♥ Friday, December 5
haiis `
don't ask why i'm mia-inq `
just not in th mood anymore `
won't be seeinq me online much `
don't feel like it anyway `
dearest qod up there `
take me away sooner would ya ? `
i can't stand it anymore `
it's just hurtinq so damn bad `
anyway forqhet it `
i know he's super anqry `
don't bother spamminq aqain `
won't be online anyway `
i read his bloq already `
-siqhs- `
thinqs had to turn out this way `
no one understands me `
seriously `
no one just no one `
everyone assumes it their way `
don't judqe my life would ya ? `
it's stupid and pathetic `
you don't understand me `
no ; not one bit `
what lies within `
is different from what you see `
you don't expect me to rely on you ? `
from past experience `
i understand nothinq lasts forever `
and that i'll not hold on `
for i believe in fate aqain `
-siqhs- `
it's hard for me to trust `
from betrayal `
i've never trusted much `
don't treat it as if i trust them much `
yeah i love my GANs `
who else is there `
when you're qone `
when you're busy `
i'm not that anti bitch you see `
i know you'll be anqry after readinq `
but what else can i do `
such horrendous thouqhts forminq `
to why i cried `
how would you feel `
if i would to diq up your past `
all th horrid imaqes `
it's true when i say `
you don't understand me `
don't expect me to open up `
not even my GANs know anyway `
so no point blaminq them `
like relations don last forever `
GANs don't either `
you must be wonderinq `
why i turned out like that `
you have NO idea how i'm feelinq `
have you ever been betrayed ? `
taunted ; your tales twisted ? `
perhaps ; yet perhaps not `
such cruelity happens `
you just don't know `
no ; i don't need your sympathy `
don't say you don't mind `
i know you do `
you most probably think i'm selfish `
yeah , all humans are `
such deprivation `
but i lived throuqh it `
no use readinq throuqh my inbox `
outbox and so whatever `
i told you `
trust is somethinq `
quite impossible for me `
don't bother `
come think about it `
i believe jiamin qot th closest `
but not there yet `
such torments `
qod -_- `
i hate today `
i wish i could drop dead `
i know you hate me `
no one's blaminq you `
life is about choices aint it not ? `
it's a choice to make `
to me `
nothinq really matters riqht now `
perhaps its qone `
or not ; only time will tell `
i rather be left alone for times now `
i'm adaptinq to life now `
a painful and tearful fantasy `
whatever `
-siqhs- `
it doesn't matter `
that's just another phrase of comfort `
-siqhs- `
you know `
it really took me months to forqhet `
and who's here to ruin it `
i know you don't want me to have a BF `
but seriously `
you're nothinq but a filthy liar `
no use lyinq `
no use tryinq `
you forqhot , `
i'm immune to pain `
anyway `
i can chanqe anytime i want `
facts will be facts `
don use lies on me `
reality is cruel `
but you must understand `
you're nothinq to me `
just donkey shit of a holy cow `
that's what you are `
anyway `
it doesnt matter to me `
if you're unhappy `
just come my house `
you know where i live `
i don't mind `
i'm super free anyway `
rather then hidinq behind th phone `
balless jerkface `
eew -_- `
i thank qod for everythinq `
but it's cruel `
i'm lyinq throuqh my teeth all th time `
i quess you don't know either `
don't bother cominq down `
no one's beqqinq you to anyway `
i wonder why i'm doinq all these `
it's delirious and redundant `
i feel like tellinq myself `
i don't need you `
but that's a lie ain't it ? `
-siqhs- `
don't say thinqs you don't mean `
you don't know how hurtful they are `
and stop rubbinq salt into my wound `
i wish i didn't accept your help `
i wish i was that heartless bitch `
why am i so damn stupid `
fuck `
jesus i hate myself `
my qod T_T `
i hate talkinq now `
you know how fucked up i feel ? `
quess not `
esp when you ask me WHY `
i HATE that fuckinq word `
stop forcinq me `
th more you force me `
th more its fadinq away `
i don't take harshness `
however you treat me `
i'll treat you th same `
iqnore my tears `
they're just lyinq `
th hurt cease existance already `
whatever you're unhappy about `
just shoot `
i don't care `
and don't blame me for shoutinq `
i hardly do it `
don't force me `
you made me twice `
don't do it aqain `
and no `
i'm not blaminq you `
what riqhts do i have ? `
none `
so why should i bother `
wastinq my breath and stuffs `
don't qet me wronq `
i'm not hintinq anythinq `
for my darlinqs `
thanks for th comforts `
even if you quys don't know why `
thanks for beinq there `
thanks jiamin ~ `
for always beinq there `
thanks shuaixionq erzi ~ `
for th comforts and "freehuq" `
thanks jerrold kor ~ `
for peiinq me and always there `
thanks daniel di ~ `
for th chats and understandinqs `
thanks shenq daddiie ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks sebas ahqonq ~ `
for th shoulder and comforts `
thanks siyu mei ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks esther marmiie ~ `
for beinq there `
thanks quys ~ `
for everythinq `
and jiamin ! `
you're true blue `
thanks babe `
well `
qoodbye now `
i can't stand it `
til' then , `
don't ask why i'm mia-inq `
just not in th mood anymore `
won't be seeinq me online much `
don't feel like it anyway `
dearest qod up there `
take me away sooner would ya ? `
i can't stand it anymore `
it's just hurtinq so damn bad `
anyway forqhet it `
i know he's super anqry `
don't bother spamminq aqain `
won't be online anyway `
i read his bloq already `
-siqhs- `
thinqs had to turn out this way `
no one understands me `
seriously `
no one just no one `
everyone assumes it their way `
don't judqe my life would ya ? `
it's stupid and pathetic `
you don't understand me `
no ; not one bit `
what lies within `
is different from what you see `
you don't expect me to rely on you ? `
from past experience `
i understand nothinq lasts forever `
and that i'll not hold on `
for i believe in fate aqain `
-siqhs- `
it's hard for me to trust `
from betrayal `
i've never trusted much `
don't treat it as if i trust them much `
yeah i love my GANs `
who else is there `
when you're qone `
when you're busy `
i'm not that anti bitch you see `
i know you'll be anqry after readinq `
but what else can i do `
such horrendous thouqhts forminq `
to why i cried `
how would you feel `
if i would to diq up your past `
all th horrid imaqes `
it's true when i say `
you don't understand me `
don't expect me to open up `
not even my GANs know anyway `
so no point blaminq them `
like relations don last forever `
GANs don't either `
you must be wonderinq `
why i turned out like that `
you have NO idea how i'm feelinq `
have you ever been betrayed ? `
taunted ; your tales twisted ? `
perhaps ; yet perhaps not `
such cruelity happens `
you just don't know `
no ; i don't need your sympathy `
don't say you don't mind `
i know you do `
you most probably think i'm selfish `
yeah , all humans are `
such deprivation `
but i lived throuqh it `
no use readinq throuqh my inbox `
outbox and so whatever `
i told you `
trust is somethinq `
quite impossible for me `
don't bother `
come think about it `
i believe jiamin qot th closest `
but not there yet `
such torments `
qod -_- `
i hate today `
i wish i could drop dead `
i know you hate me `
no one's blaminq you `
life is about choices aint it not ? `
it's a choice to make `
to me `
nothinq really matters riqht now `
perhaps its qone `
or not ; only time will tell `
i rather be left alone for times now `
i'm adaptinq to life now `
a painful and tearful fantasy `
whatever `
-siqhs- `
it doesn't matter `
that's just another phrase of comfort `
-siqhs- `
you know `
it really took me months to forqhet `
and who's here to ruin it `
i know you don't want me to have a BF `
but seriously `
you're nothinq but a filthy liar `
no use lyinq `
no use tryinq `
you forqhot , `
i'm immune to pain `
anyway `
i can chanqe anytime i want `
facts will be facts `
don use lies on me `
reality is cruel `
but you must understand `
you're nothinq to me `
just donkey shit of a holy cow `
that's what you are `
anyway `
it doesnt matter to me `
if you're unhappy `
just come my house `
you know where i live `
i don't mind `
i'm super free anyway `
rather then hidinq behind th phone `
balless jerkface `
eew -_- `
i thank qod for everythinq `
but it's cruel `
i'm lyinq throuqh my teeth all th time `
i quess you don't know either `
don't bother cominq down `
no one's beqqinq you to anyway `
i wonder why i'm doinq all these `
it's delirious and redundant `
i feel like tellinq myself `
i don't need you `
but that's a lie ain't it ? `
-siqhs- `
don't say thinqs you don't mean `
you don't know how hurtful they are `
and stop rubbinq salt into my wound `
i wish i didn't accept your help `
i wish i was that heartless bitch `
why am i so damn stupid `
fuck `
jesus i hate myself `
my qod T_T `
i hate talkinq now `
you know how fucked up i feel ? `
quess not `
esp when you ask me WHY `
i HATE that fuckinq word `
stop forcinq me `
th more you force me `
th more its fadinq away `
i don't take harshness `
however you treat me `
i'll treat you th same `
iqnore my tears `
they're just lyinq `
th hurt cease existance already `
whatever you're unhappy about `
just shoot `
i don't care `
and don't blame me for shoutinq `
i hardly do it `
don't force me `
you made me twice `
don't do it aqain `
and no `
i'm not blaminq you `
what riqhts do i have ? `
none `
so why should i bother `
wastinq my breath and stuffs `
don't qet me wronq `
i'm not hintinq anythinq `
for my darlinqs `
thanks for th comforts `
even if you quys don't know why `
thanks for beinq there `
thanks jiamin ~ `
for always beinq there `
thanks shuaixionq erzi ~ `
for th comforts and "freehuq" `
thanks jerrold kor ~ `
for peiinq me and always there `
thanks daniel di ~ `
for th chats and understandinqs `
thanks shenq daddiie ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks sebas ahqonq ~ `
for th shoulder and comforts `
thanks siyu mei ~ `
for th comforts `
thanks esther marmiie ~ `
for beinq there `
thanks quys ~ `
for everythinq `
and jiamin ! `
you're true blue `
thanks babe `
well `
qoodbye now `
i can't stand it `
til' then , `
Labels: don't assume it your way `
