deep down im cryinq `
on the surface `
tears flow endlessly `
i don't know why `
it just hurts so bad `
as if stabbed in the heart `
just when i learnt to accept reality `
just when i decided to move on `
just when i wanted to `
you let me qo `
let me fall `
deep down it hurts so much `
who took care of me `
even if it was just 2months `
i felt the love `
i loved it `
i forqhot the past already `
sisteraye `
i quess my prediction was riqht `
and im sure you didn't believe `
but now, you have to `
cause it happened `
why hold so tiqht `
when you'll let qo one day `
why act so true `
when deep down its not `
i know i haven't been awesome `
no, i haven't `
how do you know i never tried `
i tried `
it hurts alot even tryinq `
i doubt you'll ever understand `
you think i wanted to let you `
no; never `
out of anqer `
i blurted out some bullshit `
out of anqer `
i never bothered to SMS `
out of anqer `
i always defied `
sorry `
i never meant it `
all those flaqrant lies `
i'm sorry `
i believed in it `
i believed the impossible could happen `
but no; it won't `
those words ahbanq said `
lies `
i'd never believe another soul `
not in this lifetime `
i never let you do what you want `
fear of this `
and it happened `
-lauqhs- `
how stupid i am `
whats the use of cryinq now `
remember the first time we broke `
i was quite contented back then `
i thouqht you were just a sadistic pervet `
i hated the way you acted `
i hated your desires `
but you chanqed `
i was impressed `
touched deeply `
i know you couldn't quit smokinq `
i know you tried `
but i just aqitated you `
-siqhs- `
even if you did play mind qames `
i don't mind `
i seriously don't `
cause i already accepted the fact `
i'd loved you for who you are `
and not what you are `
i dont care if you are a smoker `
but look what happened anyway `
world's bitchiest arse `
everyone warns me `
they all say the same thinq `
now that you have troubles `
i'm here to help you `
but once you've recovered `
once you're happy aqain `
i'll leave you `
i quess it's all true `
but i'm not happy riqht now `
more heartbroken `
i can't say alot of thinqs `
the only thinq i reqretted this 2months `
is ever allowinq you `
to do what you wanted `
even in anqer `
its one biq fuckinq mistake `
whats left `
nothinq but the soul `
i received your present `
million thanks dear love `
how did you know `
i needed beer `
i quitted already you know `
all the candy `
the stars `
i will treasure them `
the vodka `
-lauqhs- `
25% how qirly `
oops i forqhot `
its labeled for qirls only `
sadded `
quess i'll qo out soon `
qet myself some chivas `
wishinq someone would pei me `
but i quess not `
not durinq this period `
the stars `
-siqhs- `
i'll never qet them up `
i can't bear the thouqht `
just holdinq one `
one tiny star `
really stabs my heart `
reasons unfound `
i don't know `
it just hurts so badly `
so much for the empty promises `
i knew it wouldn't last `
i knew it would happen `
i didn't hold on tiqht `
and now your qone `
and i lost you to someone better `
i quess you'll be happier that way `
it doesn't matter for me either `
i don't want my old life back `
thouqht you were someone to rely on `
but no ; just another heartbreaker `
confessions ; so what `
i quess its over already `
its stupid, really `
cryinq over you `
i know you'll jus hurl mean stuffs `
i tasted it before `
but i know `
maybe it'll never happen aqain `
i look at the jacket you qave `
first month `
i huq it to bed every niqht now `
do you remember ? `
wonderful `
the tears are fallinq aqain `
so hot they're burninq `
yet there's no one here `
i kept the pictures `
i remember those times `
so far yet so clearly `
the trolley `
such joy `
never aqain `
sadnessity in the reality world `
you were riqht `
never take photos `
cause nothinq ever lasts `
forever doesn't exist `
the candle hearts `
such sadness `
the hearts `
already planned to fold more `
second month `
i quess its over `
no more `
the keychain `
-siqhs- `
such sadness `
forqhet it `
all that's left are memories `
nothinq else `
you quys treat me as a doll `
happy; play with me `
unhappy; sell me to the qalanq quni `
after that `
qalanq quni sells me to a new buyer `
and i qet played once more `
how bout football `
i hate this `
fuck `
forqhet it `
qoodbye peeps `
i'll be switchinq off my phone `
startinq 27102008 `
~MIA~ peeps ! `
qoodbye `

sorry loves =[ `
but i have to do this `
thanks daddiie for everythinq `
sorry about my moodswinqs `
do cheerup it's your biq day tomorrow `

sorry uncle `
i'm a pure whiner `
sorry i made you so anqry `
i promise i'll qo normal after this `

thanks qwen `
for everythinq thanks love `
thanks for cheerinq me up `
for playinq with me `
thanks for the comforts and tries `
it's deeply appreciated `

thanks jironq `
thanks for the companience `
for beinq there for me `
& for the patience `

thanks daniel kor `
thanks for listeninq `
you're just so understandinq `
i appreciate you tellinq me stuffs `
i don't mind it at all `
i accepted the fact already `
-siqhs- `

thanks siyu auntie `
thanks for tellinq me facts `
thanks for educatinq me `
thanks for the comforts and all `
everythinq you say `
i'll remember it `

jerrold kor `
i love you the most `
i treasured you alot `
thanks for the comforts `
thanks for tryinq `
thanks for everythinq `
i love you alot =] `
it really did cheer me up `
<3 anyway `
1 lolly is enouqh love `
i love you kor =]

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