♥ Wednesday, March 18
dear boyf `
don't think too much
everythinq's qonna be alriqht `
life's like that `
i'd try to take your home as my home `
sooner or later `
sorry `
but riqht now `
all i really need is peace `
been feelinq fucked up lately `
you ; with th exams `
& me with th fucked up world `
qod `
sorry boyf `
hadn't had time to accompany you `
funny thouqhts miqht've ran throuqh `
but don't let them qet far fetched `
certain stuffs will remain that way `
and certain stuffs definately wouldn't `
aqe for example `
-siqhs- `
what's life `
i don't understand yet `
as to why you deleted your bloq `
but i quess life's about choices `
perhaps you don't want me to know `
-siqhs- `
well ; life's like that `
i doubt you understand `
beinq tortured here `
feelinq so fucked up lately `
damn your fuckinq exams `
oh well who cares anyway `
i'd be better off dead `
why don't you just text me `
that's for immediate answers `
been a qood qirl lately ;] `
just studyinq those notes `
qettinq work done for once `
much as i'd love to confide in you `
try to understand th constrained situation `
pretty fucked up `
find me if you want `
i'd be more then qlad to see you `
maybe you'd be able to suck it out aqain `
th fucked up information `
i quess you already half quessed `
yes its linked to th previous thinq `
remember `
its freaky `
fucked up shit `
-siqhs- `
know what ? `
i do hate parents `
yeah could say i 忘恩负义 `
fine ; whatever `
but think about it la `
boyf ; hope you understand `
don't think too much `
my phone's on 24/7 `
just call me for a chat ; perhaps ? `
your hols are startinq soon `
& i'll be back in school `
how does that feel ? ; awesome i quess ? `
-lauqhs- `
so much for happy endinqs `
don't think too much seriously `
i wasn't even thinkinq about those `
but qod knows what's on your mind `
such complex thinkinq of yours `
-siqhs- `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
but i quess `
without jia `
i'd most probably have qotten depression `
thanks qirl `
for always beinq there `
i love you ; i do ;] `
who's always there for me `
i've treated you hellish in th past `
yeps ; i deeply reqret it `
it's been hard for you ; i know `
to endure such hardships `
i heard you know `
-siqhs- `
i treasure you ; alot ;] `
it's always easy to strike a convo `
talkinq about anythinq under th sun `
seems so impossible with some `
even th most personal stuffs `
-lauqhs- `
crazed plans `
-siqhs- `
i'm qrateful to qod `
who has blessed me to meet you `
on th very first day in pri 1 `
never thouqht we would be besties aqain `
not after certain incidents `
toqether for 9 years ; or less perhaps ? `
shockinqly unbelievable `
thanks for th comforts darlinq ;] `
for always beinq there `
tryinq to help thouqh its impossible `
such efforts are deeply appreciated `
for tryinq to cheer me up `
sharinq th stuffs `
and everythinq `
such insanity `
same thouqhts `
life's about choices `
your willinqness ; touched me `
qreatly `
none have reached this staqe as yet `
perhaps boyf ? `
but friends are different `
classification is stupid `
but i quess you've made it `
th start of th year `
i was blind to stuffs `
thanks SY for brinqinq it up `
enliqhteninq me ; unblindinq me `
all those craps `
i'm qrateful `
i'm sensitive to these stuffs `
really `
i remember th sec1 bondinq `
another parent said th same thinq `
-lauqhs- `
funn how it happens `
ppl of th same aqe think likewise `
funny ;x `
some qot affected `
thouqht similarly `
but you didn't `
& did somethinq horrendous for me `
felt like cryinq `
didn't know how to express my qratitude `
tried `
-siqhs- `
what a failure `
heeded some advice `
and tried followinq it `
-siqhs- `
fear of failure `
such iqnorance `
for secrets ; shared by few `
spread by most `
such selfishness ; unseen by you `
a virtue so rare ; you accomplished `
kept it quiet `
my stupid bad hobby `
i'd try to quit `
at least you didn't say `
-siqhs- `
some people would `
fuck `
oh well ~ `
i just wanna say thanks `
but thanks is a small word `
just doesn't fit in th picture `
but thanks jiamin ;] i love you `
muacks <3 `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
today `
went studyinq `
see dear ; i very quai one ok `
-_- had my damn hair cut `
wonderful `
finished studyinq `
mum was kind `
bothered pickinq me up `
startinq crappinq on somethinq `
seriously i qot fucked up `
dear look at this paraqraph `
& i quess you know my feelinqs `
why i emo-ed `
why i qot fucked up `
why i hate my life `
that's it `
just waitinq for someone `
made me wait for lonq `
& still not here `
fucked up `
hmphs -_- `
don't think too much
everythinq's qonna be alriqht `
life's like that `
i'd try to take your home as my home `
sooner or later `
sorry `
but riqht now `
all i really need is peace `
been feelinq fucked up lately `
you ; with th exams `
& me with th fucked up world `
qod `
sorry boyf `
hadn't had time to accompany you `
funny thouqhts miqht've ran throuqh `
but don't let them qet far fetched `
certain stuffs will remain that way `
and certain stuffs definately wouldn't `
aqe for example `
-siqhs- `
what's life `
i don't understand yet `
as to why you deleted your bloq `
but i quess life's about choices `
perhaps you don't want me to know `
-siqhs- `
well ; life's like that `
i doubt you understand `
beinq tortured here `
feelinq so fucked up lately `
damn your fuckinq exams `
oh well who cares anyway `
i'd be better off dead `
why don't you just text me `
that's for immediate answers `
been a qood qirl lately ;] `
just studyinq those notes `
qettinq work done for once `
much as i'd love to confide in you `
try to understand th constrained situation `
pretty fucked up `
find me if you want `
i'd be more then qlad to see you `
maybe you'd be able to suck it out aqain `
th fucked up information `
i quess you already half quessed `
yes its linked to th previous thinq `
remember `
its freaky `
fucked up shit `
-siqhs- `
know what ? `
i do hate parents `
yeah could say i 忘恩负义 `
fine ; whatever `
but think about it la `
boyf ; hope you understand `
don't think too much `
my phone's on 24/7 `
just call me for a chat ; perhaps ? `
your hols are startinq soon `
& i'll be back in school `
how does that feel ? ; awesome i quess ? `
-lauqhs- `
so much for happy endinqs `
don't think too much seriously `
i wasn't even thinkinq about those `
but qod knows what's on your mind `
such complex thinkinq of yours `
-siqhs- `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
but i quess `
without jia `
i'd most probably have qotten depression `
thanks qirl `
for always beinq there `
i love you ; i do ;] `
who's always there for me `
i've treated you hellish in th past `
yeps ; i deeply reqret it `
it's been hard for you ; i know `
to endure such hardships `
i heard you know `
-siqhs- `
i treasure you ; alot ;] `
it's always easy to strike a convo `
talkinq about anythinq under th sun `
seems so impossible with some `
even th most personal stuffs `
-lauqhs- `
crazed plans `
-siqhs- `
i'm qrateful to qod `
who has blessed me to meet you `
on th very first day in pri 1 `
never thouqht we would be besties aqain `
not after certain incidents `
toqether for 9 years ; or less perhaps ? `
shockinqly unbelievable `
thanks for th comforts darlinq ;] `
for always beinq there `
tryinq to help thouqh its impossible `
such efforts are deeply appreciated `
for tryinq to cheer me up `
sharinq th stuffs `
and everythinq `
such insanity `
same thouqhts `
life's about choices `
your willinqness ; touched me `
qreatly `
none have reached this staqe as yet `
perhaps boyf ? `
but friends are different `
classification is stupid `
but i quess you've made it `
th start of th year `
i was blind to stuffs `
thanks SY for brinqinq it up `
enliqhteninq me ; unblindinq me `
all those craps `
i'm qrateful `
i'm sensitive to these stuffs `
really `
i remember th sec1 bondinq `
another parent said th same thinq `
-lauqhs- `
funn how it happens `
ppl of th same aqe think likewise `
funny ;x `
some qot affected `
thouqht similarly `
but you didn't `
& did somethinq horrendous for me `
felt like cryinq `
didn't know how to express my qratitude `
tried `
-siqhs- `
what a failure `
heeded some advice `
and tried followinq it `
-siqhs- `
fear of failure `
such iqnorance `
for secrets ; shared by few `
spread by most `
such selfishness ; unseen by you `
a virtue so rare ; you accomplished `
kept it quiet `
my stupid bad hobby `
i'd try to quit `
at least you didn't say `
-siqhs- `
some people would `
fuck `
oh well ~ `
i just wanna say thanks `
but thanks is a small word `
just doesn't fit in th picture `
but thanks jiamin ;] i love you `
muacks <3 `
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ `
today `
went studyinq `
see dear ; i very quai one ok `
-_- had my damn hair cut `
wonderful `
finished studyinq `
mum was kind `
bothered pickinq me up `
startinq crappinq on somethinq `
seriously i qot fucked up `
dear look at this paraqraph `
& i quess you know my feelinqs `
why i emo-ed `
why i qot fucked up `
why i hate my life `
that's it `
just waitinq for someone `
made me wait for lonq `
& still not here `
fucked up `
hmphs -_- `
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