♥ Friday, December 19
woke up in th morninq `
decided to bake a cake for kor `
-lauqhs- `
failure it looked so funny `
stupid icinq funny `
he brouqht me heineken `
happiness `
he draqqed infront of me T_T `
fine i'm pathetic `
stupid qirl `
only drinks small kicks `
-_- yeah so what `
life was qettinq bitter already `
so i added suqar `
funny eh ? `
suqared beer `
doesn't taste nice `
plain old heineken tast better `
no one knows why i qot anqry `
it's funny isn't it ? `
life's a mystery `
waitinq to be revealed `
i'll reveal my anqer in a few days `
anyway `
if you can't take my moodswinqs `
th door's open `
leave if you must `
such sacrifices may be forced `
unwillinqly ; yet a must `
had peeps over aqain `
no point rushinq me peeps `
i'm slow and pathetic `
so they came `
was in thunderous mood `
tried keepinq it in `
but it qot let out anyway `
after a few rounds of audi `
went to kor's room `
emo-ed and all la `
played th old sonqs of th past `
nearly teared `
my 3CM nail broke `
a siqn of losinq somethinq precious `
for somethinq i cared for `
so lonq `
and now its broken `
just like losinq someone `
i once cared for `
and now lost `
broken off `
it always happens `
oh forqhet it `
such misery should be left alone `
untouched ; unfelt `
no one understands `
felt that i missed dear alot `
for someone whom i love `
someone of qreat importance `
anqer ; emotional mistakes `
had th feelinq of slamminq stuffs `
thouqht about how i used to be `
doors slamminq daily `
burninq of paper `
th vulqarities shot `
oh i do miss th times `
yet chanqe is somethinq so powerful `
overniqht chanqes made impossible `
i doubt you quys ever think `
why i qot anqry `
i believe you're thinkinq `
if i don't say `
how would you quys ever know ? `
people with hiqh EQ `
would understand `
perhaps i owe you an apoloqy `
sorry `
you qot it `
but to my anqer `
i doubt you quys even know `
-lauqhs- `
i won't say now `
days later perhaps `
then you qet pissed off ? `
none of my business now eh `
-lauqhs- `
you quys're qonna qet a shock `
but i don't care anyway `
after dyinq for a lil while `
went over for dinner `
SMSed punkie throuqhout `
he tried cheerinq me up `
success and all `
thanks punkie `
how come you understand ? `
th jokes `
indeed they made one feel better `
finished dinner `
went over for pool sessions `
felt super shit and all `
fuck houqanq `
seriously `
addinq qasoline to flames `
old wrinkly haqqard slut `
that's what you are `
didn't have an awesome mood `
met up with xun daddiie `
thank qod he came `
cabbed over to kovan `
pool-ed `
super weird sticks `
heavy and slippery `
but had fun anyway `
pooled until 2AM as usual `
felt so much better soon `
passinq out anqer and all `
went home `
felt super anqry aqain `
certain SMSes affect me qreatly `
left me shakinq inside `
to lose somethinq `
i quess beinq immuned to pain `
doesn't matter `
a loss so qreat `
it still hurts anyway `
but i believe in th old sayinq `
whatever that's yours `
will be yours `
may it take years to return `
it will still be yours `
yet if it isn't yours to be `
no matter how much force is used `
nonetheless `
it will never be yours `
locked ourselves in my room `
and let everythinq out `
i thank kor for everythinq `
this year `
who's there for me `
who's ears are lent to me `
dear ; kor `
such precious people `
bearers of th secrets `
th comforts `
-siqhs- `
i don't deserve them anyway `
thankful for them `
th company `
and for wastinq your time `
kor chatted with me until 5AM `
qrateful for th company `
th help for ventinq anqer `
qrateful for th solutions qiven `
th opinions shared `
despite th situation i'm in `
it really makes me feel blessed `
to have such people around me `
quess i love my family `
after today `
i placed dear first `
for beinq there always `
quess i'll qo qombak tomorrow `
i do miss dear so `
and dear's qot a heavy flu `
♥DEAR `
please understand `
i love you `
perhaps i don't SMS you much `
but like you understand `
you live in my heart `
huqqinq th jacket `
i just realized `
dear `
you mean so much to me `
decided to bake a cake for kor `
-lauqhs- `
failure it looked so funny `
stupid icinq funny `
he brouqht me heineken `
happiness `
he draqqed infront of me T_T `
fine i'm pathetic `
stupid qirl `
only drinks small kicks `
-_- yeah so what `
life was qettinq bitter already `
so i added suqar `
funny eh ? `
suqared beer `
doesn't taste nice `
plain old heineken tast better `
no one knows why i qot anqry `
it's funny isn't it ? `
life's a mystery `
waitinq to be revealed `
i'll reveal my anqer in a few days `
anyway `
if you can't take my moodswinqs `
th door's open `
leave if you must `
such sacrifices may be forced `
unwillinqly ; yet a must `
had peeps over aqain `
no point rushinq me peeps `
i'm slow and pathetic `
so they came `
was in thunderous mood `
tried keepinq it in `
but it qot let out anyway `
after a few rounds of audi `
went to kor's room `
emo-ed and all la `
played th old sonqs of th past `
nearly teared `
my 3CM nail broke `
a siqn of losinq somethinq precious `
for somethinq i cared for `
so lonq `
and now its broken `
just like losinq someone `
i once cared for `
and now lost `
broken off `
it always happens `
oh forqhet it `
such misery should be left alone `
untouched ; unfelt `
no one understands `
felt that i missed dear alot `
for someone whom i love `
someone of qreat importance `
anqer ; emotional mistakes `
had th feelinq of slamminq stuffs `
thouqht about how i used to be `
doors slamminq daily `
burninq of paper `
th vulqarities shot `
oh i do miss th times `
yet chanqe is somethinq so powerful `
overniqht chanqes made impossible `
i doubt you quys ever think `
why i qot anqry `
i believe you're thinkinq `
if i don't say `
how would you quys ever know ? `
people with hiqh EQ `
would understand `
perhaps i owe you an apoloqy `
sorry `
you qot it `
but to my anqer `
i doubt you quys even know `
-lauqhs- `
i won't say now `
days later perhaps `
then you qet pissed off ? `
none of my business now eh `
-lauqhs- `
you quys're qonna qet a shock `
but i don't care anyway `
after dyinq for a lil while `
went over for dinner `
SMSed punkie throuqhout `
he tried cheerinq me up `
success and all `
thanks punkie `
how come you understand ? `
th jokes `
indeed they made one feel better `
finished dinner `
went over for pool sessions `
felt super shit and all `
fuck houqanq `
seriously `
addinq qasoline to flames `
old wrinkly haqqard slut `
that's what you are `
didn't have an awesome mood `
met up with xun daddiie `
thank qod he came `
cabbed over to kovan `
pool-ed `
super weird sticks `
heavy and slippery `
but had fun anyway `
pooled until 2AM as usual `
felt so much better soon `
passinq out anqer and all `
went home `
felt super anqry aqain `
certain SMSes affect me qreatly `
left me shakinq inside `
to lose somethinq `
i quess beinq immuned to pain `
doesn't matter `
a loss so qreat `
it still hurts anyway `
but i believe in th old sayinq `
whatever that's yours `
will be yours `
may it take years to return `
it will still be yours `
yet if it isn't yours to be `
no matter how much force is used `
nonetheless `
it will never be yours `
locked ourselves in my room `
and let everythinq out `
i thank kor for everythinq `
this year `
who's there for me `
who's ears are lent to me `
dear ; kor `
such precious people `
bearers of th secrets `
th comforts `
-siqhs- `
i don't deserve them anyway `
thankful for them `
th company `
and for wastinq your time `
kor chatted with me until 5AM `
qrateful for th company `
th help for ventinq anqer `
qrateful for th solutions qiven `
th opinions shared `
despite th situation i'm in `
it really makes me feel blessed `
to have such people around me `
quess i love my family `
after today `
i placed dear first `
for beinq there always `
quess i'll qo qombak tomorrow `
i do miss dear so `
and dear's qot a heavy flu `
♥DEAR `
please understand `
i love you `
perhaps i don't SMS you much `
but like you understand `
you live in my heart `
huqqinq th jacket `
i just realized `
dear `
you mean so much to me `
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