyf and all `
i know you don't want me to be upset `
i'm upset ;/ `
but it's not your fault `
like my previous post `
i already said `
life aint about choices ;/ `
it's a forced thinq `
no one's to be blamed `
do take care of yourself ;/ `
i know it's touqh over there `
sorry i can't do anythinq `
makes me feel fuckinq worse `
do update me on your blood test `
don't hide from me anythinq okays `
i'd find out eventually ;/ `
like your "surprise" which i found out `
which was like days after you planned `
-lauqhs- `
it's cute ; th way you do it `
but i'd find out `
-siqhs- `
i don't need to take care of myself `
what's meant to be will be `
i won't die ;/ `
that soon `
-lauqhs- `
♥Boyf ; i love you too `
what's th point of sayinq it `
all that matters is you know it `
ain't it not ;/ `
well `
not really `
thinkinq alot just lately `
th icecream's melted `
-lauqhs- `
i'm just thinkinq about last weekend `
icecream `
-siqhs- `
just so tired
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -`
replies to ♥Boyf `
it's not that i wanna be cold to you or what ;/ `
sorry if you feel that way `
perhaps you don't know `
but i'd tell you anyway `
maybe weird's th word `
just thinkinq about last saturday `
it fuckinq hurts `
just thinkinq about it `
sayinq this sounds fuckinq stupid `
and it doesn't make sense at all `
i know i'm beinq all bitchy and all `
but talkinq to you just reminds me so much `
-siqhs- `
2 months `
that's fuckinq lonq `
qeez ;/ `
sometimes i'd just sit here `
& think & think & think `
it hurts so fuckinq much `
knowinq you wont be there `
for 2 months `
-siqhs- `
ps `
not everyone understands that feelinq `
people'd say i'm dumb and all `
they'd be like `
how weird can i qet and all `
so i'd just shut th fuck up `
or talk to PartTime Boyf `
cause only she understands ;/ `
i know you cant defy your parents `
like most kids out there `
aint it not ;/ `
i don't blame you `
i've never did `
what for `
blaminq you won't make your parents dissappear `
i know `
it's common & understandable `
i know you sacrificed alot for me already `
what's with takinq MC to pei me and all ;/ `
-siqhs- `
qettinq your parents mad `
rushinq back and forth `
all for my fuckinq sake `
thanks Boyf <3 `
it's not that i don want to talk to you `
it just reminds me you aren't here riqht now `
-siqhs- `
just tryinq to forqet that fact `
-lauqhs- `
reality set in just riqht after you left `
-lauqhs- `
makes me realize how much i took you for qranted `
th past & before `
not now ;/ `
but my chance is over `
next chance's like 2months away `
-lauqhs- `
and it's not your fault `
i'm dyinq to finish up everythinq `
incomplete works and all `
sorry i've hurt you `
i know i suck `
seriously ; i do `
i've never meant it that way `
i think it's awesome we don't fiqht already `
like "ohwowshockinqlyamazinq" `
don't think too much `
nothinq chanqed my views of you `
i'm just beinq quiet lately `
you did nothinq wronq `
everythinq riqht `
perfect Boyf and all `
i know you don't want me to be upset `
i'm upset ;/ `
but it's not your fault `
like my previous post `
i already said `
life aint about choices ;/ `
it's a forced thinq `
no one's to be blamed `
do take care of yourself ;/ `
i know it's touqh over there `
sorry i can't do anythinq `
makes me feel fuckinq worse `
do update me on your blood test `
don't hide from me anythinq okays `
i'd find out eventually ;/ `
like your "surprise" which i found out `
which was like days after you planned `
-lauqhs- `
it's cute ; th way you do it `
but i'd find out `
-siqhs- `
i don't need to take care of myself `
what's meant to be will be `
i won't die ;/ `
that soon `
-lauqhs- `
♥Boyf ; i love you too `
what's th point of sayinq it `
all that matters is you know it `
ain't it not ;/ `
Labels: i ♥ you still ; really do `
